I'm unhappy...I suddenly feel that nothing in the world beats the happiness in daily life. Yet, it's the hardest thing to achieve in the world for majority of the population in Singapore and Malaysia.
We have so little time to do our favourite things while most the time contributes to the thing we have to do, we need to do for others. We have so much responsible in life that sometimes make us feel breathless.
For a job, we work for predominantly money for most of the employees and I do believe that only a small portion of us are working for passion, for interest and love. Agree it. You study certain courses for the potential bright future. Nowadays, Doctor ain't study with the only thought to save, to cure patients. You chose mechanical engineer cause everyone said it provides wider job opportunities. I study food and nutrition for the passion but when I come to work, I'm unhappy...
Continue to stay because my lovely colleagues but I'm unhappy with my boss and job scope. She is extremely biased and fake to max. Therefore, to pursue my happiness, I decided to quit. I dont want to make myself miserable each day. My resignation letter is ready in an enclosed envelope. Wait for the right time to tender.
Next, I will still look for food and nutrition work to match my academic attainment until I'm really fed up with the job and I have enough capital to make myself living without much money concern... That could be long long way to go...
Several things that would really make me happy at this moment are:
1. Quit this job by not seeing the bitch in future! I hate seeing her face everyday now.
2. Go to ChiangMai for the same volunteer work again.. I miss the innocent faces and contented faces with even a pair of shoes.
3. Go to travel around the world... Just be a free backpacker.
4. Earn money by not working for others! Cause I really dont like see those bossy faces...
Wish me for the best! While I wish all of the best for rabbit year! I can't wait for its arrival cause Tigerers will have a good year ahead :D
12.5 working days to go before I could bravely tender the letter ^_^
Hope each day will be smoother till then as I have already tried to minimise the contact (either eye contact or communication!).
Thursday 16 December 2010
Tuesday 14 December 2010
Bitch
She is hitting my tolerance limit. I have no energy to complain her. I just have to endure 13 more working days and I will show you the long waited love letter.
She is really too much, sarcastic and having too much personal feeling in the work. She did not come and back on time but she requested us to come 10min earlier than official working and we have to go back 15min later than official working hour. We calculated, she makes us rugi at least $5000 annually for making unnecessary OT!
Apparently, she, she and me are looking for job..Please inform me if you know any food tech/nutritionist job openings! Can't wait to run away from her. Bitch!
BC said women shouldnt work after 30 years old. Old women on work are simply hard to please... I'm waiting to be free from working life...so,only another 6 more working years for me?? heee
She is really too much, sarcastic and having too much personal feeling in the work. She did not come and back on time but she requested us to come 10min earlier than official working and we have to go back 15min later than official working hour. We calculated, she makes us rugi at least $5000 annually for making unnecessary OT!
Apparently, she, she and me are looking for job..Please inform me if you know any food tech/nutritionist job openings! Can't wait to run away from her. Bitch!
BC said women shouldnt work after 30 years old. Old women on work are simply hard to please... I'm waiting to be free from working life...so,only another 6 more working years for me?? heee
Wednesday 8 December 2010
安妮的婚礼
那天，千里迢迢坐夜巴到吉隆坡...
昏昏欲睡了4小时，近6点我们就爬起来洗刷化妆开始准备兄弟的游戏...
我们起身时，屋里的其他人都说我们迟了...
经过2个小时的梳妆整顿自己，8点出我们准备了兄弟的好料~
9点正就听到pu pu 声...
开始了一连串的游戏，在RM400的红包下我们开门了...
这群兄弟挺不错，很ON!
只有一个一开始自称是大吟姐的兄弟，不停不停地念我们很残忍,
可我们觉得我们已经很仁慈了！
再到男方家敬茶，拖拖拉拉到3点左右我们才到酒店，
睡午觉的小欲望破灭，继续冲凉准备晚宴的装扮...
6点正，我们又启程到酒店了.
我爱死那地方-- bankers club.
浪漫豪华书香气洋溢的宴席...
他们的婚礼虽然只有15桌，但温馨无比 ...
从我们回来第4天，我们整个办公室依然围绕着那天的幸福气息...
虽然如此，我却没有想婚的感觉...
现在的我喜欢迟婚了 :x
看着Annie 和 Keen Leong,简直是一幅幸福鸳鸯，煞死旁人...
我还在回味着 Leong 说起他们的开始...
Annie 还不断说他们现在的爱很saturated! OMG!!
我还在等照片~
Friday 26 November 2010
人生无常
想跟auntie说安息吧。
到黄泉会您老伴去，
两个一起做对鸳鸯，
也不错的。
距离被诊断到肺癌的时间不到半年，
您已离我们而去，也好，不会被病魔折腾太久。
想说，自从您病后，
我偶尔会想起你，
跟你聊天的时刻，
听说聊起您和老伴的故事，
儿子媳妇孙子的趣事...
还有您做的小吃...
一切画幕还是那么清晰
你却走了，不带走这一切...
我的泪珠儿挤得眼眶满满的，
超越眼眶负荷而滑下脸蛋...
一路走好，auntie.
记得找到uncle 让他在黄泉也一样疼惜你
我想，auntie除了无法走路的女儿担心之外，也没有什么遗憾的。
离开或许是好事，可我真的想念您。
我在想，如果有一天，我要离开这人世间，我会有遗憾吗？
uncle ong说我一定有一堆的list,没错，我有很多很多事情没完成...
那就代表我对生命还有很多梦想和期待！好事吧！
但我一定会征聘杀手，在我断了气那刻，也把uncle ong ong杀了，不然他会被折磨的..
在追梦的同时，别忘了家里的两老...陪他们看看电视，做做家务，吹吹牛也挺好。
我告诉自己，我要常回家看看那银发逐渐增加的父母，免得成为我的遗憾！
到黄泉会您老伴去，
两个一起做对鸳鸯，
也不错的。
距离被诊断到肺癌的时间不到半年，
您已离我们而去，也好，不会被病魔折腾太久。
想说，自从您病后，
我偶尔会想起你，
跟你聊天的时刻，
听说聊起您和老伴的故事，
儿子媳妇孙子的趣事...
还有您做的小吃...
一切画幕还是那么清晰
你却走了，不带走这一切...
我的泪珠儿挤得眼眶满满的，
超越眼眶负荷而滑下脸蛋...
一路走好，auntie.
记得找到uncle 让他在黄泉也一样疼惜你
我想，auntie除了无法走路的女儿担心之外，也没有什么遗憾的。
离开或许是好事，可我真的想念您。
我在想，如果有一天，我要离开这人世间，我会有遗憾吗？
uncle ong说我一定有一堆的list,没错，我有很多很多事情没完成...
那就代表我对生命还有很多梦想和期待！好事吧！
但我一定会征聘杀手，在我断了气那刻，也把uncle ong ong杀了，不然他会被折磨的..
在追梦的同时，别忘了家里的两老...陪他们看看电视，做做家务，吹吹牛也挺好。
我告诉自己，我要常回家看看那银发逐渐增加的父母，免得成为我的遗憾！
Saturday 20 November 2010
户口里空空如也...
想说。。
最近银行户口的数字让我好沮丧！
努力了一年还是没看到什么钱~！哎～！
１２月最好来个ＡＷＳ！
不然我很不爽自己！
明年得好好规划理财的事宜！
但是明年已经买了３个地方的机票，都是ＡＡ的超便宜机票，要例子吗？
SG-KK - Return SGD45
SG-Bali - Return SGD45.50
SG-Yogyakarta - Return SGD43
所以明年的旅行close case了！
其实很伤心，因为不能跟好友去台湾...
真的没办法了，钱和年假都是问题！
另外，要节制花费在护肤品上，
爱美到很夸张了！
最近银行户口的数字让我好沮丧！
努力了一年还是没看到什么钱~！哎～！
１２月最好来个ＡＷＳ！
不然我很不爽自己！
明年得好好规划理财的事宜！
但是明年已经买了３个地方的机票，都是ＡＡ的超便宜机票，要例子吗？
SG-KK - Return SGD45
SG-Bali - Return SGD45.50
SG-Yogyakarta - Return SGD43
所以明年的旅行close case了！
其实很伤心，因为不能跟好友去台湾...
真的没办法了，钱和年假都是问题！
另外，要节制花费在护肤品上，
爱美到很夸张了！
Friday 12 November 2010
Festive Mood
year end is always happening.
HK trip was ended beautifully.
Awesome Ocean Park, good cosmetic shopping and nice dim sum and roasted meats!!
After been to HK, I appreciate Singapore so much. We have better building maintenance, better & cheaper transport, less crowded and bigger space!! HK is famous for the tiny space and i totally experienced it myself. The size of the hostel I stayed is the size of the toilet I had in Macau.
Though it rains 3 out of 5 days but it was still a good and memorable trip. I miss Sasa and Bonjour the most as they are selling superb cheap and good cosmetic stuff! dont miss it if you been to HK!
Well, after 4 working days upon returning, I'm going back to PG for 4 days! It was supposed to be 5 days but stupid Tiger reschedule my flight. NEVER EVER choose TIGER regardless of the low fare! You are having high risk of delayed one day flight or even cancel flight without prior notice!! I have been hearing enough of cases!!
Now, I have to pray hard that my CNY chu liu ticket wont be cancelled. I shouldnt buy it so early - 11months ago! But it is cheap lah~ Let's pray for me!!
That's all for now. Festive mood =D
HK trip was ended beautifully.
Awesome Ocean Park, good cosmetic shopping and nice dim sum and roasted meats!!
After been to HK, I appreciate Singapore so much. We have better building maintenance, better & cheaper transport, less crowded and bigger space!! HK is famous for the tiny space and i totally experienced it myself. The size of the hostel I stayed is the size of the toilet I had in Macau.
Though it rains 3 out of 5 days but it was still a good and memorable trip. I miss Sasa and Bonjour the most as they are selling superb cheap and good cosmetic stuff! dont miss it if you been to HK!
Well, after 4 working days upon returning, I'm going back to PG for 4 days! It was supposed to be 5 days but stupid Tiger reschedule my flight. NEVER EVER choose TIGER regardless of the low fare! You are having high risk of delayed one day flight or even cancel flight without prior notice!! I have been hearing enough of cases!!
Now, I have to pray hard that my CNY chu liu ticket wont be cancelled. I shouldnt buy it so early - 11months ago! But it is cheap lah~ Let's pray for me!!
That's all for now. Festive mood =D
Sunday 31 October 2010
工作满一年
在fb 分享了兔年的运程~
我期待兔年的来临，因为都是正面的！
我近来无恙，多两天就是工作1周年
记得那年我离职那天也是工作刚刚满一年
2007/5/15-2008/5/14
我的印象特别深刻...
记得5/13我还收到他送到办公室的那束花.
那是他送我的第2束花，
第3束是在英国念书时的周年纪念礼物
是一位天使代他送的。
那是他送我的最后一束花,
好久好久了...
呵呵
反正送鲜花是很浪费钱，
而且也过了所谓的热恋期，所以还好。
上次的离去是为了继续深造;
这次我会做得比1年长，但未必比2年长。
让我们看看兔年事业走势如何吧！
那天报道说时下的年轻人打同一份工作的寿命是2年，
其实想说确实如此。
继续跳才能让薪水跟着跳！
不然哪来的钱置业？
最近的新马报道也说了，
现在的房产跟薪水不成对比，
大学毕业生做了几年工，努力存钱，也付不起头期和贷款！
在大马工作的大学生更惨，还要供车，加上供房子的贷款，
简直就是典型帮银行打工一族！
我，终于脱离学生转型到打工一族的transition period.
很多事情不得不好好计划,尤其是财务计划！
从年轻开始就计划，绝对没错！
另外，开始物色产业，再惨我都要有一个房子！
属于我们自己的温馨小家！
我不喜欢帮人家供房子，
不喜欢看到喜欢的家具、电脑、电视、厨房用具
因为租房子而不能买！
房子是资产，绝对不会错！
------------------------------------------------------
年尾是让人雀跃的--
口袋会多了一点钱；
公共假期会多了一点；
生日庆典会比较多一点；
旅行也是必然的！
年尾就像朝9晚5上班一族最喜欢的周末；
比较放松，但它也溜得特别快..
Deepavali 长假期会在香港度过；
Haji 会回老家走走去；
12月的圣诞节和新年倒还没想好...
不过我想去旅游会很贵，也很多人...
或许是个好好休息的长假！
2011年，快到了，您准备好迎接它了吗？
我准备好了！
我期待兔年的来临，因为都是正面的！
我近来无恙，多两天就是工作1周年
记得那年我离职那天也是工作刚刚满一年
2007/5/15-2008/5/14
我的印象特别深刻...
记得5/13我还收到他送到办公室的那束花.
那是他送我的第2束花，
第3束是在英国念书时的周年纪念礼物
是一位天使代他送的。
那是他送我的最后一束花,
好久好久了...
呵呵
反正送鲜花是很浪费钱，
而且也过了所谓的热恋期，所以还好。
上次的离去是为了继续深造;
这次我会做得比1年长，但未必比2年长。
让我们看看兔年事业走势如何吧！
那天报道说时下的年轻人打同一份工作的寿命是2年，
其实想说确实如此。
继续跳才能让薪水跟着跳！
不然哪来的钱置业？
最近的新马报道也说了，
现在的房产跟薪水不成对比，
大学毕业生做了几年工，努力存钱，也付不起头期和贷款！
在大马工作的大学生更惨，还要供车，加上供房子的贷款，
简直就是典型帮银行打工一族！
我，终于脱离学生转型到打工一族的transition period.
很多事情不得不好好计划,尤其是财务计划！
从年轻开始就计划，绝对没错！
另外，开始物色产业，再惨我都要有一个房子！
属于我们自己的温馨小家！
我不喜欢帮人家供房子，
不喜欢看到喜欢的家具、电脑、电视、厨房用具
因为租房子而不能买！
房子是资产，绝对不会错！
------------------------------------------------------
年尾是让人雀跃的--
口袋会多了一点钱；
公共假期会多了一点；
生日庆典会比较多一点；
旅行也是必然的！
年尾就像朝9晚5上班一族最喜欢的周末；
比较放松，但它也溜得特别快..
Deepavali 长假期会在香港度过；
Haji 会回老家走走去；
12月的圣诞节和新年倒还没想好...
不过我想去旅游会很贵，也很多人...
