恩...最近的事情可以很简单地说，自己却好像复杂化。
简单的说，工作不是很愉快，感觉很受委屈地，在同事面前忍不住泪儿。
真的觉得自己很没用，就是不能受一点委屈和责备，我脸皮很薄，也很好胜。
就是不爽上司，但是我会忍下去，并告诉自己我很爱她，她才会好好地爱我。
今天，她果然跟我道歉，对星期五的事情道歉，我明白她的压力。
所以，我也放开了，希望自己努力点，把自己的事情做好。
希望她会爱我多点，给我点支持，不然我真的很难在政治里生存下去...
话说，每天12个小时都活在心机累累的办公室中，我很辛苦...
我是真的希望自己能够不工作，或是在0政治的地方工作，发白日梦，对吧？
这样的生活，让我好累好累，想出国去玩，却不能拿假，实在痛苦... >_<
到底我可以能够活得心空自由却无需担心收入和花费吗？
却找不到一个对的方法来面对自己的生活．．．
有没有有钱人看上我，不然就来一份零政治，无压力又享受的高薪工作吧~
还有能够让我随时拿假去玩的工作~~！
ＢＴＷ，太岁老爷真得很坏咯 :(
心情down :(
大大声喊：我要快点变有钱人／嫁给有钱人 ！！
Monday, 28 June 2010
Wednesday, 2 June 2010
虎年衰事一箩箩
心情好差哦...
原来我还是习惯向平面银幕诉苦...
今天，高跟鞋的鞋跟断了。
好伤心，因为这只是我第3次穿它而已。
面子书上，我说：
‘戏剧里，高跟鞋的鞋跟断了，有时候会有白马王子拯救美女的情节出现；
现实里，鞋跟断了，只代表这是今年一箩箩衰事的其中一件罢了，没有大不了！’
确实如此，今天同事们还猛评我离开FR组的唯一创作...
因为大规模的生产出现了很多问题...
我想，确实为难他们了...
虽然我明白，确确实实是我的错，
但眼泪就是很想留下来，
但，我控制了。
还算有成长吧。
今年的衰事真的很多，
拿假老板娘会多多问题，多多意见，甚至擅自决定我8月不必去曼谷了！
老板娘根本不把我的实验室放在眼里，他人的，她可以用3个小时来细细讨论每一个细节，
我的实验室只用了10分钟来决定一切！
虽然我的规模比较小，但也太明显她不重视我吧？
小小的事件还包括大热天，她放我一个人走路回去公司，虽然只是１２分钟的路程．
算了，投诉无用。
还是保持积极的态度，期望明天会更好，期望我的Ｒ＆Ｄ室进行顺利，然后做让老板们骄傲的作品出来...
希望我可以坚持并待上2年！
虽然每天开始抗拒去上班，我相信现在只是过渡期...
正面思考~~！！
还有衰的事，上次我订的飞机票竟然定错日期，无端端花了额外１７２块 :(
还有还有很多呢～～！！
不说了!!
我要看书去~！
原来我还是习惯向平面银幕诉苦...
今天，高跟鞋的鞋跟断了。
好伤心，因为这只是我第3次穿它而已。
面子书上，我说：
‘戏剧里，高跟鞋的鞋跟断了，有时候会有白马王子拯救美女的情节出现；
现实里，鞋跟断了，只代表这是今年一箩箩衰事的其中一件罢了，没有大不了！’
确实如此，今天同事们还猛评我离开FR组的唯一创作...
因为大规模的生产出现了很多问题...
我想，确实为难他们了...
虽然我明白，确确实实是我的错，
但眼泪就是很想留下来，
但，我控制了。
还算有成长吧。
今年的衰事真的很多，
拿假老板娘会多多问题，多多意见，甚至擅自决定我8月不必去曼谷了！
老板娘根本不把我的实验室放在眼里，他人的，她可以用3个小时来细细讨论每一个细节，
我的实验室只用了10分钟来决定一切！
虽然我的规模比较小，但也太明显她不重视我吧？
小小的事件还包括大热天，她放我一个人走路回去公司，虽然只是１２分钟的路程．
算了，投诉无用。
还是保持积极的态度，期望明天会更好，期望我的Ｒ＆Ｄ室进行顺利，然后做让老板们骄傲的作品出来...
希望我可以坚持并待上2年！
虽然每天开始抗拒去上班，我相信现在只是过渡期...
正面思考~~！！
还有衰的事，上次我订的飞机票竟然定错日期，无端端花了额外１７２块 :(
还有还有很多呢～～！！
不说了!!
我要看书去~！
Tuesday, 1 June 2010
IT'S JUNE.
So, it's June.
Trying my best to keep at least a post a month for my updates.
