我要做坏女孩

我跟你们说...

远距离恋爱最可怜的是...
不能发脾气！！

你看了简讯 自己在那里失眠 他不知道
嘟着嘴巴双手交叉坐在电脑银幕前也不想回简讯 他不知道
所以你在生气 想发脾气 想有人哄 他也不知道

然后 时差问题 8个小时以后
睡觉醒了 就忘记了 就随便回复简讯
他会以后你考试没心情
然后就不了了之
因为他根本不知道你生气

我羡慕那些可以 发脾气的‘女朋友’
这个权力我都没有 很纳闷啊！


haiz.不爽啊！
我要做坏女孩
我要发脾气　

我不是好女孩
我要发脾气

我不是好脾气
我要发脾气

我不是完美的
我要发脾气

我是人家的女朋友勒
我要发脾气


偏偏你是远距离
人家看不到你的表情　
偏偏他是木纳的
所以你没有资格发脾气
偏偏他认为你脾气好
你当然也发不起脾气来

最后　只好选择　发泄　
现在　刚刚好　发泄完毕

嘟嘴　没有了
脾气　消了
那就　睡觉吧

晚安

然后　他可能不知道我生气过．．．
不然　就是很久以后他才发现．．．
但是　他一定不知道我为什么要发脾气．．．



认命！！！

我要做坏女孩
永远有权利发脾气！！！！

不要再给我顶着一个好女孩的光环了
我是一个坏到半死、脾气超不好、超级野蛮#、超级幼稚的女孩！！

真的羡慕那些可以发脾气的女生
那些可以让女朋友发脾气的男生
什么时候我可以来一个大大的脾气？？

geramnya...

不要问我什么事，女生发脾气可以不需要理由的，而且也懒惰讲了...

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原来幸福不只是有人爱你、疼你、愿意照顾你、帮你洗厕所；
他还可以让你肆无忌惮地发脾气，然后用心+设法地哄你开心...

我要大大生地说： 我要这个权力啦！

男生们，如果女朋友敢敢在你身上发脾气，那代表你已经是离她心里最近的人了。
你要默默承受她的脾气，然后再设法哄哄她开心，你们就会成为最幸福的恋人了。

~妮~

好，我要睡觉了。自己发脾气都没人哄的，睡觉比较好，heng!!

I <3 crab

话说，8个星期以后又开始另一段远距离了...
我的感情路真崎岖．．．

真的会想念
有你的空气、
你制造的惊喜、
你的情人节烛光晚餐、
你的冰淇淋奖赏、
你的早餐、
你的招牌tomyam炒饭、
你的发牢骚、
你的浪漫情史、
你的呕吐糗事、
你的偏食、
我们的迷你玫瑰花、
我们的脱发投诉、
我们的冬季公主落难游、
我们的郁金香见证婚礼、
我们的蜜月分离游、
还有很多很多的特别回忆...

这段相依为命的日子，
还真的会特别怀念．．．

我..已经进入情绪化的阶段了...
你..千万不要送我机，我会哭的！

哈哈，好像还很早呢，还有8个礼拜！哈哈！

Singapore - 5 cases of H1N1

Unfortunately, Singapore has confirmed 5 cases of H1N1. As usual, the viruses are majorly transmitted in the aircraft/airport. Latest news please refer to www.moh.gov.sg.

The affected rows are:
- 30-36 for SQ917 on 26 May;
- 30-36 for UA803 on 26 May, and
- 52-58 for UA895 on 25 May.

The number of worldwide cases have increased about 3000 cases since my last update few days ago.

It will be kept increasing ...

What else can we do??

Please stop the mutation, else imagine the day the virus has comfortably overcome the human defense system....

Pray Pray!!

It's not a traveling season at all!!

世界这兴趣....榴莲国度

原来，我想逃避的时候，就会不知不觉把自己的注意力引向 自助旅行和世界 这两种东西。
有时候，想想，明明自己爱营养，可是如果把营养这兴趣放在考卷的题目上，它一点都不吸引我。反而，让我对它越来越反感，原来兴趣不可建立在学业和考试上？

幸好，世界和旅行这两样是不必考试的。其实，看世界，也不一样要用旅行来完成，有时候看看别人的故事也很不错。现实是残酷的，自己是无法走完整个世界。不过，我却想走整个马来西亚...慢慢走，慢慢看我们的国家，撇开那些我讨厌的政治和治安问题，其实我们的国家很不错... 有山给我爬、有海给我看、一年如夏，治装问题不大、生活也不太压迫...

有个朋友身在瑞典，她的中国教授/上司看到她就特别喜欢她（瑞典的大马人是稀有品种）。他认为大部分的中国人早已忘了 传统 这东西，他倒是在大马的华人身上看到了传统的美德，因为他有一个马华媳妇，可惜她已早逝。因为中国迅速发展，城市化的中国人为了普升国际化，有些已忘了自身的传统。 但，我可不是一支竹竿打翻症条船哦。



彳亍地平线 1和2 是两本喜爱趴趴走马来西亚人极为熟悉的书籍。

该作者，林悦，也出版了第3本书名为 ‘榴莲国度’。



该书名也很清楚地告诉你，她这次写的是关于马来西亚。别以为这是本普通的旅游书，有风光明媚的照片等等。不，这是一本马来西亚人走马来西亚半岛写下的故事，她探访了第一代的中国移民、有支持回教党的华人等等... 这是一本集合3大名族的马来西亚故事...