或许是个好好休息的长假！
2011年，快到了，您准备好迎接它了吗？
我准备好了！
Sunday 17 October 2010
v马来西亚的华人，是个怎么样的存在？(全文，作者在中国留学)转帖
第一、尴尬的存在
场景1
当我刚到中国时，人们问我的第一个问题总是：“你的汉语怎么说得那么好啊？”紧接着“来到中国多说年了？”、“难道是从小学汉语吗？”
场景2
当时我和中文系的辩论队一起看01年的国际大专辩论赛决赛，马来亚大学的三辩提到“日本军在南京大屠杀凌虐我中华妇女”，有位同学问我“你们也提中华妇女吗？”
从我到中国以来，以上的情况遇上了无数遍，于是我很早就想写一篇文章来告诉大家：马来西亚的华人是一个什么样的存在。这个题目很大，我只能从我切身的体会和感受来写这篇文章。
缘起
先用一个大家都熟悉的历史背景来做开场白。1840以来，中国进入了一个动乱的时期。一方面，好些中国人想往外逃窜；另一方面，西方列强想捉苦力到东南亚地区为他们服务。于是，大量的中国人（尤其是福建、广东一带）就散布到东南亚各个地区，其中就包括了马来西亚。
尴尬的存在
当人家问我“你的汉语怎么说得那么好啊？”这么一个简单的问题时，我还真觉得这不是一句话就能解释的问题。最简单的回答就是：“因为我祖先是中国人”，但是有人又会问：“那么为什么好多印尼人就不会说汉语了呢？”问题的复杂之处就在这里。
从迁居到马来西亚，我们的先贤就特别重视中文的教育，通过私塾、宗祠等单位教授三字经、四书五经等教材，后来随着中国教育体制的改革而改革。这个时期，我们的祖先基本上还是以中国人自居，黄花岗七十二烈士就有二十九人是华侨、抗日战争时期全体华侨出钱出力、著名的华侨陈嘉庚创办厦大、集美大学。。。。。。这样的事情不胜枚举。
后来，随着居住马来西亚日久，我们的命运渐渐在这片土地上生了根。从马来西亚（大马）方面来看，我们开始更多地关注大马的政治，与马来族、印度族联手争取从英国的殖民统治中独立。从中国方面来看，周恩来总理提出：华侨应在其居住地生根发芽。但是，不变的是：我们始终坚持自己的母语教育。
在印尼，由于当地华侨没有组成统一的阵线，于是他们不能拥有中文名字、不能庆祝农历新年；在中国人普遍认为完好地传承了中华文化的新加坡，李光耀总理主动地消灭了中文教育，关闭了新加坡唯一以中文为教学媒介的南洋大学，全体人民学习英文，于是目前多数新加坡人的母语是英语。如今，随着中国的崛起，中文的“经济”价值日益提高，许多东南亚国家才掀起了“汉语热”。唯一的例外是马来西亚，因为我们的先贤从头到尾就没有以“经济”作为考量，而是从“民族文化”出发。
那么，难道马来西亚就没有遭遇当地政府的阻挠吗？有！而且很大！马来西亚教育终极的目标是：以马来语为唯一的教学媒介语，换言之，华语、淡米尔语的中小学迟早都得消灭。60年代，大马政府规定：只有以马来语为教学媒介语的学校才能获得政府的津贴，于是许多中文中学纷纷改制，变为政府中学。这时，我们的先贤，以林连玉先生为代表，明确地提出：学习母语是每个民族的天赋人权，即使不要一分钱的津贴，我们也要办独立中学！
于是，马来西亚的华文教育保留了下来，华小以及民办的独立中学、学院形成完整的中文教育的体系，甚至创立了“全马来西亚独立中学统一考试”，受全球各高校承认（除了马来西亚的大学），我们基本上就是以这张文凭为基础考进北大的。在这个过程中，多少先贤抛头颅、洒热血，林连玉先生被褫夺公民权、好多人被大马政府关押、无数的民众以自己的血汗钱支持独立中学。
但是，来到中国，没有人知道这一切。不止中国，我相信全世界的人都不知道这一切，不知道被我们称为“族魂”的林连玉，不知道马来西亚的华人用血、汗和泪水来争取母语教育的权利。于是，中国的同学反过来问我们：“为什么你们会说汉语？”时，我真觉得这是巨大的讽刺。
尤其，当中国同学问起我：“为什么你们也说‘中华妇女’？”时——尽管不理智——我还是立时火了：“为什么日军侵袭时，马来西亚的华人要出钱出力？为什么同一年发生缅甸风灾和四川大地震时，我们华人对后者的捐款额要远远大于前者，我们难道就没有资格称自己为‘中华民族’吗？”
当我来到北大的图书馆文学图书时，看着满目的“美国文学”、“印度文学”。。。。。。当我看到“新加坡文学”，而没看到“马来西亚文学”时，我更感到十分凄凉，以至于讽刺。我们浴血抗战，创建了一套完整的中文教育体系，有完整的“马华文学”，而这一切在中华文化的发源地——中国是得不到承认的。反倒是曾经废除过南大的新加坡，由于其更为强大的国势，反而被认为是在海外完整地传承了中华文化的国家。
“尴尬”之处就在于此：努力地捍卫中华文化，不为马来西亚政府承认，亦不为世人所知，里外不是人。这就是马来西亚华人第一种存在：尴尬的存在。
第二、独立的存在
独立的存在，另一个说法是孤立的存在。“马来西亚华人”这个词儿意味着：我们是马来西亚人，但不是马来人（中国朋友最大的误会~囧）；我们是华人，但不是中国人。于是，一种特殊的群体和文化产生了，独立于世界之林。
我们跟其他马来西亚人（例如马来人、印度人）的差别很明显，黄皮肤在一片黑色的人海之中额外显眼，不同的语言、不同的文化。但是，在日常生活中我们相处得十分融洽——-马来人其实真的是很好相处的，什么种族冲突全是政府搞出来的——-整个群体都受到马来族极大的影响，这就铸成了我们好多的共同点，而与他们的这些共同点恰恰就是我们和中国人的相异之处。
最明显的差异就是口头表达。首先是口音，我朋友总说：“看你的时候一点都不像外国人，但你一说话我们就马上知道了。”在辩论赛场上时，我的一口马来腔更是显得极为突兀。所谓马来西亚口音，大概就是广东腔+福建腔，翘舌少、轻声较少（个人认为）、没有儿化、语调趋平。其次是词汇，以中文词汇为主体，再加上各种方言、马来语、英语的词汇，各种语气词“啦”、“咯”、“哄”层出不穷。大家有兴趣的话，可以去百度打“马来西亚VS中国”，马上就能找到许多具体的例子。
但是，我以为：更深层的差距不在嘴巴，而在脑子里。有一次，中文系的徐艺峰师兄领着我们留学生辩论队讨论一个辩题，他最感叹的就是：“如果是跟中国学生讨论，第三个衡量标准一定是‘何者更有利于社会主义的建设’。”看看中国同学的课就知道，什么思修、毛概、邓小平思想、军事理论，这些似乎都离我们的生活很远很远。冷战时期资本主义阵营和社会主义阵营的分家就决定了我们意识形态上的不同。
撇开这个问题不谈，即使同样都继承了中华文化，两地的继承也是有所不同的。在这里，大部分的人都信仰“无神论”。但是，我们那里好多人都还信仰观十八罗汉、观音娘娘、关公、济公、齐天大圣等，不一而足。不止大量的神庙，我们还保留了大量的宗祠、会馆，并且还在华人社区发挥着一定的作用。由于我对中国的现代化进程还算有一定的了解，以上这些还不足以让我惊讶，真正让我吃惊的是中国风气的开放。校内校外，情侣相拥亲吻的情况无所不在，这还真不是我想象中的中国。当然，我们那里也有很开放的人，但是可以肯定的是：马来西亚的华人普遍上要比中国人保守得多（嗯~至少跟我的家乡相比）。
此外，许多大马华人一致公认的是：中国学生真的很多“学术牛人”，大体上比我们那儿的人要勤劳的多。中国人多竞争大，我所认识的每位同学一个个都是从高考的腥风血雨中杀出来的英雄豪杰，他们那股永不言倦的冲劲着实让我们折服。相较而言，马来西亚人则比较慵懒，更倾向于做自己喜欢的事、享受自己的人生。因此，我们玩起来比较放浪形骸，比较不顾形象，大声吵、大声笑、大声闹。
既不是马来人，也不是中国人，我们仿佛就是另一种程度上的混血儿，所以或许我们有点孤单。但是，这或许就是我们独特的优势：既传承了悠久的中华文化，又成长在一个相对宽松自由的舆论环境，想法更自由、更多元。所以，即使我们这个群体在世界上似乎很孤立，但如果让我有机会选择，我仍然愿意出生在马来西亚，当马来西亚的华人。
第三、悲壮的存在
“宝剑锋自磨砺出，梅花香自苦寒来”，这一句俗语在马来西亚人身上得到绝佳的体现。在过去，马来人、华人、印度人曾经联手争取了国家的独立；但是，随着马来人逐渐独掌大权（再注：对马来人的抨击仅限政治人物），华人、印度人的地位也日渐衰弱。首先，马来语成了唯一的官方语言。再来，马来西亚教育的最终目标定为：“使马来语成为唯一的教学媒介语”。
但是，最大的转折点是六、七十年代的“五·一三事件”。由于华人比较刻苦耐劳，比其他的民族来得富有，无形中造成了民族间的矛盾。出于权力斗争的目的，政治人物鼓动马来人屠杀华人。于是，第二任首相敦拉萨借此宣布国家进入“紧急状态”，顺势上台，颁布了一系列不平等的法令。在经济上，每家公司都至少要雇用30%的土著（其实就是马来人和其他极少部分的少数民族）；在教育上，大学也实施固打制，要保留一定的份额给土著。此外，对中文教育的打压更是变本加厉，影响力最大的就是改制事件，即不以马来语为主要教学媒介语的政府中学都领不到政府一分钱的津贴。
打压归打压，但是马来西亚华人依然在暴风雨中茁壮成长。如第一篇所述，我们发展出了一套完整的中文教育，各领域人才辈出。大家熟知的梁静茹、曹格、光亮皆是马来西亚华人；大家现在人手一支的U盘是马来西亚的潘建忠发明的；在华语辩论界上，马来西亚以其犀利的辩风在世界上占有一席之地；如今，马来西亚的十大首富中也大部分是华人。
但是，从这里我们可以看到一些很可悲的现实。大马华人自己创办的独立中学培养了无数英才那又怎样？全世界大部分高等学府都承认我们的统考文凭时，唯有马来西亚政府不承认！马来亚大学在辩坛创出赫赫威名那又怎样？在政府控制下的马来亚大学还曾经试图禁止马大的辩手参赛！梁静茹、潘建忠等辈就更加可悲了，许多人都以为他们是台湾人！潘建忠自己就说过：“如果我留在马来西亚，不可能会有今天的成就。”因为在马来西亚，华人发展的空间有限，报国无门又无法自我实现，不出国发展还能怎样？
于是，马来西亚的华人成长是成长了，可是那跟政府什么毛关系都没有。因为我们政府很慷慨，在全世界都在争夺人才时，我们政府眼看马来西亚出现人才外流的滚滚洪流仍然可以视而不见！在马来西亚大力提倡向外吸纳人才时，去看看，有多少马来西亚的人才在新加坡工作！有一次，我们国家的首相到新加坡访问，探访一间医院时，竟然有一半以上的人用马来语跟他致敬！这是何等的讽刺！
我原本把第三篇命名为“令人骄傲的存在”，可是后来改成了“悲壮”。的确，我们有很傲人的成就。可是，在我们有心报效祖国时，却只能被不公平的政策拒之国门。马来西亚那么一块宝地，没有天灾、资源丰富、文化多样，又居于世界要冲，如果真的有英明的政府，摇身变为世界强国绝非难事！反观新加坡，没有什么自然资源，又是弹丸之地，可是，现在我们只有眼睁睁看着自己的国家成了新加坡的腹地，眼看着从马来西亚分离出去的新加坡一天比一天强大！这种感觉真的很复杂，真的很难以言喻！
谓之“悲壮”，我想应该甚为贴切。
后记
可能很多人很意外，我从小时候开始就自认为自己是个中国人。从小读的书就是《西游记》、《水浒传》、《三国演义》、《杨家将》、《岳飞传》。影响我一生最大的一套书大概就是一套三十本的中国历史漫画图集。在我小小脑海中，出现的总是滚滚的黄土和快马飞驰的勇将。长大了一点，看过《中国人史纲》、《中国寓言》，偶尔会翻翻《唐诗三百首》。
那时，我真的自认为我是中国人，我的文化之根和这里的人是联系在一起的。
于是，我的梦想就是回归中国。英文我认为不重要，因为我要去中国，从没认真学；马文我更是碰都不碰，甚至常以考不好马来文自嘲。可以说，我很偏执。我只有认为有必要的东西我才会认真去学。到了高二，我的国际视野才宽广到足以让我理解英文的重要性，我从那时开始才急起直追，算是打下了一定的基础，但是绝没到“好”的程度。但是，马来文，我始终不愿意去学习，在统考中马文拿了惨兮兮的“B6”还常拿去说嘴。
去年9月，我来到了中国，就读于中国最好的大学，学习着自己最想念的中文系，一切看起来都像梦想成真。但是，来到了这里，我才第一次深刻地体会到：我是马来西亚人。我才第一次感觉到：我有可能是爱国的。在祖国成长的每一部分，不管是口音、思维等，都在我的生命里留下不可磨灭的痕迹。即使我可能算是马来西亚里最中国的一小撮人，即使我跟很多中国同学相处得不错，但是我仍然能深刻地体会到我们的不同之处。不管怎么样，在中国，只要是外国人，就真的只是外国人。
那么我到底该何去何从？这是我一整个学期都在思考的问题。在迷茫中，在摸索中，我才会写出上面的三篇文章，试图找到马来西亚华人的定位，试图找到自己的定位，然后决定自己以后要到哪里发展。我个人认为，不管是留在中国还是去到西方，就注定了只能收到单方面的信息，很难认清这个世界的真相。此外，留在中国，或许就只能是成为一个尴尬、孤立的个体。去到西方国家，那更是彻底地孤立，存活在一堆思维截然不同的陌生人之中，甚至还可能面临他们的排斥。
可能，我仍然会回去马来西亚，即使我们目前仍然要活在打压之中，即使要存活在一个难以实现自我的空间。但是，我或许可以用手中的一票继续给国阵施加那千万分之一的压力，做自己想做的事，做一个开心的人。即使薪水不高，即使物质生活不丰裕，即使很难真正地实现自我，但是只要能在自己最熟悉的家乡、跟喜欢的人在一起，幸福或许就那么简单不是吗？
场景1
当我刚到中国时，人们问我的第一个问题总是：“你的汉语怎么说得那么好啊？”紧接着“来到中国多说年了？”、“难道是从小学汉语吗？”
场景2
当时我和中文系的辩论队一起看01年的国际大专辩论赛决赛，马来亚大学的三辩提到“日本军在南京大屠杀凌虐我中华妇女”，有位同学问我“你们也提中华妇女吗？”