May is passing very fast indeed. I have been preparing my company dinner and dance since early of May. Had my facial, done my cosmetic,clothes,shoes,accesories shopping, had haircut blah blah blah. Women always take long time to prepare days before a grant and important event such as dinner and dance, wedding dinner and worst - own wedding. Haha. but it all worth the money and time invested when you are beautiful and there it makes us feel more confident and delightful.
Other than that, working life is as usual. BUT, i have tougher days in companies. Nasty colleagues from other dept make me a better EQ person. NOW, my manager is someone harder to please. She is very soft, motherly and caring person, so everyone is praising her. On the other side, she can be very workaholic, giaw (stingy aka kedekut), aunty behaviour and worst stop me (and other colleagues) from taking leave!
She has 3 kids and she tries to go back at 6pm everyday to fetch her youngest child. However, she did come back during weekends to finish her works and send emails at 11pm. She can warm up the cold dish that I commented. She makes us rojak. She is a soft spoken lady which never scold us but also keep nagging and chasing for something. She is just like another mother of us.
On the other side, she is always wearing two masks. Slowly, I realised she wears a mask almost everyday. She also likes to 'poh' ppl as in having sweet talks to whoever have values to her. So, I stop talking so much to her. Cause I dont like ppl being so JIA! Then, when she gets familiar with everyone, she starts being sarcastic (esp to me!) and control many things, e.g. my annual leave.
I bought bangkok air tickets last nov to travel in August due to cheap tickets. But now, the bangkok is simply a mess and hence I almost give up. YOG is heating up the whole singapore and my company is doing something for them that need almost all staff from ground to managerial level. I was called to give details which means I will be on duty, most likely. However, schedules have yet released.
Here, she stops me from taking leave even though the duty roaster is not out and dunno if my holiday crashed. That's fine. I understand.
Then, I know her style of working so I quickly apply my HK trip in coming NOV as soon as I have booked the tickets. HR asked if I need to apply the leave so early, I answered: 'here we have different style of working, sure I have to apply first!'
Predictably, she asked if I REALLY NEED to take leave in NOV (during deepavali)! WTH.
'YES, I have already booked the air tickets'. Come on, only 3.5 days loh.
Then, I dun talk to her anymore. Silent... and soon, I received a notification email that she has approved the leave.
Actually I have booked another trip to go back Penang in the same month, I think I have to give up the trip. Unlikely she will let me go to PG :(
Sienz. I will try hard not to take leave and my plant has not up OR not much issue in the new plant so I have excuse to go back PG during HAJI!
Then, I just knew that she also asked the old chef in my company not to take leave, even though he is planning to take medical leave... She is too workaholic sometimes.
Anyway, I also receive pressure from her cause she is a very gan jiong ppl that making everyone so ganjiong and stress in my dept. Some have to really split into 2-3 in order to finish the task given by the tight timeline.
Well...Working is always not easy in SG. The best is she has to fetch her youngest child earlier and so I usually have no prob to go back at 6pm! God blesssSssSsss
Hope i can stay at least 2 years in this company to earn enough of experience, money and exposure for better career prospect :D
Gambateh~~~!!!
Arh, went back to PG during Vesak long weekend. Refreshen!!
Hmm, 31 Dec is my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary, anything special for them???
June...nothing much I guess. One K session with poly year 1 classmates...
Still...like to stay home after working to replenish my energy and love for life.
Hope June will be better~~!!
Trying my best to keep at least a post a month for my updates.
May is passing very fast indeed. I have been preparing my company dinner and dance since early of May. Had my facial, done my cosmetic,clothes,shoes,accesories shopping, had haircut blah blah blah. Women always take long time to prepare days before a grant and important event such as dinner and dance, wedding dinner and worst - own wedding. Haha. but it all worth the money and time invested when you are beautiful and there it makes us feel more confident and delightful.
Other than that, working life is as usual. BUT, i have tougher days in companies. Nasty colleagues from other dept make me a better EQ person. NOW, my manager is someone harder to please. She is very soft, motherly and caring person, so everyone is praising her. On the other side, she can be very workaholic, giaw (stingy aka kedekut), aunty behaviour and worst stop me (and other colleagues) from taking leave!
She has 3 kids and she tries to go back at 6pm everyday to fetch her youngest child. However, she did come back during weekends to finish her works and send emails at 11pm. She can warm up the cold dish that I commented. She makes us rojak. She is a soft spoken lady which never scold us but also keep nagging and chasing for something. She is just like another mother of us.
On the other side, she is always wearing two masks. Slowly, I realised she wears a mask almost everyday. She also likes to 'poh' ppl as in having sweet talks to whoever have values to her. So, I stop talking so much to her. Cause I dont like ppl being so JIA! Then, when she gets familiar with everyone, she starts being sarcastic (esp to me!) and control many things, e.g. my annual leave.