我没看过这本书，但我知道林悦爱国；我也爱我的国家。有机会，我想看看这本书。或许，坐在kinokuniya书局里看，也不错。因为，发现自己的经济负担越来越重了，不想乱花钱了，能省则省。毕业以后，再也不能任性了。 所以，世界这种兴趣，真的只能当 兴趣？

最后，想说，这本书，唤醒了我 -- 别忽略身边最美的风景。我总是把目标看得远远的，其实离你最近的，也有好风光。其实，是自己到了遥远的地方，走了半个地球，才毅然发现，近近的也很不错。最近，发现了Tioman的几个村子很美、Sibu和Rawa这些岛屿都可媲美热浪岛、林明山的日出云海和彩虹瀑布很壮光、沙巴不止KK很值得一去，整个沙巴都给了你最美的风景还有价廉物美的海鲜！还有Sipadan的天空和海水也很蓝! 我还想去国家公园，我说了好多年啊！

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今天，很开心...
因为，我的另一个梦想又突然燃烧....而且收到他的支持和鼓励...
这是另一个事业的可能性，也是我曾经想过的，却因为种种原因而放弃。
熟悉我的人会知道，那是我的其中一个志愿。哈哈~
虽然不知道可能性有多高，不过，考完试后打算呈上申请表格试试看...

还有，今天有个网友对我超好，帮了我很多忙...
这个网友好像很38下，但是帮我查了网站、打了几通电话，超感动的...
虽然事情也没有什么新的进展，等我考试后再处理看看...
考完试再跟这个新认识的网友好好聊聊,还要跟很多好朋友聊天...
自从来到英国念书后，msn常常都是离线状态呢！


现在的目标是要那个美美的degree, 最后冲刺啦！！

aza aza fighting...

迟来的端午节快乐

想说...

迟来的端午节快乐...
na, still remember in year 2, we chiong to bugis from dover after our BIA revision (for the exam??), in the evening, just to share a bak zhang...haha...

只不过是另一个没有粽子的端午节！

身处异乡已5年了，也度过无数没有应节食物的传统节日...其实，也习惯了。



很想回去以后，学习烹调家里的传统的食物...
比如，新年时学做年糕和一些年饼、端午节学做粽子、中秋节学做月饼...
还有，我要学做祖母和外婆的penang laksa, hokkien mee，卤鸭...
这些道地和正宗的食谱可不是youtube可以学到的哦！
就算是一个马来西亚半岛，同样的食物也会有不一样的口味喜好和烹调方式！

年轻的一代，尤其是身在异乡的游子，已经没有人多少会做这些食物，我很想学起来，不让他们失传..haha..
最重要的是，我身在异乡也可以吃到道地的Penang Laksa...

好想吃laksa...

那天小弟有说，如果这里找到laksa bunga, laksa daun, 他就做给我吃...可是，怎么可能找得到？？！！
要在新加坡找到这些bunga dan daun已经很难了，更何况是英国！！他很坏！！





顺便纪录...前两天我的早餐是我最爱的面粉糕，终于吃到江鱼仔和面粉糕，谢谢我的螃蟹相公，我也要学这道面粉糕！

我爱我的家

今天的作文题目是我爱我的家。小学时，作文都是这样开始的...

我有一个小康之家，上有一位严肃的爸爸和一位贤慧的妈妈，还有一位很凶悍但优秀的姐姐，下有一个顽皮的臭弟弟和一个聪明的胖妹妹。

爸爸是一家之主，没人敢跟他驳嘴。小时候的爸爸总是日出夜归，我们跟严肃的爸爸交谈甚少。长大以后虽然我比他还罗索，要他戒烟戒酒照顾身体，但却跟爸爸的感情变得更好。爸爸很心软，听说是遗传了我没见过的爷爷。爸爸常常说，爷爷是我们村子的好人，心肠很好，乐于助人。心软是好吗？不晓得，不过我却遗传了这点。爸爸的记忆力也比较差，这我也 ‘侥幸’ 在精子和卵子结合时遗传了。不过呢，我爸就是很可爱。妈妈已经有高血压，我奉劝爸爸不要让妈妈的心脏负担太大。爸爸说：我每天要跟你的妈妈吵架，才算恩爱，才能过日子。　爸爸说：你久久打电话回来就好，但是，我每次打电话回去，他都会问你为什么没有打电话回来。　每次我听了，都很无言。　

妈妈是个最贤惠和聪明的女人。家里大小事情都是妈妈在处理，不管是挣钱养家，还是照顾和教育我们四个孩子，她都很优秀。妈妈从小虽然课业优秀，但家境不好，身为大姐的她，为了让其他六个弟妹可以念书，她只念完小六便进了社会大学。妈妈很朴素，不打扮、不买名牌，不追求时尚，只知道什么是对孩子好的必需品。虽然不懂英、马语言，但中文却很好。从小，她与我们的普通谈话都会用成语和谚语，可见我们兄弟姐妹的中文都是从小被妈妈熏陶的。妈妈对我们的学业并没有要求，从来不过问我的考试成绩，最注意的那些SPM的成绩等等；但她对我们的做人处事道理却不马虎。我们从小都是最乖、最听话、最有礼貌和懂事的小孩。除此之外，妈妈的记忆力是非常好，她并不需要手机的通讯号码纪录功能，任何人的电话号码是在妈妈的脑袋。妈妈的学习能力也很强，学新的语言不是问题，即使妈妈已不再使用日语10年多，她的日语还是很好。而我，学了3年的日语，第4年早已忘空了。还有，虽然没有跟马来西亚完全脱节，我的马来语也早已不堪一击了。妈妈原本是完美视力，不过近期却遇上眼睛的问题。总而言之，我妈妈很优秀，就算在很恶劣的环境下，她都很独立，很勇敢的走下去。 这不是一言能道尽的，只能说我在我们家难念的经看到了妈妈的伟大、优秀和勇敢。可是，我好像在这里取得较少的好处，姐姐应该是拿到最多好处的坯胎了。看她现在的小成就就知道了。虽然记者薪水很低，但每一篇文章都是父母的荣耀。

2年前...