从我到中国以来，以上的情况遇上了无数遍，于是我很早就想写一篇文章来告诉大家：马来西亚的华人是一个什么样的存在。这个题目很大，我只能从我切身的体会和感受来写这篇文章。
缘起
先用一个大家都熟悉的历史背景来做开场白。1840以来，中国进入了一个动乱的时期。一方面，好些中国人想往外逃窜；另一方面，西方列强想捉苦力到东南亚地区为他们服务。于是，大量的中国人（尤其是福建、广东一带）就散布到东南亚各个地区，其中就包括了马来西亚。
尴尬的存在
当人家问我“你的汉语怎么说得那么好啊？”这么一个简单的问题时，我还真觉得这不是一句话就能解释的问题。最简单的回答就是：“因为我祖先是中国人”，但是有人又会问：“那么为什么好多印尼人就不会说汉语了呢？”问题的复杂之处就在这里。
从迁居到马来西亚，我们的先贤就特别重视中文的教育，通过私塾、宗祠等单位教授三字经、四书五经等教材，后来随着中国教育体制的改革而改革。这个时期，我们的祖先基本上还是以中国人自居，黄花岗七十二烈士就有二十九人是华侨、抗日战争时期全体华侨出钱出力、著名的华侨陈嘉庚创办厦大、集美大学。。。。。。这样的事情不胜枚举。
后来，随着居住马来西亚日久，我们的命运渐渐在这片土地上生了根。从马来西亚（大马）方面来看，我们开始更多地关注大马的政治，与马来族、印度族联手争取从英国的殖民统治中独立。从中国方面来看，周恩来总理提出：华侨应在其居住地生根发芽。但是，不变的是：我们始终坚持自己的母语教育。
在印尼，由于当地华侨没有组成统一的阵线，于是他们不能拥有中文名字、不能庆祝农历新年；在中国人普遍认为完好地传承了中华文化的新加坡，李光耀总理主动地消灭了中文教育，关闭了新加坡唯一以中文为教学媒介的南洋大学，全体人民学习英文，于是目前多数新加坡人的母语是英语。如今，随着中国的崛起，中文的“经济”价值日益提高，许多东南亚国家才掀起了“汉语热”。唯一的例外是马来西亚，因为我们的先贤从头到尾就没有以“经济”作为考量，而是从“民族文化”出发。
那么，难道马来西亚就没有遭遇当地政府的阻挠吗？有！而且很大！马来西亚教育终极的目标是：以马来语为唯一的教学媒介语，换言之，华语、淡米尔语的中小学迟早都得消灭。60年代，大马政府规定：只有以马来语为教学媒介语的学校才能获得政府的津贴，于是许多中文中学纷纷改制，变为政府中学。这时，我们的先贤，以林连玉先生为代表，明确地提出：学习母语是每个民族的天赋人权，即使不要一分钱的津贴，我们也要办独立中学！
于是，马来西亚的华文教育保留了下来，华小以及民办的独立中学、学院形成完整的中文教育的体系，甚至创立了“全马来西亚独立中学统一考试”，受全球各高校承认（除了马来西亚的大学），我们基本上就是以这张文凭为基础考进北大的。在这个过程中，多少先贤抛头颅、洒热血，林连玉先生被褫夺公民权、好多人被大马政府关押、无数的民众以自己的血汗钱支持独立中学。
但是，来到中国，没有人知道这一切。不止中国，我相信全世界的人都不知道这一切，不知道被我们称为“族魂”的林连玉，不知道马来西亚的华人用血、汗和泪水来争取母语教育的权利。于是，中国的同学反过来问我们：“为什么你们会说汉语？”时，我真觉得这是巨大的讽刺。
尤其，当中国同学问起我：“为什么你们也说‘中华妇女’？”时——尽管不理智——我还是立时火了：“为什么日军侵袭时，马来西亚的华人要出钱出力？为什么同一年发生缅甸风灾和四川大地震时，我们华人对后者的捐款额要远远大于前者，我们难道就没有资格称自己为‘中华民族’吗？”
当我来到北大的图书馆文学图书时，看着满目的“美国文学”、“印度文学”。。。。。。当我看到“新加坡文学”，而没看到“马来西亚文学”时，我更感到十分凄凉，以至于讽刺。我们浴血抗战，创建了一套完整的中文教育体系，有完整的“马华文学”，而这一切在中华文化的发源地——中国是得不到承认的。反倒是曾经废除过南大的新加坡，由于其更为强大的国势，反而被认为是在海外完整地传承了中华文化的国家。
“尴尬”之处就在于此：努力地捍卫中华文化，不为马来西亚政府承认，亦不为世人所知，里外不是人。这就是马来西亚华人第一种存在：尴尬的存在。
第二、独立的存在
独立的存在，另一个说法是孤立的存在。“马来西亚华人”这个词儿意味着：我们是马来西亚人，但不是马来人（中国朋友最大的误会~囧）；我们是华人，但不是中国人。于是，一种特殊的群体和文化产生了，独立于世界之林。
我们跟其他马来西亚人（例如马来人、印度人）的差别很明显，黄皮肤在一片黑色的人海之中额外显眼，不同的语言、不同的文化。但是，在日常生活中我们相处得十分融洽——-马来人其实真的是很好相处的，什么种族冲突全是政府搞出来的——-整个群体都受到马来族极大的影响，这就铸成了我们好多的共同点，而与他们的这些共同点恰恰就是我们和中国人的相异之处。
最明显的差异就是口头表达。首先是口音，我朋友总说：“看你的时候一点都不像外国人，但你一说话我们就马上知道了。”在辩论赛场上时，我的一口马来腔更是显得极为突兀。所谓马来西亚口音，大概就是广东腔+福建腔，翘舌少、轻声较少（个人认为）、没有儿化、语调趋平。其次是词汇，以中文词汇为主体，再加上各种方言、马来语、英语的词汇，各种语气词“啦”、“咯”、“哄”层出不穷。大家有兴趣的话，可以去百度打“马来西亚VS中国”，马上就能找到许多具体的例子。
但是，我以为：更深层的差距不在嘴巴，而在脑子里。有一次，中文系的徐艺峰师兄领着我们留学生辩论队讨论一个辩题，他最感叹的就是：“如果是跟中国学生讨论，第三个衡量标准一定是‘何者更有利于社会主义的建设’。”看看中国同学的课就知道，什么思修、毛概、邓小平思想、军事理论，这些似乎都离我们的生活很远很远。冷战时期资本主义阵营和社会主义阵营的分家就决定了我们意识形态上的不同。
撇开这个问题不谈，即使同样都继承了中华文化，两地的继承也是有所不同的。在这里，大部分的人都信仰“无神论”。但是，我们那里好多人都还信仰观十八罗汉、观音娘娘、关公、济公、齐天大圣等，不一而足。不止大量的神庙，我们还保留了大量的宗祠、会馆，并且还在华人社区发挥着一定的作用。由于我对中国的现代化进程还算有一定的了解，以上这些还不足以让我惊讶，真正让我吃惊的是中国风气的开放。校内校外，情侣相拥亲吻的情况无所不在，这还真不是我想象中的中国。当然，我们那里也有很开放的人，但是可以肯定的是：马来西亚的华人普遍上要比中国人保守得多（嗯~至少跟我的家乡相比）。
此外，许多大马华人一致公认的是：中国学生真的很多“学术牛人”，大体上比我们那儿的人要勤劳的多。中国人多竞争大，我所认识的每位同学一个个都是从高考的腥风血雨中杀出来的英雄豪杰，他们那股永不言倦的冲劲着实让我们折服。相较而言，马来西亚人则比较慵懒，更倾向于做自己喜欢的事、享受自己的人生。因此，我们玩起来比较放浪形骸，比较不顾形象，大声吵、大声笑、大声闹。
既不是马来人，也不是中国人，我们仿佛就是另一种程度上的混血儿，所以或许我们有点孤单。但是，这或许就是我们独特的优势：既传承了悠久的中华文化，又成长在一个相对宽松自由的舆论环境，想法更自由、更多元。所以，即使我们这个群体在世界上似乎很孤立，但如果让我有机会选择，我仍然愿意出生在马来西亚，当马来西亚的华人。
第三、悲壮的存在
“宝剑锋自磨砺出，梅花香自苦寒来”，这一句俗语在马来西亚人身上得到绝佳的体现。在过去，马来人、华人、印度人曾经联手争取了国家的独立；但是，随着马来人逐渐独掌大权（再注：对马来人的抨击仅限政治人物），华人、印度人的地位也日渐衰弱。首先，马来语成了唯一的官方语言。再来，马来西亚教育的最终目标定为：“使马来语成为唯一的教学媒介语”。
但是，最大的转折点是六、七十年代的“五·一三事件”。由于华人比较刻苦耐劳，比其他的民族来得富有，无形中造成了民族间的矛盾。出于权力斗争的目的，政治人物鼓动马来人屠杀华人。于是，第二任首相敦拉萨借此宣布国家进入“紧急状态”，顺势上台，颁布了一系列不平等的法令。在经济上，每家公司都至少要雇用30%的土著（其实就是马来人和其他极少部分的少数民族）；在教育上，大学也实施固打制，要保留一定的份额给土著。此外，对中文教育的打压更是变本加厉，影响力最大的就是改制事件，即不以马来语为主要教学媒介语的政府中学都领不到政府一分钱的津贴。
打压归打压，但是马来西亚华人依然在暴风雨中茁壮成长。如第一篇所述，我们发展出了一套完整的中文教育，各领域人才辈出。大家熟知的梁静茹、曹格、光亮皆是马来西亚华人；大家现在人手一支的U盘是马来西亚的潘建忠发明的；在华语辩论界上，马来西亚以其犀利的辩风在世界上占有一席之地；如今，马来西亚的十大首富中也大部分是华人。
但是，从这里我们可以看到一些很可悲的现实。大马华人自己创办的独立中学培养了无数英才那又怎样？全世界大部分高等学府都承认我们的统考文凭时，唯有马来西亚政府不承认！马来亚大学在辩坛创出赫赫威名那又怎样？在政府控制下的马来亚大学还曾经试图禁止马大的辩手参赛！梁静茹、潘建忠等辈就更加可悲了，许多人都以为他们是台湾人！潘建忠自己就说过：“如果我留在马来西亚，不可能会有今天的成就。”因为在马来西亚，华人发展的空间有限，报国无门又无法自我实现，不出国发展还能怎样？
于是，马来西亚的华人成长是成长了，可是那跟政府什么毛关系都没有。因为我们政府很慷慨，在全世界都在争夺人才时，我们政府眼看马来西亚出现人才外流的滚滚洪流仍然可以视而不见！在马来西亚大力提倡向外吸纳人才时，去看看，有多少马来西亚的人才在新加坡工作！有一次，我们国家的首相到新加坡访问，探访一间医院时，竟然有一半以上的人用马来语跟他致敬！这是何等的讽刺！
我原本把第三篇命名为“令人骄傲的存在”，可是后来改成了“悲壮”。的确，我们有很傲人的成就。可是，在我们有心报效祖国时，却只能被不公平的政策拒之国门。马来西亚那么一块宝地，没有天灾、资源丰富、文化多样，又居于世界要冲，如果真的有英明的政府，摇身变为世界强国绝非难事！反观新加坡，没有什么自然资源，又是弹丸之地，可是，现在我们只有眼睁睁看着自己的国家成了新加坡的腹地，眼看着从马来西亚分离出去的新加坡一天比一天强大！这种感觉真的很复杂，真的很难以言喻！
谓之“悲壮”，我想应该甚为贴切。
后记
可能很多人很意外，我从小时候开始就自认为自己是个中国人。从小读的书就是《西游记》、《水浒传》、《三国演义》、《杨家将》、《岳飞传》。影响我一生最大的一套书大概就是一套三十本的中国历史漫画图集。在我小小脑海中，出现的总是滚滚的黄土和快马飞驰的勇将。长大了一点，看过《中国人史纲》、《中国寓言》，偶尔会翻翻《唐诗三百首》。
那时，我真的自认为我是中国人，我的文化之根和这里的人是联系在一起的。
于是，我的梦想就是回归中国。英文我认为不重要，因为我要去中国，从没认真学；马文我更是碰都不碰，甚至常以考不好马来文自嘲。可以说，我很偏执。我只有认为有必要的东西我才会认真去学。到了高二，我的国际视野才宽广到足以让我理解英文的重要性，我从那时开始才急起直追，算是打下了一定的基础，但是绝没到“好”的程度。但是，马来文，我始终不愿意去学习，在统考中马文拿了惨兮兮的“B6”还常拿去说嘴。
去年9月，我来到了中国，就读于中国最好的大学，学习着自己最想念的中文系，一切看起来都像梦想成真。但是，来到了这里，我才第一次深刻地体会到：我是马来西亚人。我才第一次感觉到：我有可能是爱国的。在祖国成长的每一部分，不管是口音、思维等，都在我的生命里留下不可磨灭的痕迹。即使我可能算是马来西亚里最中国的一小撮人，即使我跟很多中国同学相处得不错，但是我仍然能深刻地体会到我们的不同之处。不管怎么样，在中国，只要是外国人，就真的只是外国人。
那么我到底该何去何从？这是我一整个学期都在思考的问题。在迷茫中，在摸索中，我才会写出上面的三篇文章，试图找到马来西亚华人的定位，试图找到自己的定位，然后决定自己以后要到哪里发展。我个人认为，不管是留在中国还是去到西方，就注定了只能收到单方面的信息，很难认清这个世界的真相。此外，留在中国，或许就只能是成为一个尴尬、孤立的个体。去到西方国家，那更是彻底地孤立，存活在一堆思维截然不同的陌生人之中，甚至还可能面临他们的排斥。
可能，我仍然会回去马来西亚，即使我们目前仍然要活在打压之中，即使要存活在一个难以实现自我的空间。但是，我或许可以用手中的一票继续给国阵施加那千万分之一的压力，做自己想做的事，做一个开心的人。即使薪水不高，即使物质生活不丰裕，即使很难真正地实现自我，但是只要能在自己最熟悉的家乡、跟喜欢的人在一起，幸福或许就那么简单不是吗？
Thursday 30 September 2010
Sunday 26 September 2010
朋友都有好消息
最近，听到好多朋友都有好消息！
求婚成功的、 快要结婚的、怀孕的都有！
当年一个缅甸男生和一个中国女生在我校的国际学生会遇见，然后产生化学作用，一直从Poly时期走到今天．．．至少也有４、５年的爱情长跑吧！他们遇到不少文化差异和家人的不谅解，但他们还是选择在他们相遇的地点-Singapore Polytechnic，10/10/10, 10.10am ROM！好浪漫！祝他们长长久久，十全十美！
很多人尽可能不选虎年结婚，不生虎宝宝（所以我那个年级总是最少人的）。。。
其实我也不喜欢虎年，她会让我犯太岁，事业运好差。。。
大概牛年是最好的了！兔年应该也会不赖哦！
我也期待兔年的来临！
祝所有人都甜甜蜜蜜，顺顺利利！
我想...兔年来临的那个时刻我要许下许多愿望，希望我的愿望快快实现...