I bought bangkok air tickets last nov to travel in August due to cheap tickets. But now, the bangkok is simply a mess and hence I almost give up. YOG is heating up the whole singapore and my company is doing something for them that need almost all staff from ground to managerial level. I was called to give details which means I will be on duty, most likely. However, schedules have yet released.
Here, she stops me from taking leave even though the duty roaster is not out and dunno if my holiday crashed. That's fine. I understand.
Then, I know her style of working so I quickly apply my HK trip in coming NOV as soon as I have booked the tickets. HR asked if I need to apply the leave so early, I answered: 'here we have different style of working, sure I have to apply first!'
Predictably, she asked if I REALLY NEED to take leave in NOV (during deepavali)! WTH.
'YES, I have already booked the air tickets'. Come on, only 3.5 days loh.
Then, I dun talk to her anymore. Silent... and soon, I received a notification email that she has approved the leave.
Actually I have booked another trip to go back Penang in the same month, I think I have to give up the trip. Unlikely she will let me go to PG :(
Sienz. I will try hard not to take leave and my plant has not up OR not much issue in the new plant so I have excuse to go back PG during HAJI!
Then, I just knew that she also asked the old chef in my company not to take leave, even though he is planning to take medical leave... She is too workaholic sometimes.
Anyway, I also receive pressure from her cause she is a very gan jiong ppl that making everyone so ganjiong and stress in my dept. Some have to really split into 2-3 in order to finish the task given by the tight timeline.
Well...Working is always not easy in SG. The best is she has to fetch her youngest child earlier and so I usually have no prob to go back at 6pm! God blesssSssSsss
Hope i can stay at least 2 years in this company to earn enough of experience, money and exposure for better career prospect :D
Gambateh~~~!!!
Arh, went back to PG during Vesak long weekend. Refreshen!!
Hmm, 31 Dec is my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary, anything special for them???
June...nothing much I guess. One K session with poly year 1 classmates...
Still...like to stay home after working to replenish my energy and love for life.
Hope June will be better~~!!
Sunday, 2 May 2010
When u are 24 - you are lady, not girl.
不知道从哪里看到这篇日志，感觉说得很有道理，希望每个女生都能幸福的生活着~~
1~要坚信一个真理：这个世界上只有爸妈永远对你好。
你24岁了，你记不记得自己青春反叛的时候怎么气过他们。
你24岁了，父母都快年过半百了，你要对他们好的时间已经不多了。不要等失去的时候才哭着说当时年少不懂事，没有好好孝敬父母。
2~是的，你已经达到法定婚龄了，可是你并不用着急着嫁人。
或许你正在热恋，你们山盟海誓说要一辈子。
