法航墜機事件

老實說...我累了。不知道是不是剛才哭而累了，難得會有感覺想睡覺,我快要去睡了..

這兩天有聽到法航(air france)６月１日離奇爆炸而在短短6秒内瓦機，而且機身和屍體依然找不到。這讓我想起triangle, 只要飛機飛過那個地帶，飛機就會離奇失蹤。

這次法航的墜機事件，有飛機師認爲是恐怖分子的傑作，但真的很離奇，爆炸散佈的範圍太廣而導致找不到關於飛機的任何人事物？實在很離奇，希望找出個所以然來。不然，會讓我直接跟triangle聯想在一起...而且剛剛看了star trek 4.這些都可以聯想在一起哦？　

而且，我跟sue也聊到，乘坐高級航空也沒有所謂的保障啊！當然，也希望廉價航空把最基本的安全措施做好來... 我幫sue算了，今年她已確定會搭18次飛機！我的記錄不能超越她，可是我也不想超越她，覺得搭飛機很累了...上一次春天之旅，我可以坐上飛機還沒起飛就睡着了...

歐洲的廉價飛機...還要坐個3次，平平安安，還有希望我們都能準時趕上飛機！

倒數5天...可是我很多旅遊功課都還沒做！天啊！接下來幾天要加把勁！

哦，明天早上我去做小小義工（其實是用勞力來換取午餐！哈哈！），下午要去市區..覺得比讀書時候還要忙...讀書是王，作業上課是皇族嘛！現在要relax也是假的，不過好像現在忙得比較開心..haha..

還要報告，今天學會了生平第1次用迅雷下載電影，就在那位新認識，超好人的網友協助下...她人超好，還幫我找link...搞了大半天，我終于成功下載angels and demons,不過戯院版的，太新啦，沒辦法~ crab,看什麽時候有空，我們去honeymoon之前一次看！

新馬早安，英國晚安...
crab crab 工作了早點睡覺...

祝我有個好夢，不要惡夢！

珍惜眼前人，你到底懂嗎？

臉的淚痕還在
心痛感覺清晰

真的 真的
我不能接受
這種事情

我真的害怕
就算失去所有的東西
我就是不能失去你

我一直都堅信
照顧自己不是爲了自己
而是爲了身邊你愛的人和愛你的人
所以 我也非常照顧自己的身子
也要求家人和他都照顧自己的身子
就儅你們是爲了我，好嗎？


在涼涼的春末裏
以爲暫時告別酷熱的天氣
會是好心情的一天

結果　我卻哭了
我真的很害怕　
我很懦弱　
我很憂鬱

或許　你們看了
也會跟我一樣
我還是同樣一句

請珍惜身邊的人
別到了失去再來後悔

這篇真人真事　
或許會對你目前對另一半的不滿
有所改觀

只要他在
我就很滿足了

－－－－－－－－　

背景是在倫敦
兩位曾經是記者的戀人
男主角來自檳城
女主角是一個要求到龜咯島度蜜月的女生--就是柔佛笨珍的一個漁村--一個我去了2次就厭倦的地方。
2人戀愛7周年
男主角選擇在象徵團圓的08年冬至，在倫敦離開了她...
事發時2人在檳城的新房正在裝修中...

事情發生在08年的冬至
部落格最後一次更新的標題是-黑色新娘
也就是08年12月30日，他的葬禮...

而，她的最後一句仿佛告訴我...
她會隨著他，相遇黃泉之下...

不管地點 人物 男女主角的背景都好熟悉...

而我，正離倫敦不遠..
當時的悲劇就發生在倫敦的某閒醫院，某閒房間裏...
當時，我在計劃旅行．．
當時，我正在愛丁堡準備倒數０９年的到來．．．
我在島的北部尋孉；在南部卻發生如戲劇的悲劇．．．

説到這，
我的淚又不止了。

請你們珍惜眼前人。
請你們爲了自己所愛的人好好照顧自己。
因爲你一定不會讓你愛的人因爲你的離開而傷心...