求婚成功的、 快要结婚的、怀孕的都有！
当年一个缅甸男生和一个中国女生在我校的国际学生会遇见，然后产生化学作用，一直从Poly时期走到今天．．．至少也有４、５年的爱情长跑吧！他们遇到不少文化差异和家人的不谅解，但他们还是选择在他们相遇的地点-Singapore Polytechnic，10/10/10, 10.10am ROM！好浪漫！祝他们长长久久，十全十美！
很多人尽可能不选虎年结婚，不生虎宝宝（所以我那个年级总是最少人的）。。。
其实我也不喜欢虎年，她会让我犯太岁，事业运好差。。。
大概牛年是最好的了！兔年应该也会不赖哦！
我也期待兔年的来临！
祝所有人都甜甜蜜蜜，顺顺利利！
我想...兔年来临的那个时刻我要许下许多愿望，希望我的愿望快快实现...
Saturday 11 September 2010
混混日子
Yeah, my dar is back from China after two weeks.
You know how much he means to you after a short separation and yes again distance makes relationship fonder.
I have been telling my friends that I'm 混混日子 for my work.
Yes, it is not a smooth sailing year for Tigers, you know.
When things are beyond control, just enjoy each moment.
Oh yes, I love my colleagues, love the gossips, the kbox time...
So, nothing much to update :)
You know how much he means to you after a short separation and yes again distance makes relationship fonder.
I have been telling my friends that I'm 混混日子 for my work.
Yes, it is not a smooth sailing year for Tigers, you know.
When things are beyond control, just enjoy each moment.
Oh yes, I love my colleagues, love the gossips, the kbox time...
So, nothing much to update :)
Wednesday 8 September 2010
Monday 6 September 2010
'I wish I could know what I want'
Recently, I keep asking myself, what is life?
Life always doesn't go the way ppl wish. I'm simple but I start giving myself complicated situations. I'm in the dilemma of most ppl face such as working for a job I don't really like and leading a dull working life.
I work for the sake of money. With the money, I can go travelling, buying a house which will then provide sense of belonging, going for facial and beauty products with the list going on.
But life like this is meaning less, right? I force myself to love my job & manager and stay in the company till I get the bonus. I struggle if I should book the tour and package while I worry if my leave is disapproved.
Negative thoughts are hitting me, again... Tell me, why life cannot go the way we want? However, I also lost my way... I cant figure out what's the life I want... I wish I could know what I want.......
'I wish I could know what I want' - good for thoughts?
Life always doesn't go the way ppl wish. I'm simple but I start giving myself complicated situations. I'm in the dilemma of most ppl face such as working for a job I don't really like and leading a dull working life.
I work for the sake of money. With the money, I can go travelling, buying a house which will then provide sense of belonging, going for facial and beauty products with the list going on.
But life like this is meaning less, right? I force myself to love my job & manager and stay in the company till I get the bonus. I struggle if I should book the tour and package while I worry if my leave is disapproved.
Negative thoughts are hitting me, again... Tell me, why life cannot go the way we want? However, I also lost my way... I cant figure out what's the life I want... I wish I could know what I want.......
'I wish I could know what I want' - good for thoughts?
Saturday 31 July 2010
工作的技巧
那天的我报说，乡下人不用护肤品，但皮肤仍好。城市的人拼命用护肤品，但皮肤依然快速老化，那是因为城市人的皮肤不断受压力影响。
城市的市场上出现越来越多减压配套，从按摩到SPA到户外活动到看心理医生... 我们赚的钱又流回到了别人的手里，还得不偿失地使自己青春不再。赚的钱还抽税，真是赔了夫人又折兵！可到底为什么我们还拼命赚钱呢？
其实我们都懂，还是加加减减还是有钱剩。赚了大钱，就有好日子过，有面子。只是失去的，都是intangible - 不能用钱来衡量的。你失去了自我，失去了陪家人教育小孩与另一半联络感情的时间，失去了自由，甚至有些人可能因此身心受创。如果能够选择，我真的不想工作，越来越失去自我，连说什么话都被管。诚实是从小的教育，但遇到工作上的某些人，你就是不可以老实。凌晨1点，老板娘简讯我说，要我从这件事好好学习，不准对他人提起。
其实，我认为两人都有错，若不是她说，我会做吗？我只错在不会说话而已。
无论如何，工作上的说话技巧，待人处事，与上司的相处技巧等我还得好好学习才行，不然我在社会上决不能呆久。
昨夜，我又哭了, 因为我想起爸爸。如果我告诉爸爸，爸爸一定会要我不工作了，然后再塞钱给我。爸爸的肩膀好宽好厚好踏实...但，我已经毕业了，不该成为家里的负累，而是带给他们好日子的女儿... 没关系的，我下个周末就可以见到爸爸妈妈了，我好想念他们...家里的日子最好，可以什么话都说，什么事都做，爸爸都让着我，给我欺负。哈！
我嚷着以后都不工作，王先生说，会有这么一天的！我也要做做梦~~~~
我还说，不如我们回去种菜去，日子可以挺逍遥吧？
让我好好享受这个凉凉的星期六早晨吧~ 朋友们，我这就出门去！
城市的市场上出现越来越多减压配套，从按摩到SPA到户外活动到看心理医生... 我们赚的钱又流回到了别人的手里，还得不偿失地使自己青春不再。赚的钱还抽税，真是赔了夫人又折兵！可到底为什么我们还拼命赚钱呢？
其实我们都懂，还是加加减减还是有钱剩。赚了大钱，就有好日子过，有面子。只是失去的，都是intangible - 不能用钱来衡量的。你失去了自我，失去了陪家人教育小孩与另一半联络感情的时间，失去了自由，甚至有些人可能因此身心受创。如果能够选择，我真的不想工作，越来越失去自我，连说什么话都被管。诚实是从小的教育，但遇到工作上的某些人，你就是不可以老实。凌晨1点，老板娘简讯我说，要我从这件事好好学习，不准对他人提起。
其实，我认为两人都有错，若不是她说，我会做吗？我只错在不会说话而已。
无论如何，工作上的说话技巧，待人处事，与上司的相处技巧等我还得好好学习才行，不然我在社会上决不能呆久。
昨夜，我又哭了, 因为我想起爸爸。如果我告诉爸爸，爸爸一定会要我不工作了，然后再塞钱给我。爸爸的肩膀好宽好厚好踏实...但，我已经毕业了，不该成为家里的负累，而是带给他们好日子的女儿... 没关系的，我下个周末就可以见到爸爸妈妈了，我好想念他们...家里的日子最好，可以什么话都说，什么事都做，爸爸都让着我，给我欺负。哈！
我嚷着以后都不工作，王先生说，会有这么一天的！我也要做做梦~~~~
我还说，不如我们回去种菜去，日子可以挺逍遥吧？
让我好好享受这个凉凉的星期六早晨吧~ 朋友们，我这就出门去！
Friday 30 July 2010
祸从口出 & LADY BOSS
Another working week has just ended. I have been working very carefully for the past five days and I seriously thought life has been getting better. At least, I have built up good rapport with my lady boss. Life was great for the 4.5 days but the bad luck god get me into trouble when we were almost leaving, for one sentence from my mouth. No, I get my lady boss, GM and probably the whole company image into trouble. No enlarge effect. My lady boss cried. Tell me, how many of you equip with the capability to make your boss in tears? Seriously, I'm amazed by my competency.
As she said, it can be big or small. Pray hard that it is just a small matter and wont get everyone into trouble. *PRAY TO ALL GODS* I will stop eating all kind of meats and stick to vegetarian for my sins.
Can't I have the fine touch of the art of speaking? Being too honest is indeed the worst thing you should have while you are on job, esp you are facing outsiders. Too straight is wrong for many cases. Lady boss said: The work is not hard, it's the people that hard to handle. I fully understand by now. Working is not about the work, the people skill is the most important skill for your career.
ARGH~!! I just can't be a good employee nor a good speaking person....ARGH!!! Assessment of situation is the matter of one second before you anwser to any question throwns!!! Hope it's not the implication of 祸从口出~~! STRESS!! For my past 5 days, I spent an average of 2hours in car chit chatting with her each day. I may not know the burden of a manager, but I slowly know her. In fact, my lady boss is a kind, considerate and graceful people. She teaches primary student from 7-8am before coming to office; she never scold her children and students (poly) and she has many good characters that worth learning. But, somehow I just can't get along too well with her, when I do, for the past few days, matter happens and she bears for me.
GOOD LUCK FOR BOTH OF US MAN~ GODSSS BLESS PLS!
Due to responsibility, I have to stay back. The art of speaking is my must-learn skill~~ @.@
As she said, it can be big or small. Pray hard that it is just a small matter and wont get everyone into trouble. *PRAY TO ALL GODS* I will stop eating all kind of meats and stick to vegetarian for my sins.
Can't I have the fine touch of the art of speaking? Being too honest is indeed the worst thing you should have while you are on job, esp you are facing outsiders. Too straight is wrong for many cases. Lady boss said: The work is not hard, it's the people that hard to handle. I fully understand by now. Working is not about the work, the people skill is the most important skill for your career.
ARGH~!! I just can't be a good employee nor a good speaking person....ARGH!!! Assessment of situation is the matter of one second before you anwser to any question throwns!!! Hope it's not the implication of 祸从口出~~! STRESS!! For my past 5 days, I spent an average of 2hours in car chit chatting with her each day. I may not know the burden of a manager, but I slowly know her. In fact, my lady boss is a kind, considerate and graceful people. She teaches primary student from 7-8am before coming to office; she never scold her children and students (poly) and she has many good characters that worth learning. But, somehow I just can't get along too well with her, when I do, for the past few days, matter happens and she bears for me.
GOOD LUCK FOR BOTH OF US MAN~ GODSSS BLESS PLS!
Due to responsibility, I have to stay back. The art of speaking is my must-learn skill~~ @.@
Monday 26 July 2010
My dream - House
SHOUT LOUDLY - I WANNA OWN A HOUSE.
Ya. The desire to own a house has expanded significantly. I'm saving hard for my dream. I believe another half of me is doing the same thing, but he is more capable by exploring to earn more. The realistic way is to get a HDB, probably 3rooms unit. Equally, I'm seduced by landed house with big space in JB at a lower cost.
Reasons for my strong desire? Probably I'm sick from renting house, by paying housing installment for others, by sharing the house with others and no personal freedom such as decorating the house, purchasing house appliances and etc. I believe I want to stable my life at a place, the one belongs to me.
My birthday is approaching, I bet some of you are aware of it. You better say YES :p My point is, my colleague asked me what do i want for my birthday? Within a second, I replied: Can you get me a house. haha. At this moment, I can't think of anything i want for my birthday...seriously need to brainstorm what I want from my colleagues...or anyone of you interested to know? Then, I will share my checklist for your reference. Heez.
Almost time to bed and I will dream for my dream house...Which level of dream am I in? Hopefully only one level and so I wont be too far from it.
BTW, Inception is an incredibly genious movie production :P
I will be in Changi for sausage making attachment for the whole week till Friday...And here comes my weekends! Congrats to my cutest pilot-to-be (hopefully) HAPPY GRADUATION on coming Saturday!
Ya. The desire to own a house has expanded significantly. I'm saving hard for my dream. I believe another half of me is doing the same thing, but he is more capable by exploring to earn more. The realistic way is to get a HDB, probably 3rooms unit. Equally, I'm seduced by landed house with big space in JB at a lower cost.
Reasons for my strong desire? Probably I'm sick from renting house, by paying housing installment for others, by sharing the house with others and no personal freedom such as decorating the house, purchasing house appliances and etc. I believe I want to stable my life at a place, the one belongs to me.
My birthday is approaching, I bet some of you are aware of it. You better say YES :p My point is, my colleague asked me what do i want for my birthday? Within a second, I replied: Can you get me a house. haha. At this moment, I can't think of anything i want for my birthday...seriously need to brainstorm what I want from my colleagues...or anyone of you interested to know? Then, I will share my checklist for your reference. Heez.
Almost time to bed and I will dream for my dream house...Which level of dream am I in? Hopefully only one level and so I wont be too far from it.
BTW, Inception is an incredibly genious movie production :P
I will be in Changi for sausage making attachment for the whole week till Friday...And here comes my weekends! Congrats to my cutest pilot-to-be (hopefully) HAPPY GRADUATION on coming Saturday!
Sunday 18 July 2010
MELAKA TRIP!
I just returned from Melaka moments ago. It was an awesome trip with the presence of my lovely colleagues. They are really my motivation to work everyday. Though I have tough life in work but I have them in life. They are really great, funny and lovely. We just cant stop loving each other. Thank GOD for leaving them for me.
Melaka is a great place to have a short escape. You have heritage, food, shopping! Pahlawan is a great place to hunt cheap and nice stuff! RM25 for a dress, anyone??! But they are ppl trying to make good money from the clothes too, one S$10 they can sell at RM70,80, crazy!
We drove to BABA Charlie Nyonya Kuih house which is damn crowded by Singaporeans! I think it becomes famous after the show stared by Michelle. Well, I just had the kuih and I dont think they are so fantastic, norm to me. But there is a Restoran Peranakan located at the street next to jonker street, very very nice asam laksa fish~! and it was cheap!! only RM120 for 6 dishes including fresh whole asam laksa fish, sotong, ayam ponteh, rendang chicken, tau geh and four corner beans!! The cendol is delicious too! So, we paid RM20 each! We also found superb delicious egg tart somewhere in a street! Sorry, I cant remember the street name as we were brought by my colleague's friend and my colleague's husband was the one driving and hunting for those foods :p
Oh, Jonker street is culturally attractive and shopping heaven which is different at day and night time!! Those stalls in front of Red House is selling at slightly higher price for the same item!
Hopefully I can visit one more time before CNY next year. Must be even merrier and more things to see and buy!
That's all for my great weekend. Oh, it's starting of another working week. But i can see my colleagues again! Good bye my weekend, see you my horrible weekday!!
That's all for now! \''\(^_^/''/
Melaka is a great place to have a short escape. You have heritage, food, shopping! Pahlawan is a great place to hunt cheap and nice stuff! RM25 for a dress, anyone??! But they are ppl trying to make good money from the clothes too, one S$10 they can sell at RM70,80, crazy!