可是你才24岁，你不知道一辈子到底有多长。日子是过出来的，不是想出来的。
结婚，不是两个人的事情，是两个家庭的事情。老一辈讲的门当户对，并不是毫无道理的封建思想。结婚，你应该抱着一辈子只有一次的信念，所以结婚，慢慢来。
3~轰轰烈烈的爱情，留给一字头的年龄。
你24岁了。别再做那些会被别人当做笑话的傻事。
什么夜不归宿，当街吵架，以死相逼，一哭二闹三上吊。
那些疯狂的事情，那些年少轻狂，经历过就够了。
24岁了，学会淡定从容。
女孩子，从来就应该骄傲地活着，而不是卑微地恋爱。
4~不要因为寂寞而恋爱，不要因为跟风而恋爱。
24岁了，学会对自己的人生负责。
5~自己喜欢的东西，不要奢望别人买。
24岁，不管你以前是否玩过暧昧，你已经过了暧昧的年龄。
女人要独立，经济独立是基础。
6~如果一个男人对你说他配不上你，相信他。
一个自己说配不上你的男人，一辈子也不会配得上你！
珍惜与能力无关，与钱无关！
7~明确自己的目标，为此奋斗。
24岁，你要出国？找工作？还是继续学习？
24岁，你离踏入社会已不远，你是否已做好准备？
8~答应自己的事情就要做到，该对自己狠的时候就要狠，切忌优柔寡断、藕断丝连。
对自己心软，成不了大事。
24岁，要学会面对现实，不能再整日沉浸于白日梦中。
9~女孩子，要学会对自己好一点，别把所有的都投资在所谓的“潜力股”身上。
无论什么时候，看清楚你自己手中留着什么底牌。
10~做人学会圆滑。
24岁，别人不会再把你当小孩子，你的错误已不会再有人包容。
对不喜欢的人和事面带笑容，是我们必须学会的恶心。
11~感谢所有伤害过你的人。
然后在24岁生日的那天，对他们挥挥手，说声，我不再恨你们了。
你长大了，你要正视伤害。
12~别玩什么非主流。你不是90后。
还不如学着化化妆，不是烟熏妆，是大方得体的淡妆。
一个大企业的面试官曾对我说过，一个化淡妆的女生，企业会优先考虑。
为什么？因为你连自己的容貌都不着急，你会着急什么？
世界上没有丑女人，只有懒女人。
13~减肥，说说就好。
到你真的减到跟竹竿似的时候，你会发现低血压低血糖头晕目眩一系列疾病同时伴随你。
说不好还有胃癌。
24岁，你要知道，你以后的路还有很长，健康的身体是你走下去的保证。
14~对挑拨离间的人，不要揭发他。
等他演完一出出好戏，拼命演，拼命圆。
然后告诉他，其实你什么都知道。
接着，笑笑，离开。
15~谁对你好，你就对谁好。
人际交往永远是礼尚往来的、双向法则，没有人有义务对你好。
24岁，擦亮眼睛，谁对你好，记得对他好。
16~转身，要比眼泪快。
这是必须。
24岁了，你必须学会承担难过，你必须知道难过它会过去。
要经常对自己说，我也可以很勇敢。不要，千万不要，轻易在别人面前掉眼泪。
别人看多了你的眼泪，就会觉得你的眼泪如此廉价。
17~你以前或许干过许多荒唐的事。
可是请你不要觉得那有多见不得人。请你不要觉得那是负担。
24岁，这是你生命中一个新的开始。
18~随时给自己准备一个微笑 告诉自己 我可以！
不小了 要加油了
女人应该记住的：
1.学会做几个拿手好菜，不一定是给爱人做，也可能在休闲的时候犒劳自己或者慰劳下辛苦多年的父母。
2.越是得不到的感情，越不要极尽全力的强求；越是离得很远的理想，越需要旷日持久的坚持。
3.不要在情绪不好的时候做坏的决定，越是负面情绪占据主导的时候，越要少折腾神经。
4.一天不能花8小时以上时间去想同一个人，超过12点，再大的事也要为睡觉让路。
5.当感觉自己语塞的时候，就不要乱说话，要知道，沉默，也有无限种含义。
6.心情不好或者空虚寂寞的时候，千万不要找异性去说，那样只会让你更危险，找不到好姐们，也还有自己的父母。
7.不要怕犯傻和犯错，怕的是你第二次还犯同样的傻和同样的错。
8.工作是你的权利而不是义务，你可以少工作或者多工作，但是千万不要不工作。
9.健康比三围重要，智慧比财富值钱，这两样东西，争取都不要少。
10.能得到别人称赞不一定是好事，因为那同样会让你骄傲。
11.不要总是羡慕别人的幸福，因为那也可能是别人辛苦得来的。
12.衣服不要尽可能的多，够穿就行，男人不要尽可能的富有，够体贴你就成
1~要坚信一个真理：这个世界上只有爸妈永远对你好。
你24岁了，你记不记得自己青春反叛的时候怎么气过他们。
你24岁了，父母都快年过半百了，你要对他们好的时间已经不多了。不要等失去的时候才哭着说当时年少不懂事，没有好好孝敬父母。
2~是的，你已经达到法定婚龄了，可是你并不用着急着嫁人。
或许你正在热恋，你们山盟海誓说要一辈子。
可是你才24岁，你不知道一辈子到底有多长。日子是过出来的，不是想出来的。
结婚，不是两个人的事情，是两个家庭的事情。老一辈讲的门当户对，并不是毫无道理的封建思想。结婚，你应该抱着一辈子只有一次的信念，所以结婚，慢慢来。
3~轰轰烈烈的爱情，留给一字头的年龄。
你24岁了。别再做那些会被别人当做笑话的傻事。
什么夜不归宿，当街吵架，以死相逼，一哭二闹三上吊。
那些疯狂的事情，那些年少轻狂，经历过就够了。
24岁了，学会淡定从容。
女孩子，从来就应该骄傲地活着，而不是卑微地恋爱。
4~不要因为寂寞而恋爱，不要因为跟风而恋爱。
24岁了，学会对自己的人生负责。
5~自己喜欢的东西，不要奢望别人买。
24岁，不管你以前是否玩过暧昧，你已经过了暧昧的年龄。
女人要独立，经济独立是基础。
6~如果一个男人对你说他配不上你，相信他。
一个自己说配不上你的男人，一辈子也不会配得上你！
珍惜与能力无关，与钱无关！
7~明确自己的目标，为此奋斗。
24岁，你要出国？找工作？还是继续学习？
24岁，你离踏入社会已不远，你是否已做好准备？
8~答应自己的事情就要做到，该对自己狠的时候就要狠，切忌优柔寡断、藕断丝连。
对自己心软，成不了大事。
24岁，要学会面对现实，不能再整日沉浸于白日梦中。
9~女孩子，要学会对自己好一点，别把所有的都投资在所谓的“潜力股”身上。
无论什么时候，看清楚你自己手中留着什么底牌。
10~做人学会圆滑。
24岁，别人不会再把你当小孩子，你的错误已不会再有人包容。
对不喜欢的人和事面带笑容，是我们必须学会的恶心。
11~感谢所有伤害过你的人。
然后在24岁生日的那天，对他们挥挥手，说声，我不再恨你们了。
你长大了，你要正视伤害。
12~别玩什么非主流。你不是90后。
还不如学着化化妆，不是烟熏妆，是大方得体的淡妆。