我的爸爸很帅哦？我喜欢他，因为他娶了我的优秀妈妈。



[对不起，姐，我知道你不喜欢这些照片 XD 我要减肥，回去我们再拍过，这次我的头上要有帽子的，呵呵！ 还有，弟弟的模样是跟爸爸年轻的时候一模一样的！两个大小帅哥！呵呵]

其实，这篇我的家，是要说明，我很笨。

我觉得我是家里最不会念书的小孩。弟弟不是不会念书，只是从小他心里就有一道阴影在作怪，这不是一朝一日可以摒除的。他其实是个聪明的小孩，只要用在对的地方，他会有成就的。妹妹就更不用说了，明明是个好吃懒做的胖子，可是成绩往往是让人大跌眼镜，总是榜上有名的，这让我更加不忿。不过，无可否认，她的运气和傻气是罩着她的福气。


这次考试，真得让我对自己的智慧有所保留。我想要遗传多一点妈妈的智慧和记忆力~ 她学习能力很强，就算是年近50，工作忙碌之余，她还是学会打sms， 用电脑等等...

妈啊，我要你的智慧、记忆力和学习能力！

其实写这篇的原因是我我肚子痛，我不能专心念书，我想家 T_T

哦，对了，6月9日是爸妈的银婚（25周年）纪念！ 麻烦有空的小孩们庆祝庆祝一下，我...精神上与你们同在 T_T

缺德的“烂”医生

老一代的医生，真的有医德之心。 随着社会的进步，医生被公认为学子的最高荣耀，只要成绩是榜首，人人争念医学，为家族增光, 也有前和钱途。 当然，还是有很多以医为首的学子，可惜越来越多的医生开始变质，我也接触过不少。

就算这篇被报道出来，医生还是不知道的。可我们这些凡人能够做什么呢？

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文： 黄佩玲 aka 我老大姐

二零零九年五月二十六日 下午二时二十六分

治病救人，本是医生的天职；给病人带来希望与福音，更是医生在利用科学及医术进行治疗之外所需做的，不是吗？但我却“有幸”见识了一名所谓资深的“烂”医生的一番言论，让我在“大开眼界”之余，更是“毕生难忘”。

一名因身体某器官不适的病人，自身前往城中一所著名的私人医院进行检查。院方在进行初步检查后奉劝病人留医作进一步的详细检验。然而，病人在留医两天后，除了进行基本检验外，没什么机会与主治医生碰面，要求取回本身的检验报告也不果。

病人忧心自身的家务与生意，在院方没阻止的情况下获准出院。岂料，病人在当晚服下医生开的药方后无故昏倒，便在家人的护送下漏夜赶往私人诊所就医；数天后即回到原来的私人医院进行复诊。然而，医生的一番言论却令我勃然大怒，那种腔调简直令“我”发指！

话 说，病人跟医生说明自己是在服下医生开的药后昏倒时，医生却直斥：“我当了20几年的医生，没试过有病人服了我开的这药后昏倒的！”是吗？那身为一名专业 的医生，是否应详细询问病人服药及昏倒的细节，以鉴定病人的昏倒不是因为药的问题？或是其他因素？很遗憾的，医生没问。

接着，病人欲了解检 验结果与该器官不适之间的关联而要求医生多做解释时，医生却说：“必须对医学有很深层了解的人才会明白。”这是什么道理？医生不是应以简单易懂的词句让病 人了解自己的实际状况吗？结果在病人要求医生以“简单的词句”做解释后，医生才以“简单的词句”向病人说明其状况。

而后，当病人提到自己当时入院的状况时，医生却表示这是因病人本身急着要出院，导致他无法好好的观察病人的病状变化。一头雾水的病人“目瞪口呆”地表示，他仅因“对医务人员的信任”而遵从医生的指示，但医生由始至终都没有向他说明要他住院的原因。

结果的结果，铁面无情的医生说：“那是你自己没有问！”

古 训曰：“医者父母心”，古代对医生这一职业有着“悬壶济世”的美誉，而现代人对医生也通常抱着肃然起敬的态度。但这名“烂”医生的“专业言论”，却令该名 年纪尚轻、健康状况一直维持良好的青年病人忧心忡忡，吃不下之余还睡不着。原本平静安稳的生活更是被忧虑、恐慌的情绪困扰，悲观的负面能量一直无限扩大。

试问，在这样的负面情绪困扰下，病人的状况还会有起色的一天吗？而在看诊的尾声，医生更木无表情地表示：“还有什么要问的吗？”那种冷若冰霜、妄自尊大的态度，让病人及其陪同的一行人真是“没齿难忘”阿！