We drove to BABA Charlie Nyonya Kuih house which is damn crowded by Singaporeans! I think it becomes famous after the show stared by Michelle. Well, I just had the kuih and I dont think they are so fantastic, norm to me. But there is a Restoran Peranakan located at the street next to jonker street, very very nice asam laksa fish~! and it was cheap!! only RM120 for 6 dishes including fresh whole asam laksa fish, sotong, ayam ponteh, rendang chicken, tau geh and four corner beans!! The cendol is delicious too! So, we paid RM20 each! We also found superb delicious egg tart somewhere in a street! Sorry, I cant remember the street name as we were brought by my colleague's friend and my colleague's husband was the one driving and hunting for those foods :p
Oh, Jonker street is culturally attractive and shopping heaven which is different at day and night time!! Those stalls in front of Red House is selling at slightly higher price for the same item!
Hopefully I can visit one more time before CNY next year. Must be even merrier and more things to see and buy!
That's all for my great weekend. Oh, it's starting of another working week. But i can see my colleagues again! Good bye my weekend, see you my horrible weekday!!
That's all for now! \''\(^_^/''/
Tuesday 13 July 2010
老样子
日子还是老样子。
每天日复一日，上班-吃饭-放工-吃饭-睡觉，再循环那些宅宅的日子。
星期一倒数周末，期待周末出游去；
每天想要怎样开心点，自由点的挣钱；
继续这样过日子，大概会很快老化。呵呵。
周末最开心。
可以不上班，不做肉，只做我喜欢的事情。
包括美容、休息、煮饭、出游去。
上上上个周末2个人花了马币46/新币20看了两部好电影- 叶问前传；knight and day. 还坐couple seat, 好划算，毕竟新币20两个人只能在周末看1部戏。
上上个周末把我生平第一次的演唱会给了在云星剧场开唱的任贤齐，没太大惊喜，普通。
上个周末花了少少钱，买了好东西给我的厨房（当然陆续期待更多的厨房用具--等我有自己的家再买，和给他的领带。
这个周末要和同事们去马六甲走透透！
下个周末我要做泡菜! YUM YUM!
想到周末，突然活了起来。
原来周日，我是死的。
钱没挣多少，却老是想买房子，去旅行
怎么办呢？
这样下去，脑袋会越来越不灵活...
我的想法统统太负面了...
在英国的那段日子最好...
压力是有，日子一样过很快，但放假就是旅行去...
我就是不能说服我自己，那样的日子早已离我远去...
算算，我已回国1年了！！！！！！天啊！
人家说: 若不能避免，就尽情享受.
可我就是无法享受嘛~~~
上次呼吁了，怎么没有有钱人要娶我 >_<
脑袋越来越笨拙。
买了这么多地方的飞机票，现在才知道原来统统都凶多吉少。
老板娘啊，放过我，好啊？
btw, 我渐渐相信什么叫做8字不合。
她可以跟每个人都很合，唯独你...
8月曼谷，90%去不成。
11月香港，假是批了，我死死都去！
11月槟城，求求你，让我拿2天假回家吧！
2月KK, 新年拿2次假，看来凶多吉少！
4月巴哩岛，4天假，有一点点的多，希望到时通融通融。
这些都是老板娘任职前/刚来时订的机票，
知道她的pattern后我就再也不敢订机票了，所有AA,JETSTAR,TIGER的网站都不敢进了....
haizzzzZzzzZZzz
剥夺了我人生最期待的日子，生活怎能快活？！
我才发现，我自己真的很在意annual leave，可以去旅行！！！！
每天日复一日，上班-吃饭-放工-吃饭-睡觉，再循环那些宅宅的日子。
星期一倒数周末，期待周末出游去；
每天想要怎样开心点，自由点的挣钱；
继续这样过日子，大概会很快老化。呵呵。
周末最开心。
可以不上班，不做肉，只做我喜欢的事情。
包括美容、休息、煮饭、出游去。
上上上个周末2个人花了马币46/新币20看了两部好电影- 叶问前传；knight and day. 还坐couple seat, 好划算，毕竟新币20两个人只能在周末看1部戏。
上上个周末把我生平第一次的演唱会给了在云星剧场开唱的任贤齐，没太大惊喜，普通。
上个周末花了少少钱，买了好东西给我的厨房（当然陆续期待更多的厨房用具--等我有自己的家再买，和给他的领带。
这个周末要和同事们去马六甲走透透！
下个周末我要做泡菜! YUM YUM!
想到周末，突然活了起来。
原来周日，我是死的。
钱没挣多少，却老是想买房子，去旅行
怎么办呢？
这样下去，脑袋会越来越不灵活...
我的想法统统太负面了...
在英国的那段日子最好...
压力是有，日子一样过很快，但放假就是旅行去...
我就是不能说服我自己，那样的日子早已离我远去...
算算，我已回国1年了！！！！！！天啊！
人家说: 若不能避免，就尽情享受.
可我就是无法享受嘛~~~
上次呼吁了，怎么没有有钱人要娶我 >_<
脑袋越来越笨拙。
买了这么多地方的飞机票，现在才知道原来统统都凶多吉少。
老板娘啊，放过我，好啊？
btw, 我渐渐相信什么叫做8字不合。
她可以跟每个人都很合，唯独你...
8月曼谷，90%去不成。
11月香港，假是批了，我死死都去！
11月槟城，求求你，让我拿2天假回家吧！
2月KK, 新年拿2次假，看来凶多吉少！
4月巴哩岛，4天假，有一点点的多，希望到时通融通融。
这些都是老板娘任职前/刚来时订的机票，
知道她的pattern后我就再也不敢订机票了，所有AA,JETSTAR,TIGER的网站都不敢进了....
haizzzzZzzzZZzz
剥夺了我人生最期待的日子，生活怎能快活？！
我才发现，我自己真的很在意annual leave，可以去旅行！！！！
Monday 28 June 2010
down :(
恩...最近的事情可以很简单地说，自己却好像复杂化。
简单的说，工作不是很愉快，感觉很受委屈地，在同事面前忍不住泪儿。
真的觉得自己很没用，就是不能受一点委屈和责备，我脸皮很薄，也很好胜。
就是不爽上司，但是我会忍下去，并告诉自己我很爱她，她才会好好地爱我。
今天，她果然跟我道歉，对星期五的事情道歉，我明白她的压力。
所以，我也放开了，希望自己努力点，把自己的事情做好。
希望她会爱我多点，给我点支持，不然我真的很难在政治里生存下去...
话说，每天12个小时都活在心机累累的办公室中，我很辛苦...
我是真的希望自己能够不工作，或是在0政治的地方工作，发白日梦，对吧？
这样的生活，让我好累好累，想出国去玩，却不能拿假，实在痛苦... >_<
到底我可以能够活得心空自由却无需担心收入和花费吗？
却找不到一个对的方法来面对自己的生活．．．
有没有有钱人看上我，不然就来一份零政治，无压力又享受的高薪工作吧~
还有能够让我随时拿假去玩的工作~~！
ＢＴＷ，太岁老爷真得很坏咯 :(
心情down :(
大大声喊：我要快点变有钱人／嫁给有钱人 ！！
简单的说，工作不是很愉快，感觉很受委屈地，在同事面前忍不住泪儿。
真的觉得自己很没用，就是不能受一点委屈和责备，我脸皮很薄，也很好胜。
就是不爽上司，但是我会忍下去，并告诉自己我很爱她，她才会好好地爱我。
今天，她果然跟我道歉，对星期五的事情道歉，我明白她的压力。
所以，我也放开了，希望自己努力点，把自己的事情做好。
希望她会爱我多点，给我点支持，不然我真的很难在政治里生存下去...
话说，每天12个小时都活在心机累累的办公室中，我很辛苦...
我是真的希望自己能够不工作，或是在0政治的地方工作，发白日梦，对吧？
这样的生活，让我好累好累，想出国去玩，却不能拿假，实在痛苦... >_<
到底我可以能够活得心空自由却无需担心收入和花费吗？
却找不到一个对的方法来面对自己的生活．．．
有没有有钱人看上我，不然就来一份零政治，无压力又享受的高薪工作吧~
还有能够让我随时拿假去玩的工作~~！
ＢＴＷ，太岁老爷真得很坏咯 :(
心情down :(
大大声喊：我要快点变有钱人／嫁给有钱人 ！！
Wednesday 2 June 2010
虎年衰事一箩箩
心情好差哦...
原来我还是习惯向平面银幕诉苦...
今天，高跟鞋的鞋跟断了。
好伤心，因为这只是我第3次穿它而已。
面子书上，我说：
‘戏剧里，高跟鞋的鞋跟断了，有时候会有白马王子拯救美女的情节出现；
现实里，鞋跟断了，只代表这是今年一箩箩衰事的其中一件罢了，没有大不了！’
确实如此，今天同事们还猛评我离开FR组的唯一创作...
因为大规模的生产出现了很多问题...
我想，确实为难他们了...
虽然我明白，确确实实是我的错，
但眼泪就是很想留下来，
但，我控制了。
还算有成长吧。
今年的衰事真的很多，
拿假老板娘会多多问题，多多意见，甚至擅自决定我8月不必去曼谷了！
老板娘根本不把我的实验室放在眼里，他人的，她可以用3个小时来细细讨论每一个细节，
我的实验室只用了10分钟来决定一切！
虽然我的规模比较小，但也太明显她不重视我吧？
小小的事件还包括大热天，她放我一个人走路回去公司，虽然只是１２分钟的路程．
算了，投诉无用。
还是保持积极的态度，期望明天会更好，期望我的Ｒ＆Ｄ室进行顺利，然后做让老板们骄傲的作品出来...
希望我可以坚持并待上2年！
虽然每天开始抗拒去上班，我相信现在只是过渡期...
正面思考~~！！
还有衰的事，上次我订的飞机票竟然定错日期，无端端花了额外１７２块 :(
还有还有很多呢～～！！
不说了!!
我要看书去~！
原来我还是习惯向平面银幕诉苦...
今天，高跟鞋的鞋跟断了。
好伤心，因为这只是我第3次穿它而已。
面子书上，我说：
‘戏剧里，高跟鞋的鞋跟断了，有时候会有白马王子拯救美女的情节出现；
现实里，鞋跟断了，只代表这是今年一箩箩衰事的其中一件罢了，没有大不了！’
确实如此，今天同事们还猛评我离开FR组的唯一创作...
因为大规模的生产出现了很多问题...
我想，确实为难他们了...
虽然我明白，确确实实是我的错，
但眼泪就是很想留下来，
但，我控制了。
还算有成长吧。
今年的衰事真的很多，
拿假老板娘会多多问题，多多意见，甚至擅自决定我8月不必去曼谷了！
老板娘根本不把我的实验室放在眼里，他人的，她可以用3个小时来细细讨论每一个细节，
我的实验室只用了10分钟来决定一切！
虽然我的规模比较小，但也太明显她不重视我吧？
小小的事件还包括大热天，她放我一个人走路回去公司，虽然只是１２分钟的路程．
算了，投诉无用。
还是保持积极的态度，期望明天会更好，期望我的Ｒ＆Ｄ室进行顺利，然后做让老板们骄傲的作品出来...
希望我可以坚持并待上2年！
虽然每天开始抗拒去上班，我相信现在只是过渡期...
正面思考~~！！
还有衰的事，上次我订的飞机票竟然定错日期，无端端花了额外１７２块 :(
还有还有很多呢～～！！
不说了!!
我要看书去~！
Tuesday 1 June 2010
IT'S JUNE.
So, it's June.
Trying my best to keep at least a post a month for my updates.
May is passing very fast indeed. I have been preparing my company dinner and dance since early of May. Had my facial, done my cosmetic,clothes,shoes,accesories shopping, had haircut blah blah blah. Women always take long time to prepare days before a grant and important event such as dinner and dance, wedding dinner and worst - own wedding. Haha. but it all worth the money and time invested when you are beautiful and there it makes us feel more confident and delightful.
Other than that, working life is as usual. BUT, i have tougher days in companies. Nasty colleagues from other dept make me a better EQ person. NOW, my manager is someone harder to please. She is very soft, motherly and caring person, so everyone is praising her. On the other side, she can be very workaholic, giaw (stingy aka kedekut), aunty behaviour and worst stop me (and other colleagues) from taking leave!
She has 3 kids and she tries to go back at 6pm everyday to fetch her youngest child. However, she did come back during weekends to finish her works and send emails at 11pm. She can warm up the cold dish that I commented. She makes us rojak. She is a soft spoken lady which never scold us but also keep nagging and chasing for something. She is just like another mother of us.
On the other side, she is always wearing two masks. Slowly, I realised she wears a mask almost everyday. She also likes to 'poh' ppl as in having sweet talks to whoever have values to her. So, I stop talking so much to her. Cause I dont like ppl being so JIA! Then, when she gets familiar with everyone, she starts being sarcastic (esp to me!) and control many things, e.g. my annual leave.
I bought bangkok air tickets last nov to travel in August due to cheap tickets. But now, the bangkok is simply a mess and hence I almost give up. YOG is heating up the whole singapore and my company is doing something for them that need almost all staff from ground to managerial level. I was called to give details which means I will be on duty, most likely. However, schedules have yet released.
Here, she stops me from taking leave even though the duty roaster is not out and dunno if my holiday crashed. That's fine. I understand.
Then, I know her style of working so I quickly apply my HK trip in coming NOV as soon as I have booked the tickets. HR asked if I need to apply the leave so early, I answered: 'here we have different style of working, sure I have to apply first!'
Predictably, she asked if I REALLY NEED to take leave in NOV (during deepavali)! WTH.
'YES, I have already booked the air tickets'. Come on, only 3.5 days loh.
Then, I dun talk to her anymore. Silent... and soon, I received a notification email that she has approved the leave.
Actually I have booked another trip to go back Penang in the same month, I think I have to give up the trip. Unlikely she will let me go to PG :(
Sienz. I will try hard not to take leave and my plant has not up OR not much issue in the new plant so I have excuse to go back PG during HAJI!
Then, I just knew that she also asked the old chef in my company not to take leave, even though he is planning to take medical leave... She is too workaholic sometimes.
Anyway, I also receive pressure from her cause she is a very gan jiong ppl that making everyone so ganjiong and stress in my dept. Some have to really split into 2-3 in order to finish the task given by the tight timeline.
Well...Working is always not easy in SG. The best is she has to fetch her youngest child earlier and so I usually have no prob to go back at 6pm! God blesssSssSsss
Hope i can stay at least 2 years in this company to earn enough of experience, money and exposure for better career prospect :D
Gambateh~~~!!!
Arh, went back to PG during Vesak long weekend. Refreshen!!
Hmm, 31 Dec is my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary, anything special for them???
June...nothing much I guess. One K session with poly year 1 classmates...
Still...like to stay home after working to replenish my energy and love for life.
Hope June will be better~~!!
Trying my best to keep at least a post a month for my updates.