一个大企业的面试官曾对我说过，一个化淡妆的女生，企业会优先考虑。
为什么？因为你连自己的容貌都不着急，你会着急什么？
世界上没有丑女人，只有懒女人。
13~减肥，说说就好。
到你真的减到跟竹竿似的时候，你会发现低血压低血糖头晕目眩一系列疾病同时伴随你。
说不好还有胃癌。
24岁，你要知道，你以后的路还有很长，健康的身体是你走下去的保证。
14~对挑拨离间的人，不要揭发他。
等他演完一出出好戏，拼命演，拼命圆。
然后告诉他，其实你什么都知道。
接着，笑笑，离开。
15~谁对你好，你就对谁好。
人际交往永远是礼尚往来的、双向法则，没有人有义务对你好。
24岁，擦亮眼睛，谁对你好，记得对他好。
16~转身，要比眼泪快。
这是必须。
24岁了，你必须学会承担难过，你必须知道难过它会过去。
要经常对自己说，我也可以很勇敢。不要，千万不要，轻易在别人面前掉眼泪。
别人看多了你的眼泪，就会觉得你的眼泪如此廉价。
17~你以前或许干过许多荒唐的事。
可是请你不要觉得那有多见不得人。请你不要觉得那是负担。
24岁，这是你生命中一个新的开始。
18~随时给自己准备一个微笑 告诉自己 我可以！
不小了 要加油了
女人应该记住的：
1.学会做几个拿手好菜，不一定是给爱人做，也可能在休闲的时候犒劳自己或者慰劳下辛苦多年的父母。
2.越是得不到的感情，越不要极尽全力的强求；越是离得很远的理想，越需要旷日持久的坚持。
3.不要在情绪不好的时候做坏的决定，越是负面情绪占据主导的时候，越要少折腾神经。
4.一天不能花8小时以上时间去想同一个人，超过12点，再大的事也要为睡觉让路。
5.当感觉自己语塞的时候，就不要乱说话，要知道，沉默，也有无限种含义。
6.心情不好或者空虚寂寞的时候，千万不要找异性去说，那样只会让你更危险，找不到好姐们，也还有自己的父母。
7.不要怕犯傻和犯错，怕的是你第二次还犯同样的傻和同样的错。
8.工作是你的权利而不是义务，你可以少工作或者多工作，但是千万不要不工作。
9.健康比三围重要，智慧比财富值钱，这两样东西，争取都不要少。
10.能得到别人称赞不一定是好事，因为那同样会让你骄傲。
11.不要总是羡慕别人的幸福，因为那也可能是别人辛苦得来的。
12.衣服不要尽可能的多，够穿就行，男人不要尽可能的富有，够体贴你就成
Saturday, 1 May 2010
homesick =(
Continue with my previous post.
With many depressed reasons, here they provoke my homesickness which never happen for long time. Plus, it's mother's day next weekend which I cannot be home, again, after so many years in Singapore.
I've been asking myself what can I do to brighten up my mood and days. Now, I can finally think of one - Going home. Although my hometown house is not maintained in a good condition that I always get sick or uncomfortable due to my sensitive nose and many other reasons, I still love to go home as I feel so much relax and worry-free. That's like living under my parents' wings that I'm so protected and carefree~
I have not travelled for many months since my last trip in UK which is coming to one year =( As in travel to any places out of Singapore and Penisular Malaysia and new place that I never been to. So sienz... Life sucks!!!
HAiz, so wish to resign and stay at hometown forever without working for others.. Miss my parents so much, feel like crying T_T
but then, since my younger sister studies in KL, my parents feel so much lonely that they start to get a dog and treat it like real son. My dad never get so worry when we get sick (neither when we were toddler nor adults) but he bought damn expensive shampoo to the dog and even almost bring it to 'pet hospital' which cost much more than our 'human hospital'~! I joke that we should get it an insurance plan too......
anyway, at least the dog can keep them accompany and bring them so much fun each day. U can't stop laughing if u ever see how my dad and mum are confusing the dog (to enter the house or not)- one stopping and one luring it with foods and meats inside the house!!