作 为一名有能力使病人的状况趋向正面的专业人士，医生除了应对生命充满虔诚、热烈、感动的关怀之外，还必须拥有医生所必须拥有的素质，包括精湛的医术与良好 的医德。这名“烂”医生的医术是否精湛我不得知，但应具备的医德却令我不敢恭维。若每名医生都如此，老百姓还能放心地将自己的宝贵生命，交给宣称能“妙手 回春”的医生吗？或者，该让医生跟政治人物一起上品德课，重新学习“医务必须的品德”！

当然，我也不能一支竹竿打翻整艘船，这样的“烂”医生或许仅占极少数。但请那些受过专业培训但没医德的医生，自律吧！

来自光华日报

孔子打救我！！

真的想去爬山
受不了这些

我要摆动我全身的细胞
顺便阻止横行霸道的脂肪
现在想要暂时性/选择性失忆
5天后就不用去考试了


还是捉狂！！
不明白 读不完 背不起来

孔子打救我！！

突然想起，我好像欠孔子一些东西
不知道还了没
打救我多1次，回去再去探访你

日夜颠倒

5点02分的早晨
还是睡不了
温牛奶 巧克力饼干
都不能使我入睡

决定不浪费时间在那张床上
起来继续苦读
真的很压力

日夜已颠倒
宿舍的朋友也都是3、4、5点才入眠的
这个时段我还听到他们的开关门声

我知道
这是非常时期
不管是赶作业还是应考的
大家努力吧

真的 S T R E S S
真的 对这科很没有把握
真的 日夜颠倒
真的 失眠
真的 想快点毕业
真的 期待ulcers快点复原
真的 期待迟了2个月的auntie快点来
真的 不想读下去了
真的 想吃安眠药
真的 捉狂

还是要 继续读书！！！！！！
还有6天！！！！！！！！！

一个曾经遗忘的梦想＋爱心ｍｕｆｆｉｎ

糟

我的免疫力越来越低
在花花绿绿的世界里
一个已被遗忘的梦想
现在意外地找回来了

毕业回去以后
完成了这个原以为不可能的留学生涯
是时候努力走向另一段徒步的路

我需要体力来完成
一个为 心 而动的梦想
30岁以前我要完成
切记 切记

依然记得
当你真心渴望某样东西时，整个世界会集合力量来帮你完成！

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1年前泰北做义工时夸下的义务也还没完成，切记 切记...

实在不明白怎么考试期间这么多奇怪的想法！ZzzZzz..考试呢！
现在只有一个想法，以后不要再念书了，够了。哈哈。
毕业心情实在很搞怪~~


人生的路，不止学历和工作，还有一颗需要被满足的心灵。

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此外，今天待考的心要感恩
crab crab亲手做给我吃的爱心巧克力muffin ^_^
比外买的好吃很多倍，因为加了无价的特别原料-- 爱心




快速好吃muffin食谱在这。

最近的天气.

最近的天气...

在房里 图书馆里 就觉得好热
在外面 却是蓝天白云暖风迎面
校园的青草地满是趴着晒太阳的洋人
我也开始穿着短袖趴趴走了

待在房里温书实在让我觉得我很委屈
这么好的天气 我竟然得跟笔记谈恋爱
成何体统？　
好天气　我要去玩！

唉
还是乖乖把这科念好，我要ＰＡＳＳ！　

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我blog完不到半个小时，
所谓的好天气变成坏天气，
竟然来个180度转变，下起雨来了！
英国的天气真的是　变化莫测！
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我不小心逛到这个带团去爱琴海的台湾人部落格
也是 《我的心遗留在爱琴海》 的作者
爱琴海的夕阳，这１辈子我一定要跟心爱的人一起亲眼看到！
若可以起个帐篷，夏天我们在那里露营也不错。
可以省下惊人的住宿费。哈哈～

通常我这样说出我的愿望，就不能实现了。

但，我还是希望我们中马票～发发发～哈哈～

　
爱琴海，现在离我又近又远．．．
４个小时就可以抵达希腊噢．．．

爱琴海　等我　等我．．．．．．．

最近找到太多赚钱和存钱的动力了.哈!

exactly 2 months from now

exactly 2 months later, at this time, i can see them lu ^_^

oh no, uk is getting so hot, 22deg C now.. dry and hot everywhere, incl. in the lib, lack of ventilation!

I Miss fishballs/ The science of sleep

omg.

i miss fish ball.

fish ball here is damn ex lah. it is like £2-5 for a pack of fish/sotong balls, about a dozen, i guess. Anyway its damn ex lah. I want fish ball, fish cake, chinese mushroom.. h2, your foods make me miss those foods lah >< cook for me next time, boleh? i wanna order lao huang gua soup n steamed pork & mushroom. thx =P

Nevertheless, i know i will miss strawberries, kiwis here. Superbly cheap. I got 2 boxes (500g) of strawberries for £1-1.50 only and 8 kiwis for a pound. Cheap and nice... hoho... I must eat more strawberries before i left. heez.

Exactly 2 months from now, i can reward my stomach for the 11 months of endurance and sufferance!! I will reward it with sushi first (wat else), then mee hun kuay, fish soup, bao tang, penang laksa, nasi lemak, penang hokkien mee, malaysia bakukteh, sambal kangkung, anything with fishballs, fishcakes, chinese mushroom... omg, a long list lah!

Btw, its another sleepless night. It's another dawn. I recommend this IMEEM playlist, The Science of sleep, for those having problem in sleep. It's a soft and relax music that you can just let the playlist repeatable on the website, without downloading etc. I should have let it accompanied in early hours.