May is passing very fast indeed. I have been preparing my company dinner and dance since early of May. Had my facial, done my cosmetic,clothes,shoes,accesories shopping, had haircut blah blah blah. Women always take long time to prepare days before a grant and important event such as dinner and dance, wedding dinner and worst - own wedding. Haha. but it all worth the money and time invested when you are beautiful and there it makes us feel more confident and delightful.
Other than that, working life is as usual. BUT, i have tougher days in companies. Nasty colleagues from other dept make me a better EQ person. NOW, my manager is someone harder to please. She is very soft, motherly and caring person, so everyone is praising her. On the other side, she can be very workaholic, giaw (stingy aka kedekut), aunty behaviour and worst stop me (and other colleagues) from taking leave!
She has 3 kids and she tries to go back at 6pm everyday to fetch her youngest child. However, she did come back during weekends to finish her works and send emails at 11pm. She can warm up the cold dish that I commented. She makes us rojak. She is a soft spoken lady which never scold us but also keep nagging and chasing for something. She is just like another mother of us.
On the other side, she is always wearing two masks. Slowly, I realised she wears a mask almost everyday. She also likes to 'poh' ppl as in having sweet talks to whoever have values to her. So, I stop talking so much to her. Cause I dont like ppl being so JIA! Then, when she gets familiar with everyone, she starts being sarcastic (esp to me!) and control many things, e.g. my annual leave.
I bought bangkok air tickets last nov to travel in August due to cheap tickets. But now, the bangkok is simply a mess and hence I almost give up. YOG is heating up the whole singapore and my company is doing something for them that need almost all staff from ground to managerial level. I was called to give details which means I will be on duty, most likely. However, schedules have yet released.
Here, she stops me from taking leave even though the duty roaster is not out and dunno if my holiday crashed. That's fine. I understand.
Then, I know her style of working so I quickly apply my HK trip in coming NOV as soon as I have booked the tickets. HR asked if I need to apply the leave so early, I answered: 'here we have different style of working, sure I have to apply first!'
Predictably, she asked if I REALLY NEED to take leave in NOV (during deepavali)! WTH.
'YES, I have already booked the air tickets'. Come on, only 3.5 days loh.
Then, I dun talk to her anymore. Silent... and soon, I received a notification email that she has approved the leave.
Actually I have booked another trip to go back Penang in the same month, I think I have to give up the trip. Unlikely she will let me go to PG :(
Sienz. I will try hard not to take leave and my plant has not up OR not much issue in the new plant so I have excuse to go back PG during HAJI!
Then, I just knew that she also asked the old chef in my company not to take leave, even though he is planning to take medical leave... She is too workaholic sometimes.
Anyway, I also receive pressure from her cause she is a very gan jiong ppl that making everyone so ganjiong and stress in my dept. Some have to really split into 2-3 in order to finish the task given by the tight timeline.
Well...Working is always not easy in SG. The best is she has to fetch her youngest child earlier and so I usually have no prob to go back at 6pm! God blesssSssSsss
Hope i can stay at least 2 years in this company to earn enough of experience, money and exposure for better career prospect :D
Gambateh~~~!!!
Arh, went back to PG during Vesak long weekend. Refreshen!!
Hmm, 31 Dec is my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary, anything special for them???
June...nothing much I guess. One K session with poly year 1 classmates...
Still...like to stay home after working to replenish my energy and love for life.
Hope June will be better~~!!
Sunday 2 May 2010
When u are 24 - you are lady, not girl.
不知道从哪里看到这篇日志，感觉说得很有道理，希望每个女生都能幸福的生活着~~
1~要坚信一个真理：这个世界上只有爸妈永远对你好。
你24岁了，你记不记得自己青春反叛的时候怎么气过他们。
你24岁了，父母都快年过半百了，你要对他们好的时间已经不多了。不要等失去的时候才哭着说当时年少不懂事，没有好好孝敬父母。
2~是的，你已经达到法定婚龄了，可是你并不用着急着嫁人。
或许你正在热恋，你们山盟海誓说要一辈子。
可是你才24岁，你不知道一辈子到底有多长。日子是过出来的，不是想出来的。
结婚，不是两个人的事情，是两个家庭的事情。老一辈讲的门当户对，并不是毫无道理的封建思想。结婚，你应该抱着一辈子只有一次的信念，所以结婚，慢慢来。
3~轰轰烈烈的爱情，留给一字头的年龄。
你24岁了。别再做那些会被别人当做笑话的傻事。
什么夜不归宿，当街吵架，以死相逼，一哭二闹三上吊。
那些疯狂的事情，那些年少轻狂，经历过就够了。
24岁了，学会淡定从容。
女孩子，从来就应该骄傲地活着，而不是卑微地恋爱。
4~不要因为寂寞而恋爱，不要因为跟风而恋爱。
24岁了，学会对自己的人生负责。
5~自己喜欢的东西，不要奢望别人买。
24岁，不管你以前是否玩过暧昧，你已经过了暧昧的年龄。
女人要独立，经济独立是基础。
6~如果一个男人对你说他配不上你，相信他。
一个自己说配不上你的男人，一辈子也不会配得上你！
珍惜与能力无关，与钱无关！
7~明确自己的目标，为此奋斗。
24岁，你要出国？找工作？还是继续学习？
24岁，你离踏入社会已不远，你是否已做好准备？
8~答应自己的事情就要做到，该对自己狠的时候就要狠，切忌优柔寡断、藕断丝连。
对自己心软，成不了大事。
24岁，要学会面对现实，不能再整日沉浸于白日梦中。
9~女孩子，要学会对自己好一点，别把所有的都投资在所谓的“潜力股”身上。
无论什么时候，看清楚你自己手中留着什么底牌。
10~做人学会圆滑。
24岁，别人不会再把你当小孩子，你的错误已不会再有人包容。
对不喜欢的人和事面带笑容，是我们必须学会的恶心。
11~感谢所有伤害过你的人。
然后在24岁生日的那天，对他们挥挥手，说声，我不再恨你们了。
你长大了，你要正视伤害。
12~别玩什么非主流。你不是90后。
还不如学着化化妆，不是烟熏妆，是大方得体的淡妆。
一个大企业的面试官曾对我说过，一个化淡妆的女生，企业会优先考虑。
为什么？因为你连自己的容貌都不着急，你会着急什么？
世界上没有丑女人，只有懒女人。
13~减肥，说说就好。
到你真的减到跟竹竿似的时候，你会发现低血压低血糖头晕目眩一系列疾病同时伴随你。
说不好还有胃癌。
24岁，你要知道，你以后的路还有很长，健康的身体是你走下去的保证。
14~对挑拨离间的人，不要揭发他。
等他演完一出出好戏，拼命演，拼命圆。
然后告诉他，其实你什么都知道。
接着，笑笑，离开。
15~谁对你好，你就对谁好。
人际交往永远是礼尚往来的、双向法则，没有人有义务对你好。
24岁，擦亮眼睛，谁对你好，记得对他好。
16~转身，要比眼泪快。
这是必须。
24岁了，你必须学会承担难过，你必须知道难过它会过去。
要经常对自己说，我也可以很勇敢。不要，千万不要，轻易在别人面前掉眼泪。
别人看多了你的眼泪，就会觉得你的眼泪如此廉价。
17~你以前或许干过许多荒唐的事。
可是请你不要觉得那有多见不得人。请你不要觉得那是负担。
24岁，这是你生命中一个新的开始。
18~随时给自己准备一个微笑 告诉自己 我可以！
不小了 要加油了
女人应该记住的：
1.学会做几个拿手好菜，不一定是给爱人做，也可能在休闲的时候犒劳自己或者慰劳下辛苦多年的父母。
2.越是得不到的感情，越不要极尽全力的强求；越是离得很远的理想，越需要旷日持久的坚持。
3.不要在情绪不好的时候做坏的决定，越是负面情绪占据主导的时候，越要少折腾神经。
4.一天不能花8小时以上时间去想同一个人，超过12点，再大的事也要为睡觉让路。
5.当感觉自己语塞的时候，就不要乱说话，要知道，沉默，也有无限种含义。
6.心情不好或者空虚寂寞的时候，千万不要找异性去说，那样只会让你更危险，找不到好姐们，也还有自己的父母。
7.不要怕犯傻和犯错，怕的是你第二次还犯同样的傻和同样的错。
8.工作是你的权利而不是义务，你可以少工作或者多工作，但是千万不要不工作。
9.健康比三围重要，智慧比财富值钱，这两样东西，争取都不要少。
10.能得到别人称赞不一定是好事，因为那同样会让你骄傲。
11.不要总是羡慕别人的幸福，因为那也可能是别人辛苦得来的。
12.衣服不要尽可能的多，够穿就行，男人不要尽可能的富有，够体贴你就成
1~要坚信一个真理：这个世界上只有爸妈永远对你好。
你24岁了，你记不记得自己青春反叛的时候怎么气过他们。
你24岁了，父母都快年过半百了，你要对他们好的时间已经不多了。不要等失去的时候才哭着说当时年少不懂事，没有好好孝敬父母。
2~是的，你已经达到法定婚龄了，可是你并不用着急着嫁人。
或许你正在热恋，你们山盟海誓说要一辈子。
可是你才24岁，你不知道一辈子到底有多长。日子是过出来的，不是想出来的。
结婚，不是两个人的事情，是两个家庭的事情。老一辈讲的门当户对，并不是毫无道理的封建思想。结婚，你应该抱着一辈子只有一次的信念，所以结婚，慢慢来。
3~轰轰烈烈的爱情，留给一字头的年龄。
你24岁了。别再做那些会被别人当做笑话的傻事。
什么夜不归宿，当街吵架，以死相逼，一哭二闹三上吊。
那些疯狂的事情，那些年少轻狂，经历过就够了。
24岁了，学会淡定从容。
女孩子，从来就应该骄傲地活着，而不是卑微地恋爱。
4~不要因为寂寞而恋爱，不要因为跟风而恋爱。
24岁了，学会对自己的人生负责。
5~自己喜欢的东西，不要奢望别人买。
24岁，不管你以前是否玩过暧昧，你已经过了暧昧的年龄。
女人要独立，经济独立是基础。
6~如果一个男人对你说他配不上你，相信他。
一个自己说配不上你的男人，一辈子也不会配得上你！
珍惜与能力无关，与钱无关！
7~明确自己的目标，为此奋斗。
24岁，你要出国？找工作？还是继续学习？
24岁，你离踏入社会已不远，你是否已做好准备？
8~答应自己的事情就要做到，该对自己狠的时候就要狠，切忌优柔寡断、藕断丝连。
对自己心软，成不了大事。
24岁，要学会面对现实，不能再整日沉浸于白日梦中。
9~女孩子，要学会对自己好一点，别把所有的都投资在所谓的“潜力股”身上。
无论什么时候，看清楚你自己手中留着什么底牌。
10~做人学会圆滑。
24岁，别人不会再把你当小孩子，你的错误已不会再有人包容。
对不喜欢的人和事面带笑容，是我们必须学会的恶心。
11~感谢所有伤害过你的人。
然后在24岁生日的那天，对他们挥挥手，说声，我不再恨你们了。
你长大了，你要正视伤害。
12~别玩什么非主流。你不是90后。
还不如学着化化妆，不是烟熏妆，是大方得体的淡妆。
一个大企业的面试官曾对我说过，一个化淡妆的女生，企业会优先考虑。
为什么？因为你连自己的容貌都不着急，你会着急什么？
世界上没有丑女人，只有懒女人。
13~减肥，说说就好。
到你真的减到跟竹竿似的时候，你会发现低血压低血糖头晕目眩一系列疾病同时伴随你。
说不好还有胃癌。
24岁，你要知道，你以后的路还有很长，健康的身体是你走下去的保证。
14~对挑拨离间的人，不要揭发他。
等他演完一出出好戏，拼命演，拼命圆。
然后告诉他，其实你什么都知道。
接着，笑笑，离开。
15~谁对你好，你就对谁好。
人际交往永远是礼尚往来的、双向法则，没有人有义务对你好。
24岁，擦亮眼睛，谁对你好，记得对他好。
16~转身，要比眼泪快。
这是必须。
24岁了，你必须学会承担难过，你必须知道难过它会过去。
要经常对自己说，我也可以很勇敢。不要，千万不要，轻易在别人面前掉眼泪。
别人看多了你的眼泪，就会觉得你的眼泪如此廉价。
17~你以前或许干过许多荒唐的事。
可是请你不要觉得那有多见不得人。请你不要觉得那是负担。
24岁，这是你生命中一个新的开始。
18~随时给自己准备一个微笑 告诉自己 我可以！
不小了 要加油了
女人应该记住的：
1.学会做几个拿手好菜，不一定是给爱人做，也可能在休闲的时候犒劳自己或者慰劳下辛苦多年的父母。
2.越是得不到的感情，越不要极尽全力的强求；越是离得很远的理想，越需要旷日持久的坚持。
3.不要在情绪不好的时候做坏的决定，越是负面情绪占据主导的时候，越要少折腾神经。
4.一天不能花8小时以上时间去想同一个人，超过12点，再大的事也要为睡觉让路。
5.当感觉自己语塞的时候，就不要乱说话，要知道，沉默，也有无限种含义。
6.心情不好或者空虚寂寞的时候，千万不要找异性去说，那样只会让你更危险，找不到好姐们，也还有自己的父母。
7.不要怕犯傻和犯错，怕的是你第二次还犯同样的傻和同样的错。
8.工作是你的权利而不是义务，你可以少工作或者多工作，但是千万不要不工作。
9.健康比三围重要，智慧比财富值钱，这两样东西，争取都不要少。
10.能得到别人称赞不一定是好事，因为那同样会让你骄傲。
11.不要总是羡慕别人的幸福，因为那也可能是别人辛苦得来的。
12.衣服不要尽可能的多，够穿就行，男人不要尽可能的富有，够体贴你就成
Saturday 1 May 2010
homesick =(
Continue with my previous post.
With many depressed reasons, here they provoke my homesickness which never happen for long time. Plus, it's mother's day next weekend which I cannot be home, again, after so many years in Singapore.
I've been asking myself what can I do to brighten up my mood and days. Now, I can finally think of one - Going home. Although my hometown house is not maintained in a good condition that I always get sick or uncomfortable due to my sensitive nose and many other reasons, I still love to go home as I feel so much relax and worry-free. That's like living under my parents' wings that I'm so protected and carefree~
I have not travelled for many months since my last trip in UK which is coming to one year =( As in travel to any places out of Singapore and Penisular Malaysia and new place that I never been to. So sienz... Life sucks!!!