如果你走了，你愛的人該怎麽過？
她/他該帶着怎樣的心態活下去？
你們的回憶？ 你們一起計劃的未來？

我真的害怕
因爲這種害怕的感覺已經不是第１次發生了。

如果你的心情不易受影響．．
（寫論文的，我警告你不要看！不要影響心情，當心論文做不完！）
我想借用這個故事警惕所有的人
不要把一切都當作理所當然
倘若你真的珍惜眼前人
就不要渴求
你要感恩他／她和你手牽手走人生

也請對自己的健康負責
那是你對你愛的人最重要的責任

請看這裡．．．
也可以自行看男生去世之後的日記．．

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實在不惑上天的殘忍
把戀人分隔陰陽之外
帶着非常悲哀的心情
翻看了女生的部落格

這個女生很有性格
可惜部落格甚少更新
她很勇敢地一個人來到英國
實現自己的打工游歐夢想

一路走來 她的工作不順
後來沒有提及爲何男生到了英國
想必也是一段艱辛的路

看到她的英國生活日記
讓我比較起來
自己是多麽的幸福
雖然我們的夢本質不一
但我還確確實實地幸福許多
窮學生的日子還沒很糟

他們似乎也曾計劃到希臘愛琴海
不知是否在他離開前成行？

我實在對他們的分離有太多的不捨
默默祈求上天不要再陰陽分離戀人
默默祈求女生過得好好地...

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The power of dream

Embrace your life and definately I encourage for dreaming! ^_^

I love this song, it's so positive!

People, life is full of challenges, take a step further by having a dream.

'How can a man lives without a dream, it's soulless' quoted from what he told me ^^


The feeling of 'a dream accomplished' is ... directionless ?

I dont really have any exact feeling as I'm waiting for the day I'm with the graduation gown which visually and officially marks the completion of my degree. The perfect ending. Thanks myself for holding the dream long enough.

Perhaps there are still many dreams to be further accomplished that I dont really have the directionless feel. These dreams keep me motivated at all times!

It's time to imagine another pictures of career and the life after 23 years old ^_^

Omg. i'm so far away from adolescent age... Anyway... Please remember that I'm forever 22.

I love 22 because many dreams have been accomplishing for the year! That's the best ever year so far. The degree, him, the 41days backpack with sister, the snow, the hostel life... And 22 means double. Too much reasons for me to love 22.

So, please rmb im always 22 years old ^^

I'm really feeling thankful. Appreciate for what i have!!

The power of dreaming is amazing! You may feel demotivated sometimes, but never forget to keep a dream that keeps you moving. The dream can keep you away from depression, sickness, discouragement and the down effects! In addition, the feeling of dream accomplished can be awesome, the feeling of 'effort paid off' is beautiful.

Keep dreaming!!

all about signaling

Really need some time to get rid of those molecular stuff.

I was overtired and supposed to fall sleep right after i touches the bed. things work differently. when the signalling pathway was almost fully triggered the sleeping mode, i read a sms and i guess the overproduction and some proteins cause the stimulation of another proteins that keeps me awake.

I cant sleep and those possible signaling pathways just ring the bell. Start thinking why am i always cant sleep, some signaling pathway must be overproductive that constantly stimulates the excitatory event. This is NOT good, cause its one of the feature for cancerious cell.

then, last night i took 2 panodols cause i was feeling heaty (Still feeling heaty, get sick soon??!!) but the panadols did not make me feeling sleepy, i forced myself to sleep at 5.30am for an hour. then wondering the paracetamol synthesis....blah blah blah

Gosh.

Stop the signalling thingy...scary >_<

i'm academically free!!

Firstly, I would like to express my deepest gratitude to h2, evan, x8, ning ning, chou didi, xiong jiejie, nana, crab crab and my dear dear who have been showing the encouragement in the previous entry. Not forgetting busier net and fx and those who constantly visit my blog but did not show yourself.. you know who you are =) who i may not know who you are =(

[wonder how the visitor numbers boom to 111 in 2-3days...do my blog really have so much visitors?? show urself pls..heez]

Eventually, I've get it over.
the madness of study and molecular pathophysiology.