ARgh, faster get it over, stupid molecular!!

Swine Flu updates

Everyone concerns about swine flu.

For the latest news,
Malaysia - 2 (KL, Penang/Perak),
Singapore - 0
UK - 133 [London contributes 70cases; 1 in Northeast （i.e. Newcastle)].
France - 16
Italy - 10

[source: http://www.swineflu.sg/]

43 countries have officially reported 12 022 cases of influenza A(H1N1) infection, including 86 deaths.

According to Singapore [http://www.crisis.gov.sg/flu/], those flying to Singapore from 'affected' areas are USA, Mexico and Canada. MOH website stating Japan and UK are NOT 'affected' areas.

Hopefully UK flu cases wont be increasing till 2 months later, till the date of my return. Otherwise, when UK is classified as 'affected' area, I would have to execute 'Home Quarantine Order' (HQO) upon my arrival. I must keep myself healthy when i go back!

I dun want to be forcefully quarantine for 7days, it will affect my plan and I cant imagine the day of quarantine!!

*pray pray*

*safe safe*

I hate swine flu, we have to get masks for our coming trip too. ~sienz~



Appendix:

For those traveling from affected countries,
# monitor your temperature daily
# check yourself for the following symptoms:

* High fever (> 38 deg C)
* Sore throat
* Cough
* Body aches
* Runny nose
* Headaches
* Tiredness

Morrison Day

today is Morrison day.

Maybe it's my last time to visit Morrison, the affordable supermarket, which needs about half an hour walk. But, today we are lucky, for the return journey, we boarded our Hong Kong friend's handsome classmate's car!haha!!

Today was his first time driving, luckily we arrived safely.. phew, mati enjin for few times. haha.

Let's depart to Morrison. Passed by Design school's building. It was 5pm!


Along the way, we had a nice weather! Blue and white are always the best partner!











Arriving Morrison...


The petrol station beside Morrison supermarket.


Any idea what is this??


Trolley need parking too!



Items sold in Morrison...


The home brand, when we first came here, it was only 44p for one.


I love sun ^_^ the carpark



This is the car that sent us back, only £900. Car is cheap here, i heard 2nd hand cars cost as cheap as £500 but please consider the insurance, petrol and parking fee that are killing you.


Arriving hostel soon. The weather is good!!


End...

Blood test is ok. but when I took the blood pressure measurement by the machine (FOC), the result indicates that I'm so much way below the normal range. I thought I'm hypertension, but it seems to show that my blood pressure is low!! haha!! Imprecise machine i guess... 49/104 ! Normal range should be 120/140! How can it be!

我很火..我家人也很火...

超　勁爆！

黃記者，麻煩你文章出爐的時候告知我１聲，我要看得罪記者的後果是什麽．．．


得罪我家的人，很嚴重。

要動粗的有；
要文字暴力的有；
要知識暴力的有；
要以和為貴的有；
要以柔制剛的有．．．

我家最好有一個律師，那麽不管是ｓｏｃｉａｌｌｙ　ｏｒ　ｌｅｇａｌｌｙ，　那些人都死定！　
原來我應該鼓勵我妹妹念law的...

大鼻子醫生，很沒有醫德，原來我念的ｂｉｏｅｔｈｉｃｓ　其實是可以ａｐｐｌｙ的．．．

給我去，一定跟他講ｍｅｄｉｃａｌ　ｅｔｈｉｃｓ！　ｍｅｄｉｃａｌ　ｋｎｏｗｌｅｄｇｅ　是一定輸他的，跟他講　ｅｔｈｉｃｓ，　ｃｏｌｄｅ　ｏｆ　ｐｒａｃｔｉｃｅ！！

瓦靠，現在我也是滿身火！
本來就對醫生的道德很有偏見，
現在我對醫生的好感是1點都沒有！
醫生，就是念很多書，來成爲分配drugs/medicines的棋子。
我說的是不包括開刀的醫生，那些應該比較專業，沒接觸過，不了解。
所以如果可以，我還是寧願選擇用營養/中醫來調理病情。

說到完，就是 Penang的loh guan lxx hospital loh!
一點都不專業！


appendix:
大鼻子醫生說的話：

1.我的看法是這個病人有高血壓，全世界的醫生都認為這個標準就是高血壓，我看了20多年的病人當了20多年的醫生...
2.這個是很專業很專科的問題，要解釋給你，你必須要懂要度過，因為這很復雜...

my secondary days

not sure if any secondary friend visits this blog. the majority of my best secondary friends are english educated, so they hardly read Chinese.

Dated back to the first year i enrolled into the 'controlled' new secondary school in my hometown in 1999. Chinese are not easy to get into the school, just like Malaysia University, Chinese have to be get 10x better result than Malay to admit into local university.

SMK Seri Nibong is a place i met the best friend of my life. In our pioneer batch, there was only 12 chinese girls, so we were very united, even we were in different classes. That was the time I met all of my best friends,who are English educated and I became their Chinese teacher for the few years! They were hardly Chinese literate that time, I taught them to speak proper Chinese and some of them could speak good Chinese and some make the effort to read/write Chinese now! Amazing right??!

Since form 1, I transformed from a mummy girl into a bad girl, but still the one having good result lah. haha. the bad part was I started to argue with my mum, just for the reason of cycling to school. She worried my safety (my house is very far from school) , my skin get darker (seems tat my mum wanted me to be a fair one, but she failed! haha!!) etc... I also started playing volleyball, but i was the lousiest among the girls. I'm still the lousiest, they are too good, some are still State and University Representatives!