HAiz, so wish to resign and stay at hometown forever without working for others.. Miss my parents so much, feel like crying T_T
but then, since my younger sister studies in KL, my parents feel so much lonely that they start to get a dog and treat it like real son. My dad never get so worry when we get sick (neither when we were toddler nor adults) but he bought damn expensive shampoo to the dog and even almost bring it to 'pet hospital' which cost much more than our 'human hospital'~! I joke that we should get it an insurance plan too......
anyway, at least the dog can keep them accompany and bring them so much fun each day. U can't stop laughing if u ever see how my dad and mum are confusing the dog (to enter the house or not)- one stopping and one luring it with foods and meats inside the house!!
And my elder sister is in new zealand now for her brand new life... all the best to her for the following 9months...
Homesick lah =( When will I have my own home?? We are going to move again, looking for a 4room HDB in west area... around clementi,jurong east, chinese garden. Do recommend!!
With many depressed reasons, here they provoke my homesickness which never happen for long time. Plus, it's mother's day next weekend which I cannot be home, again, after so many years in Singapore.
I've been asking myself what can I do to brighten up my mood and days. Now, I can finally think of one - Going home. Although my hometown house is not maintained in a good condition that I always get sick or uncomfortable due to my sensitive nose and many other reasons, I still love to go home as I feel so much relax and worry-free. That's like living under my parents' wings that I'm so protected and carefree~
I have not travelled for many months since my last trip in UK which is coming to one year =( As in travel to any places out of Singapore and Penisular Malaysia and new place that I never been to. So sienz... Life sucks!!!
HAiz, so wish to resign and stay at hometown forever without working for others.. Miss my parents so much, feel like crying T_T
but then, since my younger sister studies in KL, my parents feel so much lonely that they start to get a dog and treat it like real son. My dad never get so worry when we get sick (neither when we were toddler nor adults) but he bought damn expensive shampoo to the dog and even almost bring it to 'pet hospital' which cost much more than our 'human hospital'~! I joke that we should get it an insurance plan too......
anyway, at least the dog can keep them accompany and bring them so much fun each day. U can't stop laughing if u ever see how my dad and mum are confusing the dog (to enter the house or not)- one stopping and one luring it with foods and meats inside the house!!
And my elder sister is in new zealand now for her brand new life... all the best to her for the following 9months...
Homesick lah =( When will I have my own home?? We are going to move again, looking for a 4room HDB in west area... around clementi,jurong east, chinese garden. Do recommend!!
Updates after a while
Guys, long time no see...
Nothing special...busy and routine work and life...
Well, work is stressful and helpless sometimes.
I don't know how to handle the old ppl in company.
I don't have very good food technical background.
I don't know how to adjust the speaking tone, how to judge what to say and not to say.
I don't like meaty stuff but I have to do it.
I don't have good human and work management system in place.
I JUST DONT WANT TO WORK ANYMORE. As in not working at all. It's not the company problem only, it's my personal problem... I just dunno how to handle all these ppl, matters, politics. I feel so tired, stressed, depressed and helpless.
Can I live in a world where everyone has a kind and helpful heart? I have to make things clear that I work happily in my department but not with other depts and superiors.
I just want to lay on a man who can take care of everything and thereafter I can live happily ever after without much worries...
Let me dream...no one knows me, even myself is unsure what I want.
It's really not a good year for me.
I hardly could meet a 'gui ren' in workplace...
My plans always do not carry out as it is planned, be it in life or work...
So negative and depressed......
haizzzz
Today is labour day. To me, just another weekend... with mild 'stomach' pain which most girls have to suffer each month >< so cham... HAiZzzz!!
Nothing special...busy and routine work and life...
Well, work is stressful and helpless sometimes.
I don't know how to handle the old ppl in company.
I don't have very good food technical background.
I don't know how to adjust the speaking tone, how to judge what to say and not to say.
I don't like meaty stuff but I have to do it.
I don't have good human and work management system in place.
I JUST DONT WANT TO WORK ANYMORE. As in not working at all. It's not the company problem only, it's my personal problem... I just dunno how to handle all these ppl, matters, politics. I feel so tired, stressed, depressed and helpless.
Can I live in a world where everyone has a kind and helpful heart? I have to make things clear that I work happily in my department but not with other depts and superiors.
I just want to lay on a man who can take care of everything and thereafter I can live happily ever after without much worries...
Let me dream...no one knows me, even myself is unsure what I want.
It's really not a good year for me.
I hardly could meet a 'gui ren' in workplace...
My plans always do not carry out as it is planned, be it in life or work...
So negative and depressed......
haizzzz
Today is labour day. To me, just another weekend... with mild 'stomach' pain which most girls have to suffer each month >< so cham... HAiZzzz!!
Friday 9 April 2010
人，总在改变...
每回遇到友谊问题，我总是乱了阵脚。
hmmmm...有时候，不断地挑起事端，真的会fed up!
朋友不是让人感觉舒服的吗？
为何我开始感觉有压力？
我一定要跟着你们的方式走吗？
不过，也是时候自我反省。
我确实逐渐偏向宅女内向型，都不主动约朋友，出门去~
有些朋友接受，也习惯这种相处方式，
我却也开始问自己：是种病态吗？
Anyway, 他们可不接受这些excuses。
工作累了，就真的什么都不想理了，
王先生总是要我往外跑，见见朋友，我总是喊累，懒惰，所以日子过得平淡无奇。
我想，我真的累了。
在外趴趴走了好久，就想赖在家，赖着他， 想内向，想自闭。
想想，睡在棺材其实挺不错，永远就呆在同一个地点，时间到了有人给你钱，给你屋子，给你跑车，还可以有IPod, IPhone. 不错嘛~~
hmmmm...有时候，不断地挑起事端，真的会fed up!
朋友不是让人感觉舒服的吗？
为何我开始感觉有压力？
我一定要跟着你们的方式走吗？
不过，也是时候自我反省。
我确实逐渐偏向宅女内向型，都不主动约朋友，出门去~
有些朋友接受，也习惯这种相处方式，
我却也开始问自己：是种病态吗？
Anyway, 他们可不接受这些excuses。
工作累了，就真的什么都不想理了，
王先生总是要我往外跑，见见朋友，我总是喊累，懒惰，所以日子过得平淡无奇。
我想，我真的累了。
在外趴趴走了好久，就想赖在家，赖着他， 想内向，想自闭。
想想，睡在棺材其实挺不错，永远就呆在同一个地点，时间到了有人给你钱，给你屋子，给你跑车，还可以有IPod, IPhone. 不错嘛~~
Saturday 20 March 2010
生病记
星期六 雨天
从星期四晚上开始，整个人昏昏沉沉的，拖着快病死的身躯学yoga去，就是不要浪费一个小时5块钱的学费。
晚上发起烧来了。
虽然星期五因为有个跟总经理、与对方签合约的公司等等大牌人物- 非常极度重要的会议...
我还是决定拿病假，因为真的感觉很累很疲累很软弱...
题外话，我前阵子天天梦到总经理...
有人说，我犯太岁又没有去拜拜的结果...
我管他的，我就是不信邪~~~
我会尽力的~
是我被看得起也~
以我看来，是好事一庄，ok?
但还是阿米驼佛，我没有惹毛他...
我可是有认真工作，好不好嘛，总经理...
我会快点show you performance!!
话说，那是近日的工作压力...
是不是这样而导致抵抗力下滑，
被同事的细菌感染，一个接一个地倒下.....
病了2天，足足两天后，我终于起身刷牙洗脸冲凉.
这两天内，我差不多断断续续睡超过24个小时吧...
剩余的时间就是看戏，看戏，上上fb...
觉得自己很恐怖，48个小时后才冲凉，不过没有出去的我，没有臭臭哦！
那天跟一个朋友聊起，突然在想 ，怎么我在英国没有那么频密的生病？
外国的天气果然比较好，人也比较精神，少生病。
至少在英国，我的鼻子绝对听我的话。
爸爸说得对，生在四季国家的人身子都特别硬朗，因为总得适应不同的气候吧～
明天要去找舅舅阿姨，身子好起来，不要传染病菌给小孩子们噢～
喉咙痛的药都吃完了，怎么喉咙还是坏坏的？
anyway, 何先生，不要再给我压力，我会努力做好的！
我的抗压能力真的很差哦~
阿米驼佛～～～～
从星期四晚上开始，整个人昏昏沉沉的，拖着快病死的身躯学yoga去，就是不要浪费一个小时5块钱的学费。
晚上发起烧来了。
虽然星期五因为有个跟总经理、与对方签合约的公司等等大牌人物- 非常极度重要的会议...
我还是决定拿病假，因为真的感觉很累很疲累很软弱...
题外话，我前阵子天天梦到总经理...
有人说，我犯太岁又没有去拜拜的结果...
我管他的，我就是不信邪~~~
我会尽力的~
是我被看得起也~
以我看来，是好事一庄，ok?
但还是阿米驼佛，我没有惹毛他...
我可是有认真工作，好不好嘛，总经理...
我会快点show you performance!!
话说，那是近日的工作压力...
是不是这样而导致抵抗力下滑，
被同事的细菌感染，一个接一个地倒下.....
病了2天，足足两天后，我终于起身刷牙洗脸冲凉.
这两天内，我差不多断断续续睡超过24个小时吧...
剩余的时间就是看戏，看戏，上上fb...
觉得自己很恐怖，48个小时后才冲凉，不过没有出去的我，没有臭臭哦！
那天跟一个朋友聊起，突然在想 ，怎么我在英国没有那么频密的生病？
外国的天气果然比较好，人也比较精神，少生病。
至少在英国，我的鼻子绝对听我的话。
爸爸说得对，生在四季国家的人身子都特别硬朗，因为总得适应不同的气候吧～
明天要去找舅舅阿姨，身子好起来，不要传染病菌给小孩子们噢～
喉咙痛的药都吃完了，怎么喉咙还是坏坏的？
anyway, 何先生，不要再给我压力，我会努力做好的！
我的抗压能力真的很差哦~
阿米驼佛～～～～
Monday 15 March 2010
Friday 5 March 2010
The life stories
It has been awhile since my last update.
CNY has totally over, my first and last angpaus are in SGD.
First, given by Chef Eric, together with Dark Chocolate,
He said that was for V DAY. So SWEET of him!
I received my last ang pau from my cousin, on Wed, 3.3.10.
What happen recently are more emotional and I can see more opportunities are coming after me. Good or bad? I don't know. I gotta do it.
I totally have no time to blog. Life sucks huh?
But I always spend sometime on fb to ensure im not outdated from friends' news and it just needs few clicking and typing! I feel I'm probably typing too much till I'm reluctant to move my fingers on the keyboard after work!!
One thing for sure is... my working place is gonna be further and further from my home!! Just accept :( I gotta miss my fun, caring and lovely colleagues!! I know they gonna miss me too.... argh. feel so down~
Suddenly feel like talking something about studying overseas.
How does 11 months mean to you?
It's long for a long term relationship.
It's short for a degree course.
It's neither long nor short to something,like living experience.
Once you have been there, you are talking the experience for lifetime,
just like those NSmen have never stopped talking about their torturing but memorable NS stories regardless of the ages.
This happens the same to me.
I realised I never stop mentioning UK and Europe stories.
It becomes part of my daily conversation.
UK business and their eating behaviours, I share a thought.
GM's UK study and travel experiences, I join the interesting topic.
Freaking hot weather, I say I miss UK's weather.
Other colleagues, superiors, suppliers and clients asking about education background, I just repeat the stories.
About world economy and currency, I ask them to go UK now.
Chef cooking new western dishes, I know English like them.
Europe travel stories, I have a lot to share!
The movie scene, the recognisable heritage, I been there!
Practically, It comes out naturally.
I know, 11months were hard days for me but it's definitely memorable.
When can I return to UK?
OR
When can I have another unforgettable yet exciting life experience?
Thought of going to see other parts of the world...
A crazy way again ...
Expecially in this EXTREMELY HEATY country.
Looking at the raise of temperature,
rate of earthquake and tsunami,
you know 2012 is not far!
AND, my curls are a lot more straighten.
Kinda SAD~~
CNY has totally over, my first and last angpaus are in SGD.
First, given by Chef Eric, together with Dark Chocolate,
He said that was for V DAY. So SWEET of him!
I received my last ang pau from my cousin, on Wed, 3.3.10.
What happen recently are more emotional and I can see more opportunities are coming after me. Good or bad? I don't know. I gotta do it.
I totally have no time to blog. Life sucks huh?
But I always spend sometime on fb to ensure im not outdated from friends' news and it just needs few clicking and typing! I feel I'm probably typing too much till I'm reluctant to move my fingers on the keyboard after work!!
One thing for sure is... my working place is gonna be further and further from my home!! Just accept :( I gotta miss my fun, caring and lovely colleagues!! I know they gonna miss me too.... argh. feel so down~
Suddenly feel like talking something about studying overseas.
How does 11 months mean to you?
It's long for a long term relationship.
It's short for a degree course.
It's neither long nor short to something,like living experience.
Once you have been there, you are talking the experience for lifetime,
just like those NSmen have never stopped talking about their torturing but memorable NS stories regardless of the ages.
This happens the same to me.
I realised I never stop mentioning UK and Europe stories.
It becomes part of my daily conversation.
UK business and their eating behaviours, I share a thought.
GM's UK study and travel experiences, I join the interesting topic.
Freaking hot weather, I say I miss UK's weather.
Other colleagues, superiors, suppliers and clients asking about education background, I just repeat the stories.
About world economy and currency, I ask them to go UK now.
Chef cooking new western dishes, I know English like them.
Europe travel stories, I have a lot to share!
The movie scene, the recognisable heritage, I been there!
Practically, It comes out naturally.
I know, 11months were hard days for me but it's definitely memorable.
When can I return to UK?
OR
When can I have another unforgettable yet exciting life experience?
Thought of going to see other parts of the world...
A crazy way again ...
Expecially in this EXTREMELY HEATY country.
Looking at the raise of temperature,
rate of earthquake and tsunami,
you know 2012 is not far!
AND, my curls are a lot more straighten.
Kinda SAD~~
Sunday 7 February 2010
我爱我家
新年到了，春意浓。
无可否认，春节气息一年比一年少，但那还是家人团聚的好日子。
至少，我家要大家整整齐齐，同桌吃饭的好日子，一年就只有这么一次。
说说老爸老妈。
年龄渐大，有些事看破了。
家里只剩弟弟和新的家庭成员- Pui Pui aka 肥肥黑狗的陪伴。
爸爸总是忽略每况愈下的身体状况；妈妈却还算对自己的高血压和高胆固醇有所顾忌。
我家的大姐，每次看着她的部落格更新，就不想再回复了。
那些都带着负面的一撇一划，让我看了很郁闷...
什么时候她才能释怀，做个真正快乐的人呢？
真的需要5年吗?
希望你很快就会离开那些阴霾，做个快乐积极面对人生的人，
你值得过这样的生活，而不是活在灰色的城市里，继续自我摧残...