And my elder sister is in new zealand now for her brand new life... all the best to her for the following 9months...
Homesick lah =( When will I have my own home?? We are going to move again, looking for a 4room HDB in west area... around clementi,jurong east, chinese garden. Do recommend!!
With many depressed reasons, here they provoke my homesickness which never happen for long time. Plus, it's mother's day next weekend which I cannot be home, again, after so many years in Singapore.
I've been asking myself what can I do to brighten up my mood and days. Now, I can finally think of one - Going home. Although my hometown house is not maintained in a good condition that I always get sick or uncomfortable due to my sensitive nose and many other reasons, I still love to go home as I feel so much relax and worry-free. That's like living under my parents' wings that I'm so protected and carefree~
I have not travelled for many months since my last trip in UK which is coming to one year =( As in travel to any places out of Singapore and Penisular Malaysia and new place that I never been to. So sienz... Life sucks!!!
HAiz, so wish to resign and stay at hometown forever without working for others.. Miss my parents so much, feel like crying T_T
but then, since my younger sister studies in KL, my parents feel so much lonely that they start to get a dog and treat it like real son. My dad never get so worry when we get sick (neither when we were toddler nor adults) but he bought damn expensive shampoo to the dog and even almost bring it to 'pet hospital' which cost much more than our 'human hospital'~! I joke that we should get it an insurance plan too......
anyway, at least the dog can keep them accompany and bring them so much fun each day. U can't stop laughing if u ever see how my dad and mum are confusing the dog (to enter the house or not)- one stopping and one luring it with foods and meats inside the house!!
And my elder sister is in new zealand now for her brand new life... all the best to her for the following 9months...
Homesick lah =( When will I have my own home?? We are going to move again, looking for a 4room HDB in west area... around clementi,jurong east, chinese garden. Do recommend!!
Updates after a while
Guys, long time no see...
Nothing special...busy and routine work and life...
Well, work is stressful and helpless sometimes.
I don't know how to handle the old ppl in company.
I don't have very good food technical background.
I don't know how to adjust the speaking tone, how to judge what to say and not to say.
I don't like meaty stuff but I have to do it.
I don't have good human and work management system in place.
I JUST DONT WANT TO WORK ANYMORE. As in not working at all. It's not the company problem only, it's my personal problem... I just dunno how to handle all these ppl, matters, politics. I feel so tired, stressed, depressed and helpless.
Can I live in a world where everyone has a kind and helpful heart? I have to make things clear that I work happily in my department but not with other depts and superiors.
I just want to lay on a man who can take care of everything and thereafter I can live happily ever after without much worries...
Let me dream...no one knows me, even myself is unsure what I want.
It's really not a good year for me.
I hardly could meet a 'gui ren' in workplace...
My plans always do not carry out as it is planned, be it in life or work...
So negative and depressed......
haizzzz
Today is labour day. To me, just another weekend... with mild 'stomach' pain which most girls have to suffer each month >< so cham... HAiZzzz!!
Nothing special...busy and routine work and life...
Well, work is stressful and helpless sometimes.
I don't know how to handle the old ppl in company.
I don't have very good food technical background.
I don't know how to adjust the speaking tone, how to judge what to say and not to say.
I don't like meaty stuff but I have to do it.
I don't have good human and work management system in place.
I JUST DONT WANT TO WORK ANYMORE. As in not working at all. It's not the company problem only, it's my personal problem... I just dunno how to handle all these ppl, matters, politics. I feel so tired, stressed, depressed and helpless.
Can I live in a world where everyone has a kind and helpful heart? I have to make things clear that I work happily in my department but not with other depts and superiors.
I just want to lay on a man who can take care of everything and thereafter I can live happily ever after without much worries...
Let me dream...no one knows me, even myself is unsure what I want.
It's really not a good year for me.
I hardly could meet a 'gui ren' in workplace...
My plans always do not carry out as it is planned, be it in life or work...
So negative and depressed......
haizzzz
Today is labour day. To me, just another weekend... with mild 'stomach' pain which most girls have to suffer each month >< so cham... HAiZzzz!!
Friday, 9 April 2010
人，总在改变...
每回遇到友谊问题，我总是乱了阵脚。
hmmmm...有时候，不断地挑起事端，真的会fed up!