I miss the secondary school life the most, carefree, innocent, happy and the list goes on... The happiest thing was we met each other everyday, at least 12 hours each day for the schooling, volleyball, and tuition!

Recently my friend has uploaded our old photos, and the comments are like hundreds and hundreds! haha!! I have really litte photos, because I was the lousiest player, I'm not gifted talent, though I practiced the same hours as them =( So, I could hardly be part of the open tournament players etc... Another reason was that I stay very far from school, after the Penang/Butterworth matches, I was the first one to alight from the bus, and they stopped at campus, where it was just 5min walking/cycling to their houses ...Though we played hard, we din study for PMR. After PMR, more than half of the girls changed school, for many reasons, the main reason was the stupid Malay system and teachers lah. I also changed to SMK Tunku Abdul Rahman in the 5th week of Form 4, then I stopped playing volleyball, to really concentrate in my study! So, I dun have much volleyball memory for the last 2 years of my secondary school. So, after form 4, i transformed back to a good student, life is all about studying. Haha.


This one has nothing to do with me. Just to show you that this is Penang/Malaysia open match, not sure what they got, but just a very good one. Few of our best girls did join the team!!


See, we still got featured in the newspaper!! haha!! Guess which one is me??
I was very pretty and slim... and i can never get fatten before 17, no matter how many meals I ate, guess all the energy fuel goes to volleyball!! Upper row, third from the left is me ^_^


This is the fattest me, my first year in Poly, I still visited them regularly after coming to Singapore... That's our volleyball court! Upper left.


That's the slimmest me after 17. Haha. I was 18, and I had just returned from my 3-month National Service.


Taken on the same day, with our coach -LLL, bottom left. He is the greatest player I've ever seen.


This photo, was still kept in the middle girl's wallet since form 2, which is 9 years ago! She said she never thought of changing it. Anyway, she is the best of my best friend. She's graduated from UPM, chemical engineer! The right one, said she is going to develop this photo to make everyone of us has a copy in our wallet. haha.




THIS IS MY FAVOURITE PHOTO!
I was 14, and I managed to join the team to play state games in Penang Union!
Taken with our 2 excellent coaches.
If you know Star Idol in Malaysia, you may know that the Top2 was MJ Tan. She is in the photo, bottom left...heez...




Celebrity look... She is one year younger than me =P

So i told you, our school is really a controlled school, we have so much talents. I'm not sure how our coaches are doing (they are also our seniors), but there is one HOT chick Navy officer (very hard to get through one!)- the 2nd from upper left, one Lawyer- the 2nd from bottom left, the chemical enginner - middle bottom, one pharmacist - the 2nd bottom right, one potential food technology- bottom right, one potential accountant- the 3rd upper right, and the business girl- the 3rd upper left... Not sure to call myself nutritionist or food technologist. haha....

Anyway, I love those pictures!!

考試記

既然不能睡，就談談今天的考試吧。

第1次在這裡考試，深怕需要特別的準備，而且自己也闊別2年多沒考試了，緊張也是理所當然的。幸好，一切正常。記得帶上學生證，幾只筆，手錶就上場了。 如常，我抵達考場就不會再看筆記。如常，看到很多同學的臉依然盯着筆記到最後１分鐘。如常，我會選好位子。好位子就是沒有上梁的位子，中學時代看過1本雜誌說這种位子對考生不利。能夠選，我就避免，信沒損失，不信可能會有損失哦。這個‘信念’維持了好多年。哈哈。

基本上，考試程序跟學院的沒差，只是桌子是超大的。以往的考試桌子是上課時的小size,這裡用的是如書桌般的size,大概是上課桌子的1.5-1.75倍吧。不錯，我喜歡大大的桌子，壓迫感比較少。1個小時半，我剛剛好用到最后1分鐘，把我準備的90%答案都吐出來了！就是不知道對不對而已。anyway,這科應該可以PASS吧？這個考試，兩個香港同學呢，１個做不完，時間不夠用；１個手震，忘記很多！

下一科才真的恐怖。上一科我還可以吊兒郎當，最後1科我可不行，真的會肥佬的。這科是在教堂考的哦，感覺可能是比較暗的燈光，空間比較大吧？希望不要讓我不適就好，第１次在課室以外的地方考試哦。

好啦，考試記報告完畢。教堂考試下回分享。

熄燈1小時

熄燈1小時
是我與地球日的共同點

總是認爲
自己累了 時間到了
就該睡覺了

熄燈1小時后
還是無法入眠
掀開被單開燈
我是千百不願

昨夜挑燈夜讀
半睡半醒4小時
其實我並不認爲我有 ‘睡覺’
如果我有咳嗽藥水　
我一定服用來催眠細胞
可能下次真要試Ｐａｎａｄｏｌ了
還是誰可以提供安眠葯？

考完試也不想躺在床上
深怕晚上又睡不着了
奈何 我還是 睡不着

明明腦子很累很累
身子卻不配合正常的生理時鐘
哪裏出錯了嗎？
一定是遲了快２個月的安娣搞怪
那什麽耽誤了她的行程？
壓力　情緒　還是飲食作息？

我真的敗給我的身子
和我的情緒了

現在的荷爾蒙分泌都是負面的
實在提不起勁來使自己保持樂觀
好在我並不發脾氣
什麽事情都往自己的肚裏吞
可以高歌‘心事誰人知’來應景了

說實在的
好像沒什麽特別讓人沮喪的
可我的情緒就是特別低落 特別負面 特別憂鬱

實在越理越亂
什麽時候才能結束這種低潮？
再這樣下去 我怕我會做出錯誤的行爲和決定了
倘若這樣可以讓我變聰明，那就維持到12天以後吧！

還是想說
我真的不開心
我真的情緒不好
我真的想大哭

唉~

it's another dawn

It's completely bright now and im still damn awake!