你要给自己一个重新生活的机会！
而不要在活在那些事情的阴影之下，好吗？
你要，走出来。
弟弟呢，我跟妈说，他真的生性了。
一切一切的无动于衷，我都看在眼里。
就是成熟长大了，每一步，他都有计划。
我看好我弟，他是成熟的，他会有一番作为，让长辈都大吃一惊。
我知道有一天，我会以他为荣...
说真的，我弟很帅的hor~~ heezz
妹妹阿，大学生啊。
过着典型的色彩缤纷大学生涯。
有时候，却还是迷了路...
但，这是个过程，她总会走过来....
偶尔的跌倒，是为了累计更丰富的人生经验，我还是鼓励让她自己去学走，学跑~
我们的小妹，长大了啦~
我爱我家～～
我快要看到你们咯～～～
这次我一定要拍全家福~
无可否认，春节气息一年比一年少，但那还是家人团聚的好日子。
至少，我家要大家整整齐齐，同桌吃饭的好日子，一年就只有这么一次。
说说老爸老妈。
年龄渐大，有些事看破了。
家里只剩弟弟和新的家庭成员- Pui Pui aka 肥肥黑狗的陪伴。
爸爸总是忽略每况愈下的身体状况；妈妈却还算对自己的高血压和高胆固醇有所顾忌。
我家的大姐，每次看着她的部落格更新，就不想再回复了。
那些都带着负面的一撇一划，让我看了很郁闷...
什么时候她才能释怀，做个真正快乐的人呢？
真的需要5年吗?
希望你很快就会离开那些阴霾，做个快乐积极面对人生的人，
你值得过这样的生活，而不是活在灰色的城市里，继续自我摧残...
你要给自己一个重新生活的机会！
而不要在活在那些事情的阴影之下，好吗？
你要，走出来。
弟弟呢，我跟妈说，他真的生性了。
一切一切的无动于衷，我都看在眼里。
就是成熟长大了，每一步，他都有计划。
我看好我弟，他是成熟的，他会有一番作为，让长辈都大吃一惊。
我知道有一天，我会以他为荣...
说真的，我弟很帅的hor~~ heezz
妹妹阿，大学生啊。
过着典型的色彩缤纷大学生涯。
有时候，却还是迷了路...
但，这是个过程，她总会走过来....
偶尔的跌倒，是为了累计更丰富的人生经验，我还是鼓励让她自己去学走，学跑~
我们的小妹，长大了啦~
我爱我家～～
我快要看到你们咯～～～
这次我一定要拍全家福~
Friday 5 February 2010
The routine.
Working is tiring
but I do enjoy the working hours
for half of the work, and all the colleagues.
I'm blessed to have these kind, fun and understandable pretty colleagues.
Though good days are expired in 31 March, we will try to enjoy, before the new manager coming in.
It's really nothing much you can do after a long day utilising the full tank of energy
But, one thing would definitely refill the energy tank easily - cooking.
I have a new toy called thermal pot that I use to cook and keep my soup/dessert warm till I'm back from work.
That's cool,save and healthy, isn't it?
I admit, I like cooking, during office hours or home hours :D
So, my uncle ong ong observes that nowadays, young girls, esp those pretty ones, like to practice culinary!! Which I think it's true :x cause I'm also one of them :)
My genuine pig comments that I do improve my cooking skill, oK!!hohoo
Well well well...
I do enjoy the moments.
NOW, Let's hope for a prosperous tiger year ahead for all of us!!
Most importantly, money growssss!!!
So we can do what we want, where to go!!
Tiger year must be a good year, I truly believe!!
Gong xi ya gong xi, fa ya fa da cai~
XIN NIAN LAI LOH!!
XIN NIAN LAI LOH~~~~
7days count down to see my new family member aka pui pui black dog, and my dearest Ngssssss
Argh... We still can't celebrate Valentine day together, It is the 3rd time we miss :(((
Oh, Fish Leong is finally married romantically! I love the sun, and the beach!
Seriously I wish my wedding is conducted at such a way!!
I will keep dreaming, and hope to become real??
Unless we tiok toto or 4D lah!! haha
and invits all of you :x
BTW, I look forward to CM's bf wedding proposal~!
It must be damn romantic!!
Keep the believe: Love is proved by hurdles!!
Cute curls?? haha
My adorable mei mei couldn't recall me when she first saw my new hairstyle. She was totally staying away from me, while her brother tried to recall everything about me!
I think she has totally confused how can her nini jiejie looks completely different until the moment I left!
but I do enjoy the working hours
for half of the work, and all the colleagues.
I'm blessed to have these kind, fun and understandable pretty colleagues.
Though good days are expired in 31 March, we will try to enjoy, before the new manager coming in.
It's really nothing much you can do after a long day utilising the full tank of energy
But, one thing would definitely refill the energy tank easily - cooking.
I have a new toy called thermal pot that I use to cook and keep my soup/dessert warm till I'm back from work.
That's cool,save and healthy, isn't it?
I admit, I like cooking, during office hours or home hours :D
So, my uncle ong ong observes that nowadays, young girls, esp those pretty ones, like to practice culinary!! Which I think it's true :x cause I'm also one of them :)
My genuine pig comments that I do improve my cooking skill, oK!!hohoo
Well well well...
I do enjoy the moments.
NOW, Let's hope for a prosperous tiger year ahead for all of us!!
Most importantly, money growssss!!!
So we can do what we want, where to go!!
Tiger year must be a good year, I truly believe!!
Gong xi ya gong xi, fa ya fa da cai~
XIN NIAN LAI LOH!!
XIN NIAN LAI LOH~~~~
7days count down to see my new family member aka pui pui black dog, and my dearest Ngssssss
Argh... We still can't celebrate Valentine day together, It is the 3rd time we miss :(((
Oh, Fish Leong is finally married romantically! I love the sun, and the beach!
Seriously I wish my wedding is conducted at such a way!!
I will keep dreaming, and hope to become real??
Unless we tiok toto or 4D lah!! haha
and invits all of you :x
BTW, I look forward to CM's bf wedding proposal~!
It must be damn romantic!!
Keep the believe: Love is proved by hurdles!!
Cute curls?? haha
My adorable mei mei couldn't recall me when she first saw my new hairstyle. She was totally staying away from me, while her brother tried to recall everything about me!
I think she has totally confused how can her nini jiejie looks completely different until the moment I left!
Sunday 24 January 2010
Update..
Basically, life goes on beautifully.
Appreciate what I have and working hard for what I want.
Life is good with my most caring boyfriend, sophisticated work as well as fun and pretty colleagues. Undoubtably, we are a department saturated with pretty and young girls. haha.
Recently been back to Sing k addiction after two and a half years self-prohibition. the frequency and expenses are still within my control but i found myself is outdated with the songs!! Yesterday was my first time to do full body massage. It is painful, I dont really enjoy...
RIP for Johor sultan but it ruined many ppl's weekend plan, esp those wanted a getaway to JB. Colleagues and my plans were completely destroyed. Headed back to SG for spontaneous event. It became a long day and yet fun day :D
Chinese New Year is just around the corner, and i have no mood to go shopping cause I've been addicted to online shopping!!! HAHahhaaa...
Nothing much to update besides I have significantly improved my cooking skill but unstable performance. haha... Just hope for the best in coming Tiger YEAR!!! IT's my Most AGGRESSIVE year :DDDD
Hope tiger brings the luck to all ppl :DD
More updates can be found in my fb status/photos i guesss :DD
Oh, i have completely changed my outlook to welcome my TIGER year ... cuter but not prettier- according to my uncle ong ong, sad. It costed me S$136 to be more cute...
Appreciate what I have and working hard for what I want.
Life is good with my most caring boyfriend, sophisticated work as well as fun and pretty colleagues. Undoubtably, we are a department saturated with pretty and young girls. haha.
Recently been back to Sing k addiction after two and a half years self-prohibition. the frequency and expenses are still within my control but i found myself is outdated with the songs!! Yesterday was my first time to do full body massage. It is painful, I dont really enjoy...
RIP for Johor sultan but it ruined many ppl's weekend plan, esp those wanted a getaway to JB. Colleagues and my plans were completely destroyed. Headed back to SG for spontaneous event. It became a long day and yet fun day :D
Chinese New Year is just around the corner, and i have no mood to go shopping cause I've been addicted to online shopping!!! HAHahhaaa...
Nothing much to update besides I have significantly improved my cooking skill but unstable performance. haha... Just hope for the best in coming Tiger YEAR!!! IT's my Most AGGRESSIVE year :DDDD
Hope tiger brings the luck to all ppl :DD
More updates can be found in my fb status/photos i guesss :DD
Oh, i have completely changed my outlook to welcome my TIGER year ... cuter but not prettier- according to my uncle ong ong, sad. It costed me S$136 to be more cute...
Tuesday 19 January 2010
natural processes
The temperature increases few degrees each year, that signifies global warming.
The cell tissues lose its complexity each year, that signifies the aging process.
And human does change.
All are natural processes.
The cell tissues lose its complexity each year, that signifies the aging process.
And human does change.
All are natural processes.
Saturday 2 January 2010
自制木瓜面膜
说好要变美女，但要省钱...所以先把这个转载在这里...有空才弄，也与大家分享 :D
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疲劳，睡眠不足，情绪低落……女人的肌肤会变得又黄又暗，没有丝毫光泽，称之为“暗沉”。下面学几招改变自己的暗沉肌肤，给肌肤补充营养。
拯救肌肤暗沉
女人们常常将肌肤暗沉与肌肤偏黑的概念溷淆，盲目地使用增白产品，效果当然不会很理想。改变肌肤暗沉的秘诀是什么？促进皮肤表层角质代谢，及时补充水分，让肌肤重新变得白里透红。
选择木瓜+酸奶的理由
改变和调整皮肤暗沉现象有不少方法，大家可以自己动手，尝试一下“木瓜+酸奶面膜”。
酸奶：酸奶中的乳酸，有不错的保湿功效，还有去角质作用，可让肌肤快速恢复光泽、嫩滑。
木瓜：青木瓜的木瓜酶是成熟木瓜的2倍左右，因此，选择青木瓜的效果是最佳的。
自制“木瓜+酸奶”面膜
材料：木瓜 1/4个(约60g)、酸奶 5茶匙(约5g)、果汁机、茶匙、面膜纸、小碗
功效：从理论上来讲，“木瓜+酸奶”面膜对角质层较厚的油性肌肤有一定的效果，同时也具有一定的刺激性，因此敏感肌肤或干性肌肤一定要慎用。健康肌肤一个礼拜敷一次也就可以了。
步骤：
敷完以后，稍微有一点涩涩的感觉，但会觉得皮肤很清凉、紧致，泛油光及肤色灰暗的现象也会有所改善。
Step1 最好选青木瓜，青木瓜的表皮为青色，瓤为乳白色，有少许珍珠状白色籽。
Step2 将木瓜对剖成两半，用匙挖掉木瓜籽。
Step3 将木瓜去皮，每次取1/4，切成2cm见方的小块，剩余的用保鲜袋装好，放入冰箱冷藏室。
Step4 放入果汁机打碎。操作前可根据需要放入适量清水。
Step5 将搅拌成泥状的木瓜倒入面膜碗。
Step6 加入5茶匙的酸奶(最好用原味酸奶)，一起搅拌均匀。
Step7 洁面后，用面膜纸覆盖在上面。10分钟后洗去。拍上爽肤水即可。
TIPS：能够使肌肤红润的食品
红黄色蔬菜：西红柿等红色蔬菜可以使神经系统兴奋，胡萝卜、花菜等黄色蔬菜则含有丰富维他命E，能促进肌肤光滑，改善晦暗的肤色。
蜂蜜：含有多种人体所需的氨基酸和维他命，活血并增加肌肤光泽。
葡萄：可以帮助肝、肠、胃清除体内垃圾，还能增加造血机能。
木瓜、西柚、猕猴桃：含丰富抗氧化剂，帮助排出体内过多的游离基，同时有助扩张血管，加快血液循环，红润肤色。
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疲劳，睡眠不足，情绪低落……女人的肌肤会变得又黄又暗，没有丝毫光泽，称之为“暗沉”。下面学几招改变自己的暗沉肌肤，给肌肤补充营养。
拯救肌肤暗沉
女人们常常将肌肤暗沉与肌肤偏黑的概念溷淆，盲目地使用增白产品，效果当然不会很理想。改变肌肤暗沉的秘诀是什么？促进皮肤表层角质代谢，及时补充水分，让肌肤重新变得白里透红。
选择木瓜+酸奶的理由
改变和调整皮肤暗沉现象有不少方法，大家可以自己动手，尝试一下“木瓜+酸奶面膜”。
酸奶：酸奶中的乳酸，有不错的保湿功效，还有去角质作用，可让肌肤快速恢复光泽、嫩滑。
木瓜：青木瓜的木瓜酶是成熟木瓜的2倍左右，因此，选择青木瓜的效果是最佳的。
自制“木瓜+酸奶”面膜
材料：木瓜 1/4个(约60g)、酸奶 5茶匙(约5g)、果汁机、茶匙、面膜纸、小碗
功效：从理论上来讲，“木瓜+酸奶”面膜对角质层较厚的油性肌肤有一定的效果，同时也具有一定的刺激性，因此敏感肌肤或干性肌肤一定要慎用。健康肌肤一个礼拜敷一次也就可以了。
步骤：
敷完以后，稍微有一点涩涩的感觉，但会觉得皮肤很清凉、紧致，泛油光及肤色灰暗的现象也会有所改善。
Step1 最好选青木瓜，青木瓜的表皮为青色，瓤为乳白色，有少许珍珠状白色籽。
Step2 将木瓜对剖成两半，用匙挖掉木瓜籽。
Step3 将木瓜去皮，每次取1/4，切成2cm见方的小块，剩余的用保鲜袋装好，放入冰箱冷藏室。
Step4 放入果汁机打碎。操作前可根据需要放入适量清水。
Step5 将搅拌成泥状的木瓜倒入面膜碗。
Step6 加入5茶匙的酸奶(最好用原味酸奶)，一起搅拌均匀。
Step7 洁面后，用面膜纸覆盖在上面。10分钟后洗去。拍上爽肤水即可。
TIPS：能够使肌肤红润的食品
红黄色蔬菜：西红柿等红色蔬菜可以使神经系统兴奋，胡萝卜、花菜等黄色蔬菜则含有丰富维他命E，能促进肌肤光滑，改善晦暗的肤色。
蜂蜜：含有多种人体所需的氨基酸和维他命，活血并增加肌肤光泽。
葡萄：可以帮助肝、肠、胃清除体内垃圾，还能增加造血机能。
木瓜、西柚、猕猴桃：含丰富抗氧化剂，帮助排出体内过多的游离基，同时有助扩张血管，加快血液循环，红润肤色。
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