朋友不是让人感觉舒服的吗？
为何我开始感觉有压力？
我一定要跟着你们的方式走吗？
不过，也是时候自我反省。
我确实逐渐偏向宅女内向型，都不主动约朋友，出门去~
有些朋友接受，也习惯这种相处方式，
我却也开始问自己：是种病态吗？
Anyway, 他们可不接受这些excuses。
工作累了，就真的什么都不想理了，
王先生总是要我往外跑，见见朋友，我总是喊累，懒惰，所以日子过得平淡无奇。
我想，我真的累了。
在外趴趴走了好久，就想赖在家，赖着他， 想内向，想自闭。
想想，睡在棺材其实挺不错，永远就呆在同一个地点，时间到了有人给你钱，给你屋子，给你跑车，还可以有IPod, IPhone. 不错嘛~~
hmmmm...有时候，不断地挑起事端，真的会fed up!
朋友不是让人感觉舒服的吗？
为何我开始感觉有压力？
我一定要跟着你们的方式走吗？
不过，也是时候自我反省。
我确实逐渐偏向宅女内向型，都不主动约朋友，出门去~
有些朋友接受，也习惯这种相处方式，
我却也开始问自己：是种病态吗？
Anyway, 他们可不接受这些excuses。
工作累了，就真的什么都不想理了，
王先生总是要我往外跑，见见朋友，我总是喊累，懒惰，所以日子过得平淡无奇。
我想，我真的累了。
在外趴趴走了好久，就想赖在家，赖着他， 想内向，想自闭。
想想，睡在棺材其实挺不错，永远就呆在同一个地点，时间到了有人给你钱，给你屋子，给你跑车，还可以有IPod, IPhone. 不错嘛~~
Saturday, 20 March 2010
生病记
星期六 雨天
从星期四晚上开始，整个人昏昏沉沉的，拖着快病死的身躯学yoga去，就是不要浪费一个小时5块钱的学费。
晚上发起烧来了。
虽然星期五因为有个跟总经理、与对方签合约的公司等等大牌人物- 非常极度重要的会议...
我还是决定拿病假，因为真的感觉很累很疲累很软弱...
题外话，我前阵子天天梦到总经理...
有人说，我犯太岁又没有去拜拜的结果...
我管他的，我就是不信邪~~~
我会尽力的~
是我被看得起也~
以我看来，是好事一庄，ok?
但还是阿米驼佛，我没有惹毛他...
我可是有认真工作，好不好嘛，总经理...
我会快点show you performance!!
话说，那是近日的工作压力...
是不是这样而导致抵抗力下滑，
被同事的细菌感染，一个接一个地倒下.....
病了2天，足足两天后，我终于起身刷牙洗脸冲凉.
这两天内，我差不多断断续续睡超过24个小时吧...
剩余的时间就是看戏，看戏，上上fb...
觉得自己很恐怖，48个小时后才冲凉，不过没有出去的我，没有臭臭哦！
那天跟一个朋友聊起，突然在想 ，怎么我在英国没有那么频密的生病？
外国的天气果然比较好，人也比较精神，少生病。
至少在英国，我的鼻子绝对听我的话。
爸爸说得对，生在四季国家的人身子都特别硬朗，因为总得适应不同的气候吧～
明天要去找舅舅阿姨，身子好起来，不要传染病菌给小孩子们噢～
喉咙痛的药都吃完了，怎么喉咙还是坏坏的？
anyway, 何先生，不要再给我压力，我会努力做好的！
我的抗压能力真的很差哦~
阿米驼佛～～～～
从星期四晚上开始，整个人昏昏沉沉的，拖着快病死的身躯学yoga去，就是不要浪费一个小时5块钱的学费。
晚上发起烧来了。
虽然星期五因为有个跟总经理、与对方签合约的公司等等大牌人物- 非常极度重要的会议...
我还是决定拿病假，因为真的感觉很累很疲累很软弱...
题外话，我前阵子天天梦到总经理...
有人说，我犯太岁又没有去拜拜的结果...
我管他的，我就是不信邪~~~
我会尽力的~
是我被看得起也~
以我看来，是好事一庄，ok?
但还是阿米驼佛，我没有惹毛他...
我可是有认真工作，好不好嘛，总经理...
我会快点show you performance!!
话说，那是近日的工作压力...
是不是这样而导致抵抗力下滑，
被同事的细菌感染，一个接一个地倒下.....
病了2天，足足两天后，我终于起身刷牙洗脸冲凉.
这两天内，我差不多断断续续睡超过24个小时吧...
剩余的时间就是看戏，看戏，上上fb...