I've just called back, mum is seeing a doctor right after the call, which end 2min ago. So fun to have a chat with parents and the stupid sister, keep perli-ing me.. I will see what will happen to her in future!! Anyway, still fun. haha... she is going to plan a century NG's travel for few days in early August!! hoooray, the first ever 4 young NGs' travel, i cant wait, no matter where is it..haha..

Nice, i want to travel with my stupid siblings. Though all of us have really bad temper (seriously we never stop cursing, scolding) towards each other, i hope it is still fun and memorable. This shows that I take my brother's request seriously. Oops, I hope it wont be too much changes to any gathering coming up... Zoo has already in priority, faster confirm the date!

Oh, busy august. Oh no, i shouldnt be so excited... 30 hours to the paper...

Tell you guys, my dad is so lovely. Everytime I call back, he asks me the same questions!!

1. when is graduation?
2. when finish exam?
3. what you come back?
4. where are you going after exam?
5. you become fatter or slimmer?

I remembered I have answered all these questions for at least 3 times!

And i know my dad misses me so much. He asked me to call back once in one or two weeks. But he cant wait to hear my voice and always mistaken other sisters' calls..haha...

I love daddy. I love mummy.
I dislike my sister who keeps cursing me just now. Kill her.
I dislike myself and those do not rest properly [you know who you are!].

OH YA, after the first case of swineflu in KL, the second case happens in my parents' working town, which is just 10min drive away from my home- PARIT BUNTAR (PERAK)!! The girl took the same flight from US with the first-diagnosed patient, then the girl took Airasia from KL-PG. It alerts all the residents in my hometown and nearby towns, and those took the same flights, the penang airport, hospitals etc...

Bless my sister who needs to visit hospital and contacts closely with media and public.
Bless my parents who need to consistently visit hospitals for the coming weeks/months.
Bless all my friends in hometown!!





then returning to my books. Decided to stay awake for the books till I feel REAL sleepy. Bless me too =)

deserted soul

run, I wish to run away
where, I find no where to hide
here, I only mumble here

feeling so weak
feeling so sick
feeling so heap

du...du...
stop recording from a deserted soul

Little relief

After chatting with few classmates (those aunties) , I feel much more relief. I'm not the only one facing unstable emotion and reluctant to study harder. At least, at this stage, we are expected ourselves to be ready for the exam. But none of us, even the top scholar in our course, shows enthusiasism to do the work/study. Since most of them are between the age of 40-50s,they thought they are experiencing pre- or menopausal symptoms. Haha.

After we shared our thoughts, then we realised all of us coincidently facing the same problem. Pre exam and graduation emotional swing. We discussed some questions, they give me some thoughts on my answers, which may be abit different from them. But we never know who has the correct interpretation and diagnosis.

Im feeling so sleepy and still not motivated at this moment, though the stress is forcing me to work harder...

Ok, clinical chemistry books are with me now, in the library.

1.5days to go for the paper!! aza aza fighting!!!!!

[another reason for the relief was partly due to the belgian chocolate muffin i bought in the noon from Greggs (UK most famous and widely chain bread and pastries shop, within my 15min walk to town, I saw at least 2 branches! more frequently seen than breaktalk!).. haha.. yummy..btw, crab, it was only 75p :x cheaper than library ones]

hmmm..im still considering the graduation ball, the next day after my last paper..£35 for the entrance fee incl. 4 course meal and I still have to fork out about £30 to get a dreessss leh..no time to source the dress..but my classmate is pushing me to go..........go, dun go..go, dun go... ki siao soon :S

miserable exam time

This is another insomnia day. The dawn is here.

Exam weeks are so miserable. No one doubts. I was trying to sleep at 1am, then plan to wake up earlier to go library. After 2 hrs on bed, i decided to drink a cup of milk and read awhile. Why the exam week is stretched for 3 weeks in my course? My first paper is my biotech friend's last paper. unfair!!

Anyway, I have clear idea on the question given. Yes, clinical nutrition exam questions are given in advance. At least we are well prepared, though I cant be sure that my answers are correct, enough for a pass will do! I hope the question wont be changed! The patient should be potentially having heart disease based on the biomarker profile. More tests have to be done to accurately diagnose the disease. Tomorrow I have to find out what further test should be done for the obese patient.

Seriously...days are miserable!!

Plus, i was heavily craving for foods,especially high carbo food while my food store is almost empty! I agree to some food and psychology experts that there should be a functional food called 'mood food', which used to be available in the UK. Some food and health organisations (cant rmb which one) have mentioned about the functionality of high carbo food, which can help to decrease the anxiety, stress and depressed emotions. My hands are up for the statement. At least, they are absolutely true for me.