I cant remember if i were to have a strong inner voice kept acting as an antagonist of my study signalling molecules during poly days. The study was heavily about molecule signalling pathways, countless of them that my head is still filled with all those molecules, kinases, pathways, reactions, chemical names, diseases linked to the pathways... This is just part of the molecular, there is still carcinogenesis, oncogenes, tumour suppressor genes, retinoblastoma, toxin, micrabial adherence, biofilm.... I need sometime to rearrange the scramble information in my brain.

small incidence during the exam..the exam was 3hrs. after 1hr plus, my classmate (ang moh auntie) was the first one to pass up the paper (btw, it was near 100 students taking this paper, mainly biomedical students)... I was very surprised. then i continued answering my question...after 2hrs, i went to toilet, then i saw her sitting in the toilet, like... crying?? but we couldnt talk due to the presence of invigilator... I wonder what happned lah. gotta find out next time... too nervous??

The exam was held in St James church, still within 10min walking distance, nothing fabulous- old, hot and not too spacious church and the size of the table was half of the one took in Lipman building. I guess the possibility to pass the paper is high, I hope and pray so. Degree classification will be released on 2 July. Yes, I may not know the result, instead I would know my degree classification directly. That's what a final year entry student expect.

Anyway, a degree is good enough for me. no more studying. I'm reluctant to take exam anymore. .. ... though my dad was joking to sponsor me for Master, he's really joking, hours ago. The first hand thought about self-declared graduation was shared with my dearest parents. Btw, today (tuesday) is their 25th wedding anniversary in lunar calender ^^ Wish they can hold their hands together for another 25years. hmm...i dunno when's the last time my dad held my mum's hands. Gotta ask him to hold her hands on coming 9 June, the wedding anniversary for 'english calendar' ^^

Let share a news about Malaysia University. University Science Malaysia (USM) is now the top university in Malaysia which starts their own students recruitment this year, to select the best students. Unfortunately, it's a shame that the uni made 'administrative/technical' mistakes by uploading additional 4000+ students. My sister is one of the victims. So, she has to be waiting for the real university acceptance. Otherwise, she is the potential nutritionist too. USM speaker has promised to guarantee a 'uni place' for these unfortunate (or fortunate?) students. Not sure what's and where's her TRUE university profession and place, which should be known by 15 June. More news about the USM enrolment mistakes click here (english), and here (chinese).

Then, after the exam, i was awarded with the freshly made muffins. it was much more presentable and delicous, no doubt :D. I should learn how to make too. I guess no hassle for me too =D





Yea, she was not around in her room, just left a love letter and a note for me ^^


sorry, the brain was only able to produce those genes, transcription factor, signalling pathways kinda words.

haha ....

I gotta catch my sleep soon...after like 36 hours without sleeping?? -1hr sleep from 5.30am to 6.30am today.


Loads of exciting things to settle - about the honeymoon trip, the job, the application, the holiday etc...

FYI, we will be away for our 16 days honeymoon trip next Thursday (11 June), which is most likely the last europe trip for the year. check the blog out on 27 June =P

I will definately miss blogging for the 16days^^

So good to be academically free...no more assignments, projects, research and exams!!

nervous lah

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

damn nervous lah

OMGggggggggggggggggggggggggg

Holding a believe - PASS

I wanna cry T_T

I need luck T_T

A deep breath...and continue.....

can all of you, who happened to read this entry by the UK time 2pm (SG/MY 9pm, Tues), give me some encouragement in the comment box??

A big thank!!!!

I'm anxious that I could hardly remember anything now.

I want to PASS lah!!!!!!!

Go sushi!

Tell me how NOT to love her??

Despite her tiredness, her moodiness, her business...

She gives me a GO, together with my favourite sushi.