觉得自己很恐怖，48个小时后才冲凉，不过没有出去的我，没有臭臭哦！
那天跟一个朋友聊起，突然在想 ，怎么我在英国没有那么频密的生病？
外国的天气果然比较好，人也比较精神，少生病。
至少在英国，我的鼻子绝对听我的话。
爸爸说得对，生在四季国家的人身子都特别硬朗，因为总得适应不同的气候吧～
明天要去找舅舅阿姨，身子好起来，不要传染病菌给小孩子们噢～
喉咙痛的药都吃完了，怎么喉咙还是坏坏的？
anyway, 何先生，不要再给我压力，我会努力做好的！
我的抗压能力真的很差哦~
阿米驼佛～～～～
Monday, 15 March 2010
Friday, 5 March 2010
The life stories
It has been awhile since my last update.
CNY has totally over, my first and last angpaus are in SGD.
First, given by Chef Eric, together with Dark Chocolate,
He said that was for V DAY. So SWEET of him!
I received my last ang pau from my cousin, on Wed, 3.3.10.
What happen recently are more emotional and I can see more opportunities are coming after me. Good or bad? I don't know. I gotta do it.
I totally have no time to blog. Life sucks huh?
But I always spend sometime on fb to ensure im not outdated from friends' news and it just needs few clicking and typing! I feel I'm probably typing too much till I'm reluctant to move my fingers on the keyboard after work!!
One thing for sure is... my working place is gonna be further and further from my home!! Just accept :( I gotta miss my fun, caring and lovely colleagues!! I know they gonna miss me too.... argh. feel so down~
Suddenly feel like talking something about studying overseas.
How does 11 months mean to you?
It's long for a long term relationship.
It's short for a degree course.
It's neither long nor short to something,like living experience.
Once you have been there, you are talking the experience for lifetime,
just like those NSmen have never stopped talking about their torturing but memorable NS stories regardless of the ages.
This happens the same to me.
I realised I never stop mentioning UK and Europe stories.
It becomes part of my daily conversation.
UK business and their eating behaviours, I share a thought.
GM's UK study and travel experiences, I join the interesting topic.
Freaking hot weather, I say I miss UK's weather.
Other colleagues, superiors, suppliers and clients asking about education background, I just repeat the stories.
About world economy and currency, I ask them to go UK now.
Chef cooking new western dishes, I know English like them.
Europe travel stories, I have a lot to share!
The movie scene, the recognisable heritage, I been there!
Practically, It comes out naturally.
I know, 11months were hard days for me but it's definitely memorable.
When can I return to UK?
OR
When can I have another unforgettable yet exciting life experience?
Thought of going to see other parts of the world...
A crazy way again ...
Expecially in this EXTREMELY HEATY country.
Looking at the raise of temperature,
rate of earthquake and tsunami,
you know 2012 is not far!
AND, my curls are a lot more straighten.
Kinda SAD~~
CNY has totally over, my first and last angpaus are in SGD.
First, given by Chef Eric, together with Dark Chocolate,
He said that was for V DAY. So SWEET of him!
I received my last ang pau from my cousin, on Wed, 3.3.10.
What happen recently are more emotional and I can see more opportunities are coming after me. Good or bad? I don't know. I gotta do it.
I totally have no time to blog. Life sucks huh?
But I always spend sometime on fb to ensure im not outdated from friends' news and it just needs few clicking and typing! I feel I'm probably typing too much till I'm reluctant to move my fingers on the keyboard after work!!
One thing for sure is... my working place is gonna be further and further from my home!! Just accept :( I gotta miss my fun, caring and lovely colleagues!! I know they gonna miss me too.... argh. feel so down~
Suddenly feel like talking something about studying overseas.
How does 11 months mean to you?
It's long for a long term relationship.
It's short for a degree course.
It's neither long nor short to something,like living experience.
Once you have been there, you are talking the experience for lifetime,
just like those NSmen have never stopped talking about their torturing but memorable NS stories regardless of the ages.
This happens the same to me.
I realised I never stop mentioning UK and Europe stories.
It becomes part of my daily conversation.
UK business and their eating behaviours, I share a thought.
GM's UK study and travel experiences, I join the interesting topic.
Freaking hot weather, I say I miss UK's weather.
Other colleagues, superiors, suppliers and clients asking about education background, I just repeat the stories.
About world economy and currency, I ask them to go UK now.
Chef cooking new western dishes, I know English like them.
Europe travel stories, I have a lot to share!
The movie scene, the recognisable heritage, I been there!
Practically, It comes out naturally.
I know, 11months were hard days for me but it's definitely memorable.
When can I return to UK?
OR
When can I have another unforgettable yet exciting life experience?
Thought of going to see other parts of the world...
A crazy way again ...
Expecially in this EXTREMELY HEATY country.
Looking at the raise of temperature,
rate of earthquake and tsunami,
you know 2012 is not far!
AND, my curls are a lot more straighten.
Kinda SAD~~
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