My auntie has already delayed her visit for 3 weeks and i'm still patiently waiting for her visit to restore my stable emotion, normal hormone circulation and body function. All the abnormalities cause my emotion so unstable, hard to focus on my study!! Women are pity =(

Ok..its getting bright. I shall try to sleep again without thinking the question, with the soft music on.

cant wait to see them

They are so cute, I honestly prefer the girl. Gotta see them 70days!! So happy...haha... she knows how to speak very well now... she called me nini jiejie while i called back..so sweet.. but then, i worry she has actually forgotten me. Test her memory when im back.heez.

Make sure I bring my shooting gear...hohoho... Cant wait to see them ^_^

Maybe i will visit a new born baby boy at the end of july or in Aug after coming back from Penang ^_^

Kinda busy once i land, seriously the first outing is the moment i arrive in Changi. kinda excited anyway.


CANT WAIT TO GO BACK!! I wanna see lots of people..miss lots of people... i think my grandparents and parents miss me alot too...muahahahaha...i miss them so much too T_T

seriously homesick, for the first time in the UK, to be honest =(

如果我中了 ＲＭ３００００

有人 可以問我：'如果你中toto RM30000, 你會怎樣用這筆錢？'

馬上答：去馬爾代夫(Maldives)住1個禮拜！那裏的天空藍得很離譜，那裏的海水藍得更離譜！真的，給我中RM30000就好，不然SGD10000也可以，5天4夜也不錯。哈哈。

馬爾代夫有80多家度假村，特色是1島1酒店。通常分沙灘屋和水上屋， 水上屋比較貴，但從房門出來就可以直接跳下海細細品嘗海底世界的美...就是因爲馬爾代夫都是高檔的酒店，所以那裏才能維持得這麽好； 不然，這麽美的地方早就被洶湧的遊客群污染了！可是，馬爾代夫是非常歡迎任何國家的人，所以無需簽證。聽説50年后這些群島就會因爲水位不斷上升而淹沒了馬爾代夫，以後就沒有馬爾代夫這麽美麗的地方了！你或許會聽説有人對巴哩島的不滿，可是一定沒有聼過不愛馬爾代夫的！說真的，這個地方值得一去。不過，看來我要中馬票才能去了！

如果同樣1筆錢可以來趟豪華游，在巴黎和馬爾代夫之間做抉擇，我還是選擇陽光、沙灘、藍天、海水的地方~哈哈~ 可是如果要在愛琴海(Santorini)和馬爾代夫之間割愛，我就頭很大很大了... 所以，馬票中獎數額還是高一點。哈哈。[可是，目前好像比較喜歡平靜的馬爾代夫，我希臘同學告訴我，愛琴海非常非常地商業化！但是也非常非常漂亮啦。]


照片取自這裡。
還有很多其他遊記，& here 順便google就一堆了。
要吸毒的，可以去看看。後果自負。


如果 更幸運的話，我中RM100000, 我會RM30000去馬爾代夫1個星期，然後RM40000去北歐，包括冰島，2個星期，另外RM30000去愛琴海...不知道可以去多少天？　其他亞洲的地方，我會自己努力存錢去的。哈哈。説好玩，值得玩的，還是亞洲啦。I love Asia!!

[以上價格都是以2人為標準]

*************夢醒了**************

不知道我是考營養，還是考美到不行的馬爾代夫。

很慘的考試期間．．．ｈａｉｚ．．倒數４天到ｃｌｉｎｉｃａｌ　ｎｕｔｒｉｔｉｏｎ　．．．

**********過一天像過一年**********

insomnia

04.30am

tried to sleep around 1am, but failed.

tried to work harder for exam to trigger sleepy bugs, but failed.

Disturbed mind, delayed menses, exam-moodless, homesick, lovesick, stress, insomnia, exam, questions... Use your simple imagination and you could describe my current situation.

T senior who is studying in Reading university put ' exactly 30days to go back to Singapore, cant wait to hand on bak chor mee' in facebook.

Sherlyn who is a finance graduate, is returning to Singapore this weekend and come back for congregation, with her family, 2 months later.

YT who is my food & nutrition junior, is returning to Penang on 7 June and come back for her last academic year in Sept.

Calvin who is in Manchester is returning in mid June?

KC who is in Birmingham is returning to Nibong Tebal in early July.

MP who is my hostel mate, is returning around the same date to Nibong Tebal.

I'm returning in 69days, counting down with YS, a biotech graduate who is returning to KL, with her family who is attending her congregation, on the same day as me, but 3 hours earlier than me =(

Only god knows how envious am I and how unbearable these days are.


day, please fly... fly as fast as you could.

Then, after writing, 4.50am, it is bright outside now!!
I shall try to sleep >_<

Bak kuk teh for lunch tml.


~~[度日如年]~~

first swineflu case in malaysia

Malaysia has first case of swineflu, 21-year-old student who has just returned from US. He is receiving treatment in KL. read more here.

Singapore remains free of swineflu.

Gosh, those in/travel to Malaysia gotta be extra careful. make sure you wash hands more frequently, avoid close contact to those in flu, take more vit C etc. Blessed.

春天的雨

下了一整天的雨
冷冷湿湿的让人很舒服

8度C 春天的雨
让我很懒洋洋

那些情绪
该像雨水一样
蒸发后回到原点

我要准备考试啦！

missing AnnieChong

Secretly telling AnnieChong.
I miss you ^_^

miss the exam period, miss the quiet zone, miss the dinner at FC2 ...


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First time cut by hairstylist trainee in Feb 2007








The results indicate that trainee in KL was more quality =X





*na, he must be very handsome now =P


It was just 2years and 3months ago.

Why am I so much different?

signs of aging =X

I want my weight back =X