How lovely.

Wonder how her brain juice produces massive ideas,
truly surprised and warmed.

GO GO GO!!

Last 12hours....

It's June

June's here.
Meaning I have about one day for study only.

2June, 5.40pm, marks the end of my academic sufferance.
Can't wait.

Dont get me wrong.
I still love nutrition.
but not the exam.
if you create a facebook group named as 'i hate exam'
the number of members will dramatically boom
the fact is - no one loves exam.
it's damn cruel to apply the examination rule on your interest/hobby
imagining pass the travelling exam before you step out to travel.
Immediately give up the trip.

If you hate me, you can first chop off my hands and legs,
then slowly take out the kidneys and other organs,
finally let the blood dries off.
If you like me, you can just target my heart or brain.

Thanks.

I know molecular lecturers hate me so much....

PASS PASS PASS!!
Pray for me!!

thanks.

我要做坏女孩

我跟你们说...

远距离恋爱最可怜的是...
不能发脾气！！

你看了简讯 自己在那里失眠 他不知道
嘟着嘴巴双手交叉坐在电脑银幕前也不想回简讯 他不知道
所以你在生气 想发脾气 想有人哄 他也不知道

然后 时差问题 8个小时以后
睡觉醒了 就忘记了 就随便回复简讯
他会以后你考试没心情
然后就不了了之
因为他根本不知道你生气

我羡慕那些可以 发脾气的‘女朋友’
这个权力我都没有 很纳闷啊！


haiz.不爽啊！
我要做坏女孩
我要发脾气　

我不是好女孩
我要发脾气

我不是好脾气
我要发脾气

我不是完美的
我要发脾气

我是人家的女朋友勒
我要发脾气


偏偏你是远距离
人家看不到你的表情　
偏偏他是木纳的
所以你没有资格发脾气
偏偏他认为你脾气好
你当然也发不起脾气来

最后　只好选择　发泄　
现在　刚刚好　发泄完毕

嘟嘴　没有了
脾气　消了
那就　睡觉吧

晚安

然后　他可能不知道我生气过．．．
不然　就是很久以后他才发现．．．
但是　他一定不知道我为什么要发脾气．．．



认命！！！

我要做坏女孩
永远有权利发脾气！！！！

不要再给我顶着一个好女孩的光环了
我是一个坏到半死、脾气超不好、超级野蛮#、超级幼稚的女孩！！

真的羡慕那些可以发脾气的女生
那些可以让女朋友发脾气的男生
什么时候我可以来一个大大的脾气？？

geramnya...

不要问我什么事，女生发脾气可以不需要理由的，而且也懒惰讲了...

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原来幸福不只是有人爱你、疼你、愿意照顾你、帮你洗厕所；
他还可以让你肆无忌惮地发脾气，然后用心+设法地哄你开心...

我要大大生地说： 我要这个权力啦！

男生们，如果女朋友敢敢在你身上发脾气，那代表你已经是离她心里最近的人了。
你要默默承受她的脾气，然后再设法哄哄她开心，你们就会成为最幸福的恋人了。

~妮~

好，我要睡觉了。自己发脾气都没人哄的，睡觉比较好，heng!!

I <3 crab

话说，8个星期以后又开始另一段远距离了...
我的感情路真崎岖．．．

真的会想念
有你的空气、
你制造的惊喜、
你的情人节烛光晚餐、
你的冰淇淋奖赏、
你的早餐、
你的招牌tomyam炒饭、
你的发牢骚、
你的浪漫情史、
你的呕吐糗事、
你的偏食、
我们的迷你玫瑰花、
我们的脱发投诉、
我们的冬季公主落难游、
我们的郁金香见证婚礼、
我们的蜜月分离游、
还有很多很多的特别回忆...

这段相依为命的日子，
还真的会特别怀念．．．

我..已经进入情绪化的阶段了...
你..千万不要送我机，我会哭的！

哈哈，好像还很早呢，还有8个礼拜！哈